AMERICA YAAAAA!!

Really quick Chuuya x reader comfort fic , except i can't stop myself from putting a little angst.

Sunsets where one of the few things that managed to calm you while still letting you be emotional. Its warm and wonderful colors where truly a sight bringing beauty into your desperate days.

The grass was soft under your hand playing gently with the small flowers. The gentle breeze mixed with the feeling of Chuuya's hand passing through your hair made you feel at peace.

You finally managed to completely relax under the big tree. The melanchony was still strong but at least you weren't alone.

Chuuya made you feel at home like no one ever did.

Suddenly you were back to being happy and young , only thinking about how many swallows were flying in the sky and how it would be like to fly just like 'em.

With him you felt save and found. Maybe if heaven really existed it would be right here and right now with him.

"You must be tired.." - you heard him say ; you responded with a surrendered sight.

" It's fine ~♡ You can rest now ".

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TW! Kinda angsty , i wrote it down as i was kinda overthinking by myself.

Sometimes you ask yourself what is the real purpose of life. If you are here in this world for a reason , and what this reason could ever be. Chuuya has been asking this to himself since the end of times. ~°

What am i useful for? What is my job? Who am i meant to be?

Chuuya was the kind of person that instead of watching in silence , takes action. The kind of person to do things first instead of waiting for someone to do 'em. That person that runs to help before everyone else arrives.~°

He has a complex and methodic brain but still throws himself into following his instinct. He knows it too well that it's just gonna hurt him. He already deducted that. But still does it. In the end , he knows no one else would do it.~°

Chuuya is the kind of person to put loved ones first. The kind of person to do everything for them ; he is really brave. The person that is not scared to put dirt in his hands if it's the right thing to do.~°

Chuuya was happy to help others even if hurting himself.

Chuuya deeply cared for Dazai. He made him feel human despite being driven by his instincts. ~°

Chuuya trusts Dazai with his life.

Despite everything , Dazai is still the only person Chuuya can't manage to help even by gifting him his soul. Dazai didn't want Chuuya's help.~°

But Chuuya refuses to give up.

Chuuya can't live without Dazai.

The theme was "the alter ego that saves you from everydays troubles". I used this prompt to share a personal message of mine.

I wanted to express how sometimes for an asexual person like me , living in a society where most of the time sex is at the core of most relationships , gets hard and demotivating. So as many people do , we create an alter ego that fits in society's labels and "save us" , giving us the time to find a place where we can feel loved and accepted.

Wrote as request from: @astral-gamma

Many poems sung about 'em , oh sinful young souls~°

Destined to wander among this empty sea of starts together ; they only had each other.

A white Dove with their candid wigs yet still unable to fly , found it's way back to their cage unemptied by a new guest. A Rat , dark like a black hole , steady as stone suddenly was trapped in the Dove's home.~°

Where did he came from ? Why is it here? ~°

The Dove was confused but didn't ask.~°

The Rat then started to talk ~° and talk , talk- ~° for a long , very long time.

Could you ever believe it ? Such different creatures finding themselves so near one another.

Nikolai found the hope to fly again thanks to the Rat , while Fyodor  found himself trapped into the Dove's love. ~°

Oh what misfortunes these souls had to go through! Oh , how much time had to pass before they could find each other! And still , despite their condition they found hope and love appearing before them.~°