Dandy Guy In Space

Fell asleep with a heavy heart I thought you’d lighten, but I woke up feeling numb and a little nauseous thinking about my identity, but my mind drifts to you. It’s like you’ve become apart of who I am. Maybe that’s why I’m always asking you about myself. That need for a seal of approval to confirm I have worth and that I am a good man, and it needs to be renewed often. It’s so stupid that I don’t know who I am and it breaks my heart.

Maybe I’m still too emotionally immature. Emotional withdrawal is the only way I know to protect myself and others from poor decisions made in moments of emotional distress. It’s no one’s job to make sure I’m okay or to cheer me up. That shouldn’t be an expectation I place upon others. I hope to be a better person in this world.

Although feeling empty or hollow can be dreadful, there is a certain level of peace within it. The brighter side to being empty is that you can fill yourself up with meaningful things.