Danny Storm Born First Of Her Name.

i haven’t got my hopes up. i’m fully expecting to be told “its one of those things” or it’s just stress/lifestyle related or absolutely nothing will happen and i’ll have more tests or referrals to go to in the future. basically i’d love to go to this appointment and have them say ah yes “this” is this problem and “this” is how it’s fixed, give me the treatment and send me on my way. but i just highly doubt that’s what’s going to happen.

i also did a bit of off the clock training for my new job. i’m sure the majority of them think i’ve either got the job just to work with lyle and don’t actually know what it entails or they think ill find it too hard and quit after a few weeks. so im determined to go in and blow them out the water. lyle did overtime yesterday so i went and joined him and practiced with all the power tools. so that when i do my actual training, ill already look like i know what im doing.

i’m gonna get fucking jacked!

so i’m no longer a cleaner, i’m now a gardener!

it’s more pay and more hours, which are both desperately needed. but they’ve thankfully been willing to adjust my hours so that i can drop addy off at school first and lyle can finish in time to pick her up! which will also save us on child care!

i get to be outside all day! and doing things with my hands! like, i think everyone who knows ive gone for the job thinks ive done it just to work with lyle (and that is a perk) but genuinely i need this kind of work! the two times i tried working in an office lead to the two worst depressive episodes of my life. i mean there were other factors involved but my brain just associates office work with despair now.

this will literally be different hands on physical stuff every day. the seasons are the only schedule we follow! and my chaos driven adhd brain thrives in this environment. i’m gonna get so jacked too!! i can’t wait to dig in!

and i can’t wait to be a woman in a male dominant industry! is that toxic? one of the guys has already complained that “women don’t do half as much work” and another refused to greet me when lyle introduced me to the team. and i can’t fucking wait to show them all up!! ok yes, this is probably toxic.

AND i don’t have to clean fucking toilets anymore!!!

and i actually wasn’t ready for how physical the nostalgia would feel. like an actual fucking punch to the gut.

growing up, this was my comfort show! (and charmed, which probably tells you a lot about me) so there’s the nostalgia from remembering all the times i’ve watched it.

plus the last time i watched it i was in my early twenties, like 19-21, so i was the same age as half the actors/characters. now im obviously 15 years older and there’s a nostalgia for that age, that just simply wouldn’t have existed until now.

and, it’s set all in the late 90s early 00s which we all know is a world that no longer exists. so there’s a double barrelled nostalgia. one for the the world i once lived in, and one for the future i once believed in.

more than a couple people have said they’re enjoying my (currently weekly) instalments of my swingers diaries, so i’ll keep going but i’m gonna keep hiding these under a break, just so it’s your choice if you wanna read them. consent is always key!

starting to feel like we’re not newbies anymore. we got invited to a house party which’s was about an hour away, so the hosts invited us to stay round also, which definitely made things a whole lot easier. they also have THE MOST STUNNING house ever. if i had a house as beautiful as theirs, i’d be throwing parties every other weekend!

the couple that hosted were absolutely lovely too. really easy to get on with, loads of fun and filled with banter. mrs was so gorgeous, blonde, athletic, great fake tits. although we got on great and had a good laugh together, there wasn’t really that spark between us, so we didn’t play. mr was an old school rocker type. bald and bearded and also athletic. he had a whole music room with merch and props from all sorts of bands, including a sound box from a metallic set! there was definitely an attraction between us and we did end up playing, but barely to third base, and spent more time swapping spotify playlists.

there was a single guy at the party. as in he didn’t have a partner, he was supposed to come with one of his single girl friends (to keep the numbers even) but she bailed last minute and he was kind of annoying about it. he was definitely attracted to me, and it’s not that he was unattractive he was just a bit of a knob and that actually lead to a bit of a revelation for me. i can’t enjoy playing with a guy, if lyles not got a connection with them! like obviously not a sexual/attraction kinda thing, but if he doesn’t like the guy for what ever reason, then i sense that and it affects how i feel. so although we did play a bit, it wasn’t great and he spent the rest of the night trying to re-initiate things despite me trying to politely decline.

there was another couple that also lead to another revelation for me. lyle and i both like the older couples. i’m also really beginning to believe that regular sex is actually the key to staying young. because when i tell you this couples ages you are not going to picture the people we met. he was so suave and had such an air of subtle authority to him. one of those moustaches that curl at the end, and yes it was grey, but in a a silver fox kind of way. honestly, instant attraction. she complimented him in a way that made them both shine. fire red bob that matched her lipstick and nails, and i’m pretty sure her soul. come to think of it, it also matched her corset that let her fantastic boobs spill out. again, lyle and i both caught eachothers eyes as she walked in and we just knew. we all got to play also, but i think at that point the alcohol had been flowing a bit to freely and we didn’t get to indulge as we would have liked. so we’ve already planned for the 4 of us to meet up again separately. anyways they’re 60 and 56 respectively.

there was another couple that came late and left early, and to be honest at that point i was distracted so couldn’t tell you much about them.

it was different form the first party we went to in the sense that it was more of a house party (with sex) rather than a straight up sex party. it was lots of fun, i am a bit of a party girl at heart and i’d be lying if i didn’t say i love being the center of attention (hence me doing the splits in the middle of their kitchen). i am loud, bubbly, probably over confident, and generally easy to get on with, parties do kinda of suit me. however i don’t think it’s quite lyles scene. although he’s also confident, quick and witty, and will happily take center stage if asked to, he doesn’t enjoy it the same way i do. plus i think he ends up clicking over into protector mode when he thinks im getting too drunk, particularly when he’s worried someone’s being a bit to handsy. if he’s worried he can’t relax and enjoy himself, and so doesn’t get to play as much. which leads to the night feeling kinda lopsided and less like we’re sharing the same experience.

so i think we’re gonna give parties a skip for a little while. at least smaller private parties, we might try a bigger rave style party, if one comes along. we are super keen on going to a swingers club though. which i think will be a happy medium between meeting a couple and going to a party.

since you’ve made it this far, and because this is under a cut, even though it’ll probably get marked as mature, heres a couple pics of my outfit before and during the party. 😏

yeah maybe. i mean, i very much think that you can sleep with someone and NOT get feelings just as well as you can NOT sleep with someone and develop feelings. so i mean, what’s to say he doesn’t develop feelings for someone else eventually, even if we weren’t swinging?

plus i think you have to understand how truly open you have to be with eachother to do this. we’ve actually had a talk about what we’d do if the other starts to develop feelings for someone else. like we’ve actually had a discussion about it. i don’t think it’s something most couples would talk about. like generally if someone goes to their partner and says “what happens if you start to like someone else aswell” and their partner will inevitably say something along the lines of “oh that will never happen!” or “i only have eyes/love for you!” and the discussion dies before it starts.

though polyamory/ENM isn’t what we’ve gotten in to this for and we’re not particularly interested in it, it is adjacent to swinging, so we’ve talked about it.

in this scenario i think lyles far more likely to tell me if he’s developing feelings for someone, than if say he had a crush on a coworker or someone else. plus, the people we meet up with are also in the same mentality. there’s less social barriers and boundaries are more openly discussed. like kissing, cuddling and how far the intimacy goes.

so yeah, maybe he develops feelings for someone else along the way, and maybe that sucks, or maybe that ends up being amazing. or maybe he doesn’t get feelings and this just ends up being a fantastic fun experience that bonds us even closer.

looking back now i can easily pinpoint that buffy was the most influential show i watched in my youth. honestly, i think it STILL reflects in my style. like i think it’s suprises no one to find out i was a mega buffy fan. for YEARS id ask myself “what would buffy do?”

this was my bi-awakening! not only because i had a crush on half the cast but because williow was the very first queer character i ever saw. if you’ve seen the original movie too, buffy has a mark that says she’s the slayer and it’s a mole on her collar bone. i have a mole on my collar bone. you could not convince me i was not the next vampire slayer.

. my one supervisor calls fridays “fuck-it fridays” because she fondly believes in doing nothing on a Friday and it’s hard not to agree with her. i’ve got an interview on monday, with the company lyle works for, he seems pretty positive that i’ll get the job (i wont count my chickens till they’ve laid their own eggs) but it is making today an extra fuck-it friday.

. we’ve got another party we’re going to on saturday! i’m way more excited for this one than i am nervous. having experience definitely helps, but we’ve also had a group chat going with all the couples invited and it’s been so much fun flirting and joking with all of them. and i will definitely not be the youngest or newest this time!

. i do on average 15,000 steps a day, and that’s only the average because i often don’t do much on a weekend so it brings it down. i quite regularly break 20,000 steps. i honestly thought the average amount for most people was around 10,000 but i recently found out it’s only between 4,000-5,000! but from what i can surmise that’s because most people have a sit down job, so just don’t have a reason to be up and about. people who do have a physical/on your feet job, do hit the numbers i average. how much do you walk? i’m curious.

. my friend gave addy a jacket that’s got “6-7” on it. yup as in what ever nonsense gen alpha has been on about. but the jacket is way to big for her, its gotta be a teenager size. so i’ve adopted it and addy thinks it’s hilarious when i wear it. she also told me yesterday that “6-7” is a “really really old word, like over 100 years old”. so i informed her that both “6” and “7” are indeed old words, much older than 100 years but that “6-7” used in the colloquial manner she’s implying, has barely existed for more than a handful of years! - she loves when i talk to her like this! she’s going to have the best vocabulary one day.

of course i do things backwards. so we started off with an orgy, than a foursome and now we’ve had a threesome. i don’t even do unconventional things conventionally. next weekend we’ll just sleep together and the following, i’ll just masterbate.

so we hosted this time and invited a stunningly gorgeous woman over. and i mean she was stunning! thick long black hair, beautiful naturally tan skin and big blue eyes rimmed in black. her lip, nose, and tongue rings all sat beautifully in her face, and perfectly complimented the body piercings i discovered later in the night. and talking of her body, holy fuck! just perfect, and artfully decorated with ink. the way my jaw dropped when she walked through the door.

not only was she gorgeous but we clicked instantly. all three of us did. we wined and dined her, or rather she drank whiskey. we had dinner in the garden we couldn’t keep our hands off eachother, i can only imagine what the neighbours think.

we were up until 5 in the morning, so i’m not sure i could actually give you all the details even if i wanted to but ill tell you a few things i learned. i am definitely definitely bisexual. yeah im sorry straight (or gay) people, but how the fuck do you chose?! im a top, and a lot more dominant than i thought, at least thats the way it seemed when the strap on came out. and, i really really really enjoy sharing.

i’m not sure how many of you have fantasised about a threesome (it is one of the most common fantasies among all genders and sexual orientations, so probably a few) but i’ve fantasised about one since i was old enough to fantasise. there’s always the worry that real life won’t live up to the fantasy, but honestly, this was better than i could of ever even dreamed up. i ticked off so many bucket list experiences in one night! anything we didn’t manage to tick off during the night, we achieved the next morning. we didn’t drop her back off at the station until the afternoon!

but of course, with three people involved, the possibilities are endless, so i already know this isn’t the last time we’ll see her. we’ve actually got a little group chat where we all spend the day sending flirty teasing messages to eachother. it’s so much fun. and yet again, the experience has brought us even closer, neither of us has stoped grinning since the weekend. if you think flirting with someone is fun, then flirting with someone WITH the person you love, is top tier!

but genuinely i think ive got body dismorphia or something. are these abs? when i look at the picture im like ok yeah i can see that, but when i look at my body im like nope absolutely not. that’s just the lines of your body and good lighting. but like are they actually abs?! i don’t feel like i exercise enough to have abs so they can’t be right?? i’m sorry, im aware this is a humble brag, but you can’t accidentally get abs? like you have to be going to the gym and at least semi working out right? these aren’t abs, it’s just the shape of my body, i think.