Bye

i wish moving meant moving somewhere else then this hell hole im living in like California or something, but it doesnt, it means moving to a different stupid house that sucks ass ! 

Yes , I have a boyfriend. We started dating 4-26-14 (: ♥

We met at my party 4/14 . He's my brothers friend, taller & older, Perfect♥ anyways. he was flirting with me at my party, & i was flirting back, but what he didn't know was i had a boyfriend at the time, but i was going to break up with him cause he lied to me & didn't even say happy birthday to me. Anyways off topic...

he asked for my number at my party & i gave it to him. it was weird, it was a automatic click with him. we texted everyday 24/7 , never running out of things to say, also we would text like 3 paragraphs each text. it was amazing he was different, in a really good way. i literally fell head over high tops (not heals) for him! the only bad thing was he was that he went to a different school, but that really didn't matter.

so we are still in a very happy relationship. going on 3 months almost ! which isnt that long, but it is to me (x the only problem is , i have trust issues & im scared hes just gonna leave me one day & break my heart. or im going to break his heart... but i guess i dont have to worry about that now (: also that I'm kinda busy which he doesnt understand. I'm busy handling 2 Youtubes (mine & the reckless beauties) & dance practice. he doesnt know im a youtuber trying to make it big.

I really haven't been blogging cause I've been busy with school, dance, youtube, twitter, & boyfriend. Iduno where to start the update on my life. A lot has been going on, Good & Bad. 

it seemed as if i don't attract good guys in my life. i only attract the dooshes that want to get in my pants.

I'll admit, that I like this guy ... He was/is my brothers friend, but they never talk anymore. The problem is , I don't talk to him. I basically grew up with him but ever since my brother & him went to different high schools, they barely talk anymore which means I don't talk to him anymore.

I barley see him around school. I sometimes see him in the morning .. I want to talk to him but I don't know what to say , plus I think that would be weird for me to talk to him randomly. He's never on facebook , like he doesn't post anything so i can't like it & start a convo out of that . He has an Instagram , but he doesn't post any pictures. he just likes pictures (he liked 3 of mine (x (; ) 

So today we had the Winter Assembly ! It was really awesome & fun because theres so many people who went & I love preforming in front of big crowds ! (x 

But the dance we preformed isn't one of those ghetto booty shaking dances, it was one that was really cute but to show off our dancing skills. Obviously, high school people just want to see booty shaking or someone messing up. So they really didn't like this routine. They only got loud when we shook our butt a little in one part -.-

In the begging of the year we were better then cheer & everyone gave more props to us. But after this dance , everyone now thinks Cheer is better because they did this really cute but easy routine. Cheer always gets more props then us because they are like pennys , in everyones pants (; ahahah sorry Im not sorry ;D

Well today was a good day except for the fact I'm so exhausted from dance practice & that people get on my nerves . Of course when i say a guy is cute some guy has to go up to him telling him i like him & crap  -.- its annoying like can you not ? 

So i hurt my leg performing yesterday at the basketball half time & i had another 3 hour practice today . I couldn't sit out at this practice because we were cleaning a dance we are performing tomorrow so now my leg hurts more. Greaaat -__- ! but it'll be fine (: Excited to perform in front of a big crowd tomorrow ! The winter assembly :DD ! Time to show everyone that dance is better then cheerleading & that we have a lot of skill ! (x

Are their such things as good guys anymore ? It seems like all the guys I know or see around don't want a committed relationship they just want a hookup. Its horrible. All the guys that are cute are dooshbags who are conceded & don't care about anyone but themselves! Or they are really cute & they can get any girl they want so basically I don't have a chance with them.

Like honestly I'm not scared to talk to them or message them on facebook , or like follow them on instagram but iknow that they won't like me back so its pointless... 

I want to go to DigiFest soo baddddddd I'm like crying! All my favorite youtubers are going! This sucks so bad that I can't go! it makes me so sad, but One Year I Will Be There & I will be on stage with them (: ♥

So my ex textes me outta the no where saying we don't talk anymore. So i thought that was fine just to text him back cause i guess we're friends... but then ofcourse he has to bring up that hes sad and the nice person i am i say whats wrong & thats where i made a mistake. 

He doesn't understand that I'm 100% over him & whatever he wants to say won't make me jealous. It just makes him look like a freak who still obviously has feelings for me. 

Lol he thinks somethings bothering me & he thinks its because of him . Lmao omg (x people like this gets on my nerves so much , like don't text me ever again .!