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Yet again...another letter. Another hope, a dream, lost in my tales of fantasies that will never come true. I treasured you. At one point I realized you weren’t the one for me, but I stayed. I don’t know whether I did it for you or me. We had our ups and downs: most being extremes. I ignored your red flags and decided that I was the only person who could help you better yourself. I honestly tried for the sake of my love for you, and in hopes of our love to return. You got bored. There’s no way in sugarcoating that. Of course at the moment I want you to miss me but really truly I don’t know why I seek it out. I’m hurting myself by trying to remain close to you, it’s just I gave you so much of myself. Hell, I started to lose who I was because I had given everything to you. You were one of the firsts for me, I gave you my heart and my body. Eventually it just felt as though I was being used and I no longer enjoyed anything we did. We used to be in love. We were good at one point- but it wasn’t enough. Neither for me nor you! I have a list of the ways I had been mistreated, and trust me I know I’m not perfect but damn man. You had some fucking issues. I hope you can honestly figure them out. I’m sorry I can’t support you and help you but you hurt me. You hurt me so many times. It would break your heart to see how I cried- honestly. I know you’re an asshole but you would’ve cared about that. I deserve better and I truly hope that I can find it. One thats genuine and one that i like. I don’t know why it is I fell for you but I hope I can get that crush again. That love that I deserve. I’ll pray for it everyday and hope that I can finally have someone who will appreciate me. As for you, I hope you can find someone too. Someone who will love you like me. Because honestly on some cocky shit i’m not sure you will find a girl willing to put up with your bullshit. But of course that would require you to actually like her. Idk. I don’t know how you can find someone like me because honestly I’m one of a kind. And eventually imma be fit as fuck so you’re gonna regret losing me. I really hope you do. With that, goodbye. You gave me some nice memories and it was cute and fun but wrong. So I appreciate it but now you’re just another story!