best friends & soulmates forever

so. all people have varying levels of natural psychic capacity. phil is extremely naturally gifted. i am gifted. hana @danielbear is the most psychic person i've met in my life and i have known a lot of witches and psychics.

but natural capacity is just a starting point; any kind of practice like this requires you develop and strengthen your skills. someone can be born with perfect pitch but unless they actively practice singing they won't have the stamina/breath control/range that a classically trained opera singer has, you know? (hana has both. jsyk).

and like. when someone has a higher psychic capacity? that means they have both a type of energy and a connection: it's a connection that allows them to be psychically receptive, but at the same time so many things in this world are drawn to their energy. the connection works both ways.

it's why phil has so many stories about weird interactions with strangers (barking at him on the street etc), and this contextualizes the the insanely improbable experiences that dan and phil have shared (like seeing ball lightning).

phil individually and both of them as a couple have absolutely off the charts magnetic energy. us all being here is a testament to that. (i can't really speak to dan's individual presence or psychic capacity, because he's closed off to the possibility for the most part. could also be a minor essay i think. same as my thoughts on phil being best friends with his psychic grandma as a kid, but i digress).

the point i'm kind of circling here is that it's kind of difficult to reach adulthood without having developed some kind of either natural or intentional protections. a lot of people have very different framing for it, but it boils down to that psychic receptivity = having a joint openness + energy that appeals both to other humans and whatever else is out there.

developing a divination practice with tarot/other cartomancy/pendulums/runes/etc is a way of learning to open yourself up on purpose, and that often means learning the flipside: how to set boundaries, close doors, deny access. they are skills that develop jointly.

phil may have had some level of learning that in childhood! we know he's superstitious and i highly suspect there's some more earnest things we've never had a window into. but that's not where his and dan's extra strong psychic protections come from.

many many people's understanding of matters like this includes intent as an essential component of everything. and for years the absolute strongest intention both dan and phil were pouring into everything they did was to not be seen or recognized. to not have their privacy violated again.

i struggle to even watch phil's face for the length of an entire pre hard launch joint video. for personal reasons, seeing someone whose entire everything screams don't look at me because if you do you'll see how in love i am and that'll give us both away both hurts and is uh. it's very successful on me. i just don't look. i couldn't even come to this conclusion until after the hard launch.

i'm getting away from the point again. even though it wasn't the primary goal, the intensity of their closeting created very, very strong psychic boundaries.

now den i hear you saying. what the fuck does that mean?

well.

after dan and phil crafts: slime posted in april 2024, i posted a tarot focused analysis essay that kicked off a wave of tarot conversation & lead to a Bunch of people all reading tarot about dan and phil.

i was one of the first people to pull cards and it felt like it usually does when i read regarding dan and phil: big picture semi-obscured answers that require a lot of both capacity and background knowledge to recieve and interpret. there's more of a.. distance? between me and the answers i'm looking for when i pull cards about dan and phil (as compared to for people who asked me to read for them).

the distance increases if i have any intention to post about it, or even message about it in a groupchat.

the thing is, i pulled cards more than once during that window of time. and as soon as more than the first few people both pulled cards and posted about it? there was an reflexive energetic shutdown on dan and phil's parts. people were able to get basic things, but there stopped being new information and the chance to discern more specific details dropped to zero.

it was very tangible!!! i believe i talked about this with @yonpote at the time but probably hana too? i know i'm not the only one who's noticed and it's just the most dramatic example of something that has happened at other times, too.

i genuinely didn't try reading about dan and phil for a few months after that with the expectation that they would still be locked down. i knew i'd both get nothing from trying and that the chances of me being able to read accurately about them in the future would decrease, because i'd no longer be as neutural a presence to their automatic safeguards if i kept pushing.

on the other hand.

the most psychically aligned with them i have ever been—like, the most able to gain insight in ways that i cannot explain away, i am not joking about being tormented by visions—was in 2018/19. it increased through december and continued in waves afterwards, but was harder to measure as the hiatus started.

i was very active in my spiritual practices then (my capacity was strong) and what i experienced happened in a way that hugely indicated a higher level of openness on their end of things, too. which like. yeah. that tracks. their energy had shifted into choosing to be seen.

i haven't tried reading for them since the hard launch. spiritual practices kind of fell by the wayside when i started working again last fall while staying part time at college. i had the very unleasant realization that i am currently too disabled to do both at the same time, let alone engaging in hobbies.

but even then i've still had some experiences post hard launch. (very notably, a dream that is uncannily similar to one i had in early spring of 2019). i suspect the intensity of their psychic boundaries may have relaxed to some degree, especially in the closest window of time post hard launch, and that they'll raise again but not to the level they were in the past.