My heart stopped beating the second i turned my back… I am going back someday, i have to… I got reunited with my soul, but i left it there, and i have to go back to meet it again and again… This is where I belong, this is where i’m me… An old me and a new me at the same time. An old friend, and an old enemy… Memories…. It’s where i was me, and i always will be me… Right there in my mind, and only in my mind… It’s not a physical place and can never be… My soul cannot be in a physical place.. I cannot be too…. I envy my soul… It is where I want to be… I don’t want to be a person, i want to be a water drop, being pushed around the world… Not against its will, but totally with it…. I never belonged on this earth… I never felt that i belonged… And now i know why; it’s because I don’t and i never will… I’m stuck in this mortal practically dead body… I wanna leave; i wanna leave it.. I wanna go anywhere and everywhere… I wanna be anything and everything… I never cared about anything or anyone, i have always been looking for my soul in a place, in a person, in a thing. I discovered that it’s in everything i see, i hear, i touch, i feel… I feel alive… I said it once and I’ll keep on saying it again and again and again until the end of time and space… The end of me… I feel so small, yet so big… My heart has swelled and is now larger than me, than who i am, than who i’m going to be… It’s outside my body- again, not physically- but i can feel it leaving bits and bits of it on every branch i pass by… I wish it could just get out, not bits of it, all of it. I don’t need it… I need peace again as i’m feeling myself unwillingly drifting away from it… Back to reality… Back to the grave….
~inspired by the wonderful views of yesterday’s trip to Qannubin 🌹
#nature #lebanon #mountains #peaceful #calm #writinginspiration #inspiringview #writingaddiction (at Wadi Qannubin, Liban-Nord, Lebanon)
