Feeling really panicky about my future and I feel like I am bothering everyone by talking about it too much so Im breaking my tumblr silence to personal post about how anxious I am. I thought my anxiety would lessen after graduating but it has only increased. I donāt know what to do. I donāt know what direction to head in andĀ Iām always scared I am doing the wrong thing or heading in the wrong direction, but Iām wasting my life worrying all the time. I just wanāt to have a stable career and a place to go and to get to be with the people I love. I just hope Iām not choosing a path that I am destined to fail in.Ā Also, I have gained 10lbs and I weigh the most I have ever weighed in my life. I donāt think people really think I look different but none of my clothes fit me and it makes me extremely unhappy with myself every day. I have been running most days and trying to watch what I eat, but all the the things I am anxious about take a long time to get fixed and I am so stressed about never making it. Anyway, hereās my anxious rant I feel really terrible rn even after having a really good day.Ā
