I donât know if itâs safe to share my story here but I just realised that how many ppl think itâs easy to fight micro aggressions and racism among peers, especially for teenagers. It was until my mid 20s I realised that I was the trophy frd in that circle, they needed a a âsmartâ girl in their circle and I just fitted in lol. I only realised that friends are here to support u instead of making fun of u. I could still rmb the maliciousness against certain ppl who werenât part of our grp and I couldnât do anything. Itâs more like choosing between the lesser of two evils but in fact u have no choice lol
Sorry I took a bit of time to reply. Iâm trying not to put myself on the internet too much :/
Some people (even adults) thought it was easy to fight your peers â as easy as writing an essay about the peer pressure. Unfortunately, it is not the case.
We can break free from these micro aggressions only with running away from those perpetrators. (This is my own opinion based on my own experience). We canât fight it. We are the minority. Our voices will not be heard by others. We will get shunned by others because these perpetrators have the loudest voices. Unless they did blatantly bully others, outsiders wonât notice the micro aggressions.
Suck. But thatâs how the real world revolves.
Once upon a time, I was seven or maybe eight, I forced my parents to buy the same bag that every girl used. It was childish. But I didnât have friends. I tried to fit in because everyone else hanged out after school together. I lived far from those kids and my neighborhood kids went to other schools. This was my first lesson about friendship.
As I grew older, I keep on learning more. Once, I got abandoned by my so-called friends because our opinions clashed. I was 14 that time. It was the same friend who my parents always compared to because she always got straight As in exams. She made the other friends ignored me too.
That was why when I moved to another school, I tried so hard to insert myself in the existing friend groups. I tried to befriend with the âpopularâ kids. At the end, I gave up because I realized they were toxic to those who âdefyâ them and it was tiring. (Tbh, it was much worse than this because it was boarding school with kids from different backgrounds being grouped together)
(I donât know why I ramble about my life story)
So, it was a norm for me that I should not give my own opinion because I might lose friends if they disagree with me . It was a norm for me to be left alone because I wasnât that important. It is a norm for me not getting invited to parties because they think I will not join them.
I try to break free from these norms. Thatâs why I created this blog to rant about my own opinion. Strangers could say anything but it will not hurt me because I donât know them personally. The last one still hurt me because I do want to join gatherings, talking and gossiping but I guess I should just love being homebody.
I donât want to talk about racism because it needs separate post. My rant would be too long because I have so much to say about racism especially if you live in a multiracial country.
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These was shared on thread by one of the loons and I genuinely think need to be shared to everywhere.
It was dark. There was no mirror and how come you would know what was written on your face? If you said you can take a guess from others, wrong! It was not like the same person went around drawing the same thing on everyoneâs faces.
I invite everyone to read the replies because I have seen more people from Kamloops especially shared the similar stories.
I don't know if anyone will read this, but I wanted to share. I have 2 sons that graduated here in BC, Canada. 2020 and 2024. In this high-
the "but he was 18 and old enough to know better" comment is so fucking stupid to me
eighteen-year-olds are a lot closer to children than they are to fully developed adults. the reason eighteen matters culturally is because that's typically the point where people begin leaving the environments that shaped them: they graduate high school, move away from home, meet different kinds of people, encounter new ideas, and have their assumptions challenged for the first time
all kids are products of their environments. that's true whether we're talking about positive values, harmful beliefs, immature humor, political opinions, or social attitudes. people are not born with an innate understanding of the world: they develop one through exposure, experience, and reflection
"he had a choice to say no!" â people have this incredibly flat understanding of what peer pressure actually looks like in practice. peer pressure is environmental. it's being surrounded by certain attitudes, jokes, behaviors, and values so consistently that they stop registering as unusual because to you, they aren't. a lot of the time it's more "everyone around me treats this as normal, so i never even stopped to question it" than some scenario where you reluctantly give in into something stupid
that's what socialization is: human beings are constantly absorbing cues from the people around them. we copy language, humor, beliefs, fashion, mannerisms, and social norms without consciously deciding to. pretending every eighteen-year-old makes every decision in a vacuum, completely untouched by their friends, community, internet environment, and social conditioning, isn't taking personal responsibility seriouslyâit's denying how human behavior actually works.
so again: to me, bringing up his age isn't an excuse or a justification, it's a contextual explanation. demographic matters. time period matters. location, friend groups, and social environment all matter, no matter how badly some people want to pretend they emerged from the womb with a fully developed moral framework and have never once been influenced by the people around them.
when people say "he should have known better," my question is always: known better according to whom?
the people around him? the culture he grew up in? the social environment he was immersed in?
because if those things were already teaching him better values, we probably wouldn't be having this conversation
cancel culture often treats current moral standards as timeless and universally obvious. a lot of teenagers in the late 2010s were immersed in edgy, shock-value humor that many people now recognize as offensive and unacceptable. do people seriously think the cultural impact of idubbbz, filthy frank, pewdiepie, ray william johnson, and the broader "edgy internet" ecosystem just magically evaporated in like 2015? especially in some predominantly white town where that kind of humorâand in some cases outright bigotryâwas already normalized by the people around them?
millions of teenagers spent years online in environments where shock value was rewarded, offensive jokes were treated as comedy, irony was used as a shield for everything, and being as outrageous as possible was the entire point. that doesn't absolve anyone, but it absolutely helps explain why certain behavior was so widespread and why photos like this exist in the first place.
why are we acting shocked that a teenager from the 2010s behaved like a teenager from the 2010s?
and before anyone suggests it: no, i've never done or participated in anything like this, so this isn't some guilty act of self-preservation disguised as nuance. i grew up watching fish tank setup videos, ihascupquake, and reading the bible. english wasn't even my first language, which probably made me more aware of "bad" words and their connotations because i had to consciously learn them rather than absorb them passively. i also grew up in a majority-black city, so my social environment was completely different from his.
i'm not arguing this because i see myself in the situation. i'm arguing it because i think understanding how people become who they are is more useful than pretending everyone arrived at adulthood with the same experiences, influences, and level of awareness
this is also part of why so many young influencers and celebrities are perpetually doomed now, in my opinion, and why i genuinely think people are going to become increasingly desensitized to scandals like this over the next five years:
this is the first generation whose adolescence has been digitally archived. every dumb joke, bad take, embarrassing photo, immature phase, and socially accepted mistake has been preserved indefinitely so that years later complete strangers can dig through it looking for ammunition.
i think that is the cruelest aspect for bipoc communities because so often genuine cultural pain gets reduced to internet discourse, weaponized for a few days, and then discarded the second people get bored and move on to the next controversy.
some people are posting about this out of genuine hurt, and i feel for those people, but a lot of others are doing it because it's entertaining; because they enjoy feeling morally superior; because they're bored and like the rush of a new scandal. because they're resentful. or because the internet has trained people to treat public figures like fictional characters whose lives exist for consumption.
some people can dress it up as accountability if they want, but a significant portion of this isn't "everyone just hates him because he's more successful than x person" or whatever: the answer is much simplerâhe's an easy target for a lolcow. he's asian. he's neurodivergent. he's visibly sensitive. he's emotionally expressive. he's accessible through himself, his team, and those bumfuck "friends"
what irks me the most isn't even the 'haters' to be honest: i dislike a lot of his fans as well. you cannot tell me a lot of the people on twitter genuinely, actually like him. they might someone attractive and new trending, but they also enjoy the spectacle of watching someone get dragged often enough. they enjoy refreshing the timeline to see what people are saying and they enjoy the social rewards that come with publicly condemning someone "just in case" even more
"i'm only here for my oomfies, i don't care about a man" "i feel so sick and heartbroken" "he is so over he'll never recover in my eyes." everyone rushes to stake out the strongest possible position because that's what gets rewarded online
some of these reactions don't even make sense on their own terms. if you're genuinely heartbroken, disgusted, and convinced this person is beyond redemption, then condemn him, unfollow him, remove the profile picture, and move on with your life
why are you still centering him in your online identity?
if people truly believed the worst possible interpretation, their actions would reflect that. instead they keep engaging, keep posting, keep talking, keep watching. that doesn't look like heartbreak, or sensitivity towards the black community, the jewish community, or the queer community to me. it looks like people enjoying someone being a lolcow while maintaining the moral high ground. they get to participate in the spectacle while convincing themselves they're performing a public service
i'm losing focus, but the point isn't that people who are hurt or disturbed by the images shouldn't be and it isn't that nobody should criticize him ever: the point is that there's a difference between understanding how someone ended up doing something and pretending they were born with fully formed 2025 politics, social awareness, and cultural sensitivities
if you're trying to judge character, intent, or growth, context is relevant. and if context is irrelevant, then so are learning, redemption, and social progress because at that point we're no longer evaluating people based on who they were, what they knew, what they were exposed to, or how they've changed.
that's not accountability.
accountability requires understanding what happened, why it happened, and what the person has done since. if your position is simply "they should have known better" and the conversation ends there, then you're not interested in understanding human behavior. you're interested in assigning blame and enjoying the gratification that comes from feeling like you're performing a public service.
once you've decided context doesn't matter, there's nothing left to evaluate except whether someone's past conforms to your present expectations and it almost never will
I was going through subreddit Kamloops, trying to find something that might make me understanding more about his hometown â due to his very questionable school friends. Someone posted an excerpt of Hudson doing interview for GQ back in December.
â⊠he grew up in Kamloops, British Columbia. The area, which Williams describes as a âpocket desert,â has played host to a surprising amount of Hollywood productions, including Jurassic World: Dominion and The Last of Us. ⊠Hudson describes his hometownâs population as a mix of ârednecks and bougie people who are always going to Vancouver to do some shopping."â
Some agreed and some did not â which understandable especially if that is the place where you were born, raised and lived. But that was not what caught my eyes. Thereâs one comment left talking about as if they knew Hudson personally.
âSounds about right. This clown was literally the biggest toolbag during his time in Kamloops. Nice to see that his little taste of fame has changed absolutely nothingâ
Sounds very personal. The comment made in December 2025. The fame of Heated Rivalry and Hudson Williams were about to take off.
I do not know what is the meaning of toolbag here. I searched through urban dictionary and they gave me multiple meanings.
A person of utter uselessness.
Those who try to hard at being "cool", when really not "cool" at all. Usually wears a popped pink ralph lauren polo and spiked hair. They will usually try to deny their toolbagness, but everyone else can't
Or according to Wiktionary:
A tool or jerk; an obnoxious person.
Itâs a derogatory word. So, I am curious as to why this person made that kind of comment. We all know Hudson once said:
"Yeah, there are a lot of things I tried at the wrong time that just didn't feel right. ⊠And um you know, life is inherently embarrassing and progress is inherently embarrassing to try and change. ⊠Um but I would say the only thing that I found embarrassing is when um I was trying things to fit in or trying things that didn't feel authentic to me. Um, and sometimes I'm okay to go out my way to be like, "Oh, I hope to become this a little bit more in an aspirational way, but when it's in a more sort of um fitting in type of way, I find that just regrettably embarrassing."
So either that person is bluffing or it was the truth, we all know Hudson Williams isnât afraid to change and he is a changed man. If you doubt what I said about him, read all his interviews. Watch all of his interviews. He never backtracked from what he said.
Also, I do not want to justify any questionable actions of him and his friends. But they were minors living in their own small bubble and never saw the world before. If you said you were once young too but never did these horrible things, remember your upbringing were different than others. You should be grateful that you never experienced those kind of things.
I noticeably saw how his film friends group talked highly about him in one interview. Some were (are) very supportive of him until now. This might be nothing but we can see the difference.
I do hope he uses this opportunity to clean the âhouseâ. Some are meant not to bring to the future.
I invite everyone to notice the pattern in which every time something happens for H that is a really big deal in a positive way (Met Gala, CSA win, etc), shortly after something toxic is vomited up by a certain snake hive that is designed to drag him back down and shift the narratives around him from positive to negative. Further, these drops always seem coordinated for nights and/or weekends, or in other words times that are outside of 'business hours' when PR teams might be slower to respond.
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A gentle reminder that all of this could be easy. Simple. Tidy.
At any time, Hudson could have shut down the romantic speculation about him and Connor.
At any time, he could tell us thatâs his bestie, he loves him like a brother, they have a nice bromance, or whatever other nonsense men that like each other platonically say.
No one is forcing him to flirt with that man in public. Online. In interviews. On camera. Off camera.
No one pressed him to talk about their relationship that bloomed into something lovely. No one pushes him to use romantic language when he answers questions. Every interviewer that asks about their connection gives him a platonic way out. Every time, they present the question in a friendship-shaped box and every time, he eagerly undoes the ribbon and says oh no, i love him. my soulmate, my baby. I need to hold my baby.
Mentioning him unprompted, drawing hearts on his pictures, dedicating special slides. No one told him to mention him several times yesterday. No one told him to dedicate his most prestigious award to him last weekend.
No one tells Hudson to touch that man intimately, to hold him closely, to caress his hands and kiss his face. To sit in his lap and share drinks and cigarettes.
This has never been part of the narrative. This is him, choosing to recenter his love for that man every time he gets enough room to breathe freely.
Heâs making these choices, every day.
So respectfully, yes, we all have our opinions about the Situation. We all have different, valid interpretations. But one thing you will never do is convince me that he doesnât wake up every single day loving that man, and making the active choice to share his love for him where all of us can see it.
Heâs not even private about it. For as much as they share only with each other, he still carves out time to make sure that we know how much he thinks about him, and that his world and his universe would grind to a halt without Connor in it. Itâs imperative to him that we all know he would kill any one of us for him.
And I didnât even include shipping into this⊠this is just taking him at face value. 100% face value.
I see a lot of angry solos and antis and gossips chiming in these days to say mean-spirited things like, âhe doesnât love Connor.â
I have to askâŠ
When has he not loved Connor?
Heâs always loved him. Heâs loving him out loud. Thatâs not something anyone should be debating.
#That group of 'friends' be liking shady shit man... I just keep thinking about how Connor is quick to correct Hudson when he gets self-deprecating.
Yall I'm not kidding when I say my stomach dropped when I saw this...
I'm gonna be not-PC when I say this. I fucking hate how H's """friends""" are moving with regards to him and his relationship with K. Do yall remember Chelsea's story on VF day lightly (but unequivocally) shading H? Kalem's weirdness with his IG + his dating profile using his pic with H? Now this?
This is not how your friends should be behaving with yall. This is toxic. It's passive aggressive. It's disrespectful. It feeds into the (already credible) narratives we've been hearing about re: the HK relationship leaning towards toxic, on-again off-again etc. I think we've all realized that his old Vancouver group that he shares with K would choose sides in the case of a breakup. And I think it's pretty fucking clear where their allegiances lie.
I can't even talk about this specific action by Samantha without being way too fucking pissed off. How the fucking fuck dare you? Who the fuck are you to belittle who's supposed to be your fucking friend? How the fuck do you think that's a normal and okay thing to do?
I'm scared to even bring this up but it smells of an undercurrent of casual racism, too. I'm not the most equipped person to talk about this but I feel it needs to be said. The way that these people are talking about K like she's the Queen of Sheba and H is fucking Quasimodo is so fucking disgusting that I'm genuinely speechless...
And yet people wonder why we keep saying that H needs to cut off some of his friends...
C is the biggest fucking cheerleader for H. He loves him now as well as who he used to be. They get each other on a level no one else is able to. They were literally in the same place in life 1.5 years ago. There is no power imbalance, real or imagined. They don't owe each other anything. And yet they still choose to be there for each other through everything anyway.
Idk maybe I'm rambling atp but I'm genuinely shocked and so fucking upset that H is surrounded by people who don't gaf about him or his win but about """who he bagged when he was a nobody""". As if Hudson fucking Williams isn't a prize himself.
Now I can see clearly that he is indeed in a toxic environment. What do you mean you liked a post about people who downgraded him? Yet you used him to launch your first vlog? You didnât even publicly congratulated him for his winning yet you can liked that post?
Him being so bad with compliments is because of these peopleâs doings. It was so bad that Connor needs to force him to accept the compliments.
I donât think someone would ever give me the correct answers. Only speculation and theories. I accept that. But I need to let this out or itâs going to eat my mind the whole night. I believe what I see. I see what I want to see. I see what people want me to see. However, what I see raises so many questions. The big red question marks are so annoying. Huh? Huh?! HUH?!? was mostly my reaction.
The biggest questionâbecause I donât understand why it contradicts so much with whatever this beloved Canadian boy said, PDA. He said he loves PDAânot the overtly excessive PDA in front of strangers, but just normal physical affection toward someone he loves. With that, we can see how much he leaned into Connor, consciously or unconsciously. Hands holdings, waist-grabbing every chance they get. The list will be so long that when I revise it, I scratch my head with the odds.
Yet, with his partner, his girlfriend, the PDA is limited. Why? Every hudconners was probably expecting him to kiss her cheeks or at least hug her after he was announced as a winner. Itâs a normal reaction toward your partner who sit next to you. I would sway a little bit if it happened, to be honest.
She patted him like he was her bro and I want to positively assumed he gave her a smile. And thatâs it.
"There's a lot of taboos around exploring physical intimacy with people you admire and love without people, especially in western culture, who are like "Oh they're fucking, they're doing this" and so I was always frustrated by these kinds of notions and especially with Connor who I love dearly. No matter what people think, I'm always gonna just physically express my love." - Hudson Williams x SiriusXM
A lot of speculations was discussed from blogs to blogs. I read almost all of that. I tried to understand their dynamics. Maybe some people are like, âwhy are you so parasocial with their relationship?â. I donât want this to be honest. I promised myself back in January that I would indulge with this Heated Rivalry fandom until February and then go back reading my dark romance books. However, my plan got side tracked with how this specific Texan boy behaved with this specific Canadian boy or vice versa. And of course, their relationship will always be a topic because whether I like it or not, she-who-should-stay-unperceived is in the equation.
So some speculations that deem worth to talk about was she-who-should-stay-unperceived does not like PDA. Thatâs weird. Their previous pictures of them that was leaked (?) showed otherwise. They were hugging. They were kissing on cheeks. Or maybe she just didnât like to show PDA in public? Or maybe it was just a pose to the camera with their friends?
As someone who loves physical affection, can you hold yourself from having or not doing PDA with your partner especially when you are in such delicate moments?
A habit must formed from many years of relationship and habit is not easy to break or constraint even if the situation didnât allow you to. So, I must say that both of them did not have that kind of habit seeking comfort from each other in physical form.
I do not doubt their relationship. I genuinely believe they were once in love with each other. But now, the question marks made me think that everything was in the past.
The contradiction is killing me. Like why you behave differently with her yet others were the same? Why it is so easy to show affection to others but not with her? What is wrong with showing the affection with your so-called partner?
Also, I was once hate PDA. I assumed myself I hate PDA. But later I realized that it was actually because I did not like the person who always touched me. I was unconsciously repelled towards their touches and it made me so uncomfortable that they still continued doing it even when I explicitly declined their touches.
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Also sidenote, can I ask you, my lovely anon, if your partner ever dropped you off at your hotel only to go to another party to grind on their coworker who a not insignificant amount of people think is someone they're in a sexual/romantic relationship/affair with?
What if?
I took this question from another tumblr a few days ago.
I grew up thinking my man is my man. No woman or man can touch my man. Monogamous. As time goes by, I still think the same. My possessiveness and my own obsession to my partner make me hard to see them with another person. I want to cling to them every minute and second.
It would be fine for me if they go to another party, even if Iâm not allowed to go there. I understand that. Itâs the rule. However, I have hard time to let them go if the party also involves someone who they have chemistry with, either sexually or platonically. Someone who people keep on talking about how they look good together.
Chemistry is natural, hard to ignore, hard to falsify.
It would be on my mind the whole night. It will eat my anxiety thinking what would happen during the party. What if they got seduce? What if lines got blurred? Too many what if. Too many questions.
This kind of anxiety makes it harder for you to act normal and not controlling your partner. I have gone through this. It opened my eyes how much possessiveness can make a person act while another person couldnât see or understand why you act like that. The frustration keeps on growing and it makes you act much more crazier than you normally would have.
Does my behavior consider normal? I donât know. Let me know. But I know I do not like to share. I do not want to share what is mine.
Of course there's a certain obligation to mention Connor. And honestly, it's not the words themselves that stand out to me, because he was clearly choosing them carefully and using humor to deflect.
It's the fact that that's the moment he breaks. The moment he says Connor's name out loud, he suddenly looks like someone who's genuinely hurting.
The line is cliche to some, yet the way he delivered it was different. He could have just say thank you to my costar, my best friend, Connor Storrie. The order of his mentions are worth noting too.
Often we see how the most important to someone was mentioned at the last. The important message is always delivered the last. And thatâs how important Connor is to Hudson. He could have mentioned Connor right before he mentioned his parents because above all parents and partners are significantly important than just a costar and best friend.
Others also mentioned how he didnât shutter when he talked about Connor. Like he prepared for it. Like he practiced for it. It came from his heart, sincerely and genuinely.
âI share this award with you.â
That was his personal message directly to Connor. It was not meant to be delivered by other people. He made sure he delivered it to Connor by himself. He did not thank Connor. He literally gave half of the award to Connor.
Woke up, canât believe last night was real but someone just said no one hugged him and the comments were full on describing how Connor wouldâve hugged him if he was there and now I know I shouldnât have woken up.
He was shaking on stage, he was almost crying after his awardâŠthat hug wouldâve been the bestâčïž
He sat alone, he went up alone and he stood there alone.
Sometimes you have to stand at the top alone to really see what matters to you when youâre the highest youâve ever been.
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Iâm emotional right now. My fingers are shaking as Iâm typing this. HE DESERVES THIS AWARD!
Congratulations to Hudson Williams for winning Best Lead Performer (Drama Series) at 2026 Canada Screen Awards.
Hopefully we will see him more in film and tv show industry, showing us how amazing his acting is and becomes an actor he dreams to become. Also, thank you for mentioning your costar, Connor Storrie who unfortunately is not eligible to nominate in any awards.
âIf I could cut this award down the middle I would because if these gay, yearning, little bottom eyes didnât have a big sexy Russian to feast upon, my performance wouldnât be as good. To the honorary Canadian Connor Storrie, I share this award with you."
Both of you deserve this awards to be honest. The hard work paid off.
Also, congratulations to Heated Rivalry for winning every awards nominated. Truly inspiring and legendary!
(Itâs a shame that another main lead of ours couldnât be present)
In a few hours, Hudson will attend CSA. We donât know who Hudson will bring as his plus one. We donât know if Connor will be there. These two instances are not important!
Cheers for him even if he goes alone or with someone else. Ignore the non entity that doesnât directly involve with Heated Rivalry especially the unperceived.
Remember when F/C fiasco happened? Remember what we did to that dino? We cropped him out. We edited him out. So, I want us to repeat the same if unperceived happens.
Let the one who didnât want to be perceived, stay unperceived.
Anyways,
Praying for the win of Hudson Williams đ đ€đ»
