Reality looks so much better in my head.

Let's see, about me -

- Gender is a social construct, I believe in vibes. He/him most of the time. They/them a few other times.

- I write. It helps me process life. Sometimes I post what I write on AO3 under the name lokisilverhiddleston

My fics -

Temporary Bliss - the mothership, my beloved fic which introduced me to this wonderful fandom. 75k+ words, complete. Angst and emotions, and so much pining. Not for the faint of heart 🫣

Patterns On My Veins - much more light hearted, mutual pining human AU, hidden crushes. WIP, currently 26k+ words, regularly updated. Comments solicited 😅🫠

Wherever I go (you follow) - One shot. 6k words of pure Crowley angst. Post S2, but no plot, no speculation. Mind the tags! Complete.

Someone like you - One shot, complete. 5k+ words of shameless, self-indulgent smut. Crowley watches Masters of Sex.

Always happy to talk to people on Tumblr. Love the Good Omens fandom. Hyperfixating on Aziraphale for the foreseeable future.

I didn't wait for so long to see their human doppelgangers get a brief happy ending.

Okay, say they didn't want to show any intimacy before God and Satan, but could they not have hugged just after the 'we have come to a decision?'

Crowley, who grabbed and kissed Aziraphale when he was leaving last season, could not even hug his angel before they both died? Or do something, anything which felt intimate? The hand holding was initiated by Aziraphale, the finger kiss thingy was initiated by Aziraphale, Crowley couldn't even find it in himself to comfort the angel he supposedly loved for eons?

And don't even get me started on how devastatingly heartbroken Aziraphale looked when Crowley said 'I just want a real universe'. TF you mean that your world is not real? That world in which you spent 6000 years pining for each other? It was all for nothing?

Could they not have just spoken words that implied 'I love you'? Or the actual words? Crowley rejected Aziraphale in that scene, choosing humanity over Aziraphale. Which incidentally is the same thing that the entire fandom hated Aziraphale for after the last season when he left for heaven. Aziraphale atleast did that so that he could save everyone, INCLUDING Crowley.

Crowley just decided to let Aziraphale die.

I am so mad about that I'll probably have a whole different post about it.

It was so emotionally unsatisfying, that goodbye. It felt hollow, cheap and unnecessary. It was robotic, all I felt while watching that was the sense of them just getting it over with.

And no, it's not about they didn't get to kiss properly. It was never about that.

- what was the point of introducing Jesus?

- what was the point of all the build up to a final showdown of heaven and hell versus humanity?

- what was the point of the apocalypse when just stealing and burning the book of life could have ended everything?

- what was the point of creating a godless universe after everyone who lived in the god's universe had already been obliterated?

- what was the point of Aziraphale and Crowley dying for the creation of a new universe? They still ended up with their entire universe and everyone and everything they ever knew being erased from existence.

- what was the point of Michael just tearing pages from the book and nothing being done to stop them?

- what was the point of putting the line about Metatron tweaking the book and fiddling with reality if there was to be no payoff from that hint?

- what was the point of Jesus learning to find the lady? He still ended up erased from existence

Don't give me Crowley and Aziraphale sacrificing themselves for our sake.

Give me Crowley and Aziraphale finally free to stay with each other.

Don't give me pale imitations of them finding each other after 13.8 billion years.

Give me Aziraphale and Crowley happy together for those 13.8 billion years.

The true victory of their love would have been in them getting to experience it with each other. Which was denied to them for 6000 years.

Just as they are, finally free to love each other?

Was it so difficult to give us an uncomplicated, joyful happy ending with our lovely ineffables?

This kind of angst is fun in fanfiction, not in the actual show. Especially in the finale.

Good Omens always brought me joy. Now all it will bring me is the fact that Aziraphale and Crowley never existed.

They didn't get their South Downs happily ever after.

They died.

THEY DIED.

Let's recap, shall we? For the last three years what were the biggest fears of most of us? And what did they do with that?

Humans? Check

Major character death? Check

Universe ended? Check

Alternate universe? Check

Aziraphale belittled? Check

Crowley mean and petty? Check

No hug/closeness? Check

No closure for F15 plot wise? Check.

Fandom splintered by heavily opposing views? Check.

I could go on and on and on but I won't. There is no point.

All hanging around on this weird little hellsite and just being in love with the story that brought all of us together 💙