I called him earlier to ask something about son's vision plan. He was half asleep when he answered and I told him to call me tomorrow.
"Okay, I'll call you then," he said, "Love you baby."
"I love you too," I said.
We'll never get back together. We don't belong together. He'll never say it intentionally. But oh my poor stupid heart. God. I am doing this to myself. I cut myself open on my grief. Use the sound of his voice to dig myself a grave. I know this is OVER and I swear I'm okay. But it's like if I let go completely, who am I?
He apologized. For cheating and hurting me. He said he was a coward for the way he handled things.
I pulled these cards for us the other day. After his apologies.
And sent them to him, along with this message
"This was my card pull yesterday. Death for me and Judgement for you.
This is not a card of physical ending, but of profound, necessary metamorphosis.
The Transition: I am in the absolute thick of a major life transition: closing a massive chapter, shedding an old identity, and clearing out the dead wood.
The Process: Death is swift, but it isn’t always easy. It requires one to surrender to the ending so that something entirely new can be born. I am actively releasing what no longer serves my growth, refusing to carry old baggage into my next phase of life. I am standing in the stark reality of "what was is no more," and preparing for the sunrise on the horizon.
You are in the phase of awakening and reckoning.
The Calling: Judgement is about a massive wake-up call, a moment of absolute clarity, and a spiritual "rebirth." You are hearing the trumpet sound, forcing you to look back at past choices, evaluate your actions, and face the music.
The Evaluation: You are undergoing a self-evaluation or a major realization about a connection and your life path. It’s an energy of absolution, looking for redemption, or finally understanding the deeper truth of a situation after a long period of sleep or avoidance.
The Interaction: The Metamorphosis vs. The Awakening
When these two cards meet in a relationship spread, they tell a very specific story:
No More Middle Ground: Neither of you can pretend things are "business as usual." Both of you are being forced to evolve.
He's not happy. I know he's not because he won't talk about anything and because we still share a bank account and I can see he's binging on fastfood alone and going to movies by himself. Comfort activities. I asked him twice if he was happy, like genuinely curious, and he avoided the question both times.
But there's nothing I can do for him and it can't be my responsibility. Right now I have to take care of myself.
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