Awkward Potato

Nature, coffee and a good book… That’s a good way to spend a Sunday!

The place looked familiar, but the faces didn't... As if she was somewhere else, but she knew she was in the right place... Maybe it's the wrong time, but that's highly unlikely. Maybe the time she spent away changed this place, shaped it into the unknown. Everyone's staring, yet no one is. She just feels like it. While everyone's minding their own business she feels like their business is to watch, to judge, to rule her out of this place, to remind her that she no longer belongs here. What a frustrating thing to feel. What a weird life she's living. Going to places she's never been to and feeling right at home, and going to places she's always been to and feeling like she's on a different planet... Her mind just gave up; there's nothing to do to undo what has already been done. Her eyes are filling up with regret. Or maybe it's tears. But, after all, isn't regret our invisible tears? Isn't it the one thing that holds us back from moving forward in our lives? Thinking about the past, what we should've done and what we shouldn't have? What we should have said and what we should've kept to ourselves? Aren't these what break us in life? Aren't these what torture and kill us quietly? No one feels it, no one knows, no one senses the change in your thinking, in your life, in you.... Only you can feel like this and only you can escape from it. But what if there's no escape? What if you're now forced to live your life unhappy, unsatisfied because of that one single mistake that reshaped your life into what it is now? What if you can't rest, you can't breathe, you can't change anything, you can't change yourself? What if circumstances change you in a way you don't wanna be changed? What if you have to live a life you hate because you've forgotten about the life you love? Mistakes, worries, regrets and foolish hope only make things worse... Forgetfulness, forgiveness and letting go is the key to moving on in life. To moving forward in life... #memories #writing #writinginspiration #university #lebaneseuniversity #beirut (at Lebanese University, Campus of Hadath)

In books I have traveled, not only to other worlds, but into my own. ~Anna Quindlen 💫💫 Gonna start reading this now; I'm so excited!!!! 😍😍😍🙌🏼 #book #reading #readingislife #danbrown #angelsanddemons #books #bookstagram #reader #read #bookmark #booklove

My heart stopped beating the second i turned my back… I am going back someday, i have to… I got reunited with my soul, but i left it there, and i have to go back to meet it again and again… This is where I belong, this is where i’m me… An old me and a new me at the same time. An old friend, and an old enemy… Memories…. It’s where i was me, and i always will be me… Right there in my mind, and only in my mind… It’s not a physical place and can never be… My soul cannot be in a physical place.. I cannot be too…. I envy my soul… It is where I want to be… I don’t want to be a person, i want to be a water drop, being pushed around the world… Not against its will, but totally with it…. I never belonged on this earth… I never felt that i belonged… And now i know why; it’s because I don’t and i never will… I’m stuck in this mortal practically dead body… I wanna leave; i wanna leave it.. I wanna go anywhere and everywhere… I wanna be anything and everything… I never cared about anything or anyone, i have always been looking for my soul in a place, in a person, in a thing. I discovered that it’s in everything i see, i hear, i touch, i feel… I feel alive… I said it once and I’ll keep on saying it again and again and again until the end of time and space… The end of me… I feel so small, yet so big… My heart has swelled and is now larger than me, than who i am, than who i’m going to be… It’s outside my body- again, not physically- but i can feel it leaving bits and bits of it on every branch i pass by… I wish it could just get out, not bits of it, all of it. I don’t need it… I need peace again as i’m feeling myself unwillingly drifting away from it… Back to reality… Back to the grave…. ~inspired by the wonderful views of yesterday’s trip to Qannubin 🌹 #nature #lebanon #mountains #peaceful #calm #writinginspiration #inspiringview #writingaddiction (at Wadi Qannubin, Liban-Nord, Lebanon)

I still feel alone, even though everyone is here… It feels like i’m lost now… I don’t know my way home, and i don’t want to know… I love being lost.. It’s not at all what people think. It’s not sad, it’s not miserable, it’s not negative…. It’s actually the most positive i have ever felt… Watching the drops of water moving down the heavens, i now know that life is a water drop, it rains on you in the most unexpected and unpredictable way. The journey along the way is beautiful, life is beautiful.. And in the end, the drop reaches the stream, where it joins all the other drops, and forms a lovely river moving towards eternity.. Towards forever… No drop is left behind, no drop fails to go down the stream, no drop sticks to one rock, one situation, one choice… No drop is alone… No drop sounds bad, or looks bad.. No drop is less important than another… Not to the viewer, not to the listener, not to the trees that are alive because of these drops…. I see rainbows that a camera can never capture. I hear sounds that no microphone can record… The sound of heaven on earth… The sound of angels chanting the beautiful song of life… I cannot remember what negativity is, or how it feels… Only positivity, because that is afterall the only way to enjoy life, the only way to live… I was never alive; i was dead… And i will soon return to my death, hoping to all hopes that this place will be a reminder to me of the day i was alive… For eternity, for centuries, for decades, years, months, hours, minutes, seconds… I lost track of time, but i doubt i ever will again… (2/3) #nature #lebanon #mountains #peaceful #calm #writinginspiration #inspiringview (at Wadi Qannubin, Liban-Nord, Lebanon)

“Not all those who wander are lost”… That sentence has never felt so true to me.. It has a whole new meaning now that i tried walking in the woods on my own. It is so relaxing, so peaceful, so me…. I wasn’t really lonely, or alone… I just felt like it… I wanted to listen… Listen to the silence; listen to the lovely calm song of nature… If only i was able to stay here forever, locked in the trees; locked in the green, the pink, the white, the blue.. In all the colors i can or can’t see.. In me… My thoughts are racing and stopping at the same time… I like to mind my own business… I like my mind… I like that i’m feeling free, even if it’s only for the day… It does feel like forever is here… Stuck in the colors, the sounds, the water, the air… My life has stopped for now, enjoying the view… (1/3) #nature #lebanon #mountains #peaceful #calm #writinginspiration #inspiringview (at Wadi Qannubin, Liban-Nord, Lebanon)

This guy right here 👆🏼 ruined my life in 3000 different ways and i’m somehow okay with it 🙂🔫 Happy Birthday Tom Hiddleston ❤️😍 wish you all the best ❤️❤️❤️