Sexuality
Mark smiled at all of the screaming fans on the floor bellow the stage. Sweat dripped from his forehead as he gazed out at the sea of screaming NCTzens, posters, and signs held high in hopes of being noticed. They had fulfilled their purpose.Â
Yuta and Taeyong were taking turns pointing out signs, waving and winking at the fans that held them, making them squeal louder. Johnny, Jaehyun, and Haechan were goofing off with the fans, asking weird questions like âwho likes fish more than pizza?â Taeil and Doyoung were in another corner, singing ballads to the fans and grinning when they screamed louder. It was chaos. It was family.
But Mark couldnât stop that gut wrenching feeling as he watched his bandmates, so secure in who they were.Â
After the concert would be the fan sign. Mark was looking forward to having a few minutes to meet his fans one and one and have a quick conversation with them. Maybe that would clear a few things up. There were quite a few cute fans. Maybe heâd decide to give his phone number to one. He doubted it though.
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The fan sign last about three hours before the last fan came and went. They were all really cute and Mark loved watching them smile and giggle. But he didnât feel a romantic connection.
He wouldnât be worried if it werenât for the fact that hehad felt a romantic connection. But it was when the rest of 127 all got home to the large dorm theyâd all decided to share. Sitting on the couch was his romantic connection. But it wasnât supposed to be.
âWelcome home!â Lucas called from his spot lounging on the couch, long legs propped up on the coffee table.
Mark gave a half hearted wave at the male and made his way to his room, face to the floor until he almost smacked into a wall.
âMark, are you ok?â Taeyong asked.
He was the one that had wrapped an arm around Markâs waist to stop him from hitting the wall at the last minute. The action made him blush.Â
He mumbled something incoherent and made a beeline for his room, slamming the door and leaning against it.Â
âFinally, Iâm safe!â
He had forgotten that he had roommates. Thankfully only one was currently in there.
âHey, are you ok?â Doyoung asked.
Mark couldnât lie. Not to Doyoung.Â
He shook his head and slowly slid down the door. When his butt rested on the floor, he pulled his knees to his chest and buried his face in them, his eyes pricking with tears.
âWhoa! Markie! Whatâs wrong?â Doyoung asked, quickly making his way to the door.Â
He quickly locked the door so Haechan couldnât come in and sat beside Mark, pulling him close.
âI didnât find any of the fans attractive!â he sobbed.
Doyoung gave him a quizzical look.
âThatâs alright, Markie, youâre not a bad person or idol if you donât find them attractive as long as you love them and appreciate them,â he said.
Mark shook his head.Â
âItâs not that. I wasnât romantically attracted to any of them. I couldnât see myself wanting to date any of them,â he said.
He really didnât want to have to say it.
Doyoung rubbed the youngers arm gently.
âI didnât either. Itâs alright, youâll meet someone youâre attracted to some-âÂ
âNo! There is someone Iâm attracted to! But I shouldnât be!â Mark cut him off, balling his fists in his own hair.
Doyoung was even more confused. He didnât know what to do with Mark. He looked so vulnerable and sad. Maybe he ought to get his best friend up here to help. Maybe that would help calm him down.
âWant me to get Lucas to come talk to you?â he asked, moving to get up.
Markâs face flushed bright red and he gripped Doyoungâs wrist tightly. Surprise filled Doyoung at the sudden burst, but then, he understood.
âOh Markie,â he cooed, pulling the younger into his arms, Mark blushed brighter.
He desperately wanted the floor to open and swallow him up so he wouldnât have to deal with the torment that would surely follow now that a group member knew his feelings. Then again, this was Doyoung they were talking about. Doyoung wouldnât do that.None of them would really.
âWhy are you so ashamed about liking Lucas?â Doyoung asked.
Mark was almost speechless. He thought it would have been obvious.
âBecause guys are supposed to like girls! Not other guys!â he said.
âSays who? You can like who you want.â
Mark let out a low cry.
âIâll be the only one in the dorm that likes a guy though!â he whimpered.Â
Doyoung couldnât help what he did next. He blurted out a loud, bellowing laugh that had Mark shrinking in on himself again in Doyoungâs arms.
âDear, sweet Markie. You really are blind,â he laughed.
This surprised Mark. Why was he blind.
âYou really havenât noticed the tender kisses between Johnny and Ten? The passion between Yuta and Taeil? You havenât noticed that every single member in this group apart from Jaehyun and you is into guys?
This truly came as a surprise to Mark.Â
âB-but they all were flirting with the fans...â he muttered.
Doyoung rolled his eyes.
âThatâs called fan service. We love making the fans feel good and they love us. Sure, we flirt with them, but even if we were into the girls we flirt with, thereâs lots of them and only 21 of us,â he said.Â
Mark nodded. He was finally understanding. Or at least he thought so.
âOh, and by the way, Lucas likes you too. He just thought you were straight. Now go tell him how you feel,â he said, getting up off the floor and dusting his pants off
Mark soon followed. He took a deep breathe and unlocked the door. He pulled the door open and was about to walk out when he bumped into a large chest.Â
âIs it true?â Lucas asked.
Mark looked down at his feet, embarrassed.
He felt a large finger slide under his chin and tilt his head.Â
âIs it true? You like me?â Lucas asked again.
Staring into those beautiful eyes, Mark couldnât lie, but he was too stunned to speak, so he just nodded.
A giant smile broke across Lucasâ lips and he held Markâs chin in place as he leaned down and captured Markâs perfectly inexperienced lips in a soft, chaste kiss that left Mark breathless as he brought his hands up with rest on the tallerâs shoulders as lips moved together perfectly.
âTaeyong! You owe me 20 bucks!â Doyoung yelled from inside the room.
It didnât kill the moment. Mark and Lucas simply ignored him. They ignored Taeyong, who grumbled and attempted to squeeze through the blocked doorway to hand over the money, before giving up and stepping back into the hall.
âDonât make me give you two ground rules like Kun and I laid down for the sex rabbits down the hall,â Taeyong said, glaring at the door that housed Taeil and Yuta.Â
His comment went unnoticed as Mark slowly pulled away from the kiss.Â
âI really like you,â he whispered before being pulled back into a kiss.

















