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āAnyone who cares about you has to realize that you need a little looking after, nothing else really matters.ā
ā Franz Kafka, Letters to MilenaĀ (via hollowstimulation)
Gay Block,Ā Underwear,Ā 1992-1995

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āAn honorable human relationship ā that is, one in which two people have the right to use the word āloveā ā is a process, delicate, violent, often terrifying to both persons involved, a process of refining the truths they can tell each other. It is important to do this because it breaks down human self-delusion and isolation. It is important to do this because in doing so we do justice to our own complexity. It is important to do this because we can count on so few people to go that hard way with us. It isnāt that to have an honorable relationship with you, I have to understand everything, or tell you everything at once, or that I can know, beforehand, everything I need to tell you. It means that most of the time I am eager, longing for the possibility of telling you. That these possibilities may seem frightening, but not destructive, to me. That I feel strong enough to hear your tentative and groping words. That we both know we are trying, all the time, to extend the possibilities of truth between us. The possibility of life between us.ā
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Adrienne Rich, from On Lies, Secrets & Silence (via violentwavesofemotion)
After spending a year and a half with somebody who has an alarming lack of self-awareness and no desire for insight or self-reflection I can tell you that this is extremely true. If someone is unwillng, or even unable, to analyze their behavior in the third party their conflict resolution and communication skills will be pretty much nil. It is unfair and infuriating to their partner to be trapped in the same repeating unresolved arguments. Inevitably, this will lead to the exhausted partner making compromises theyāre truly uncomfortable with just to end the fight. The partnerās one-sidedĀ self-sacrifices collect resentment like interest over time. It slowly poisons the health of the relationship beyond repair. If youāre with somebody who canāt reflect on themselves honestly and aware enough to take accountability for their actions, run. Pride stunts growth. Emotional intelligence is important. Vulnerability is necessary for establishing closeness in relationships. You can only ever superficially know someone who doesnāt know themselves. Thatās not a true shared human experience. Itās not a worthwhile way to use your time or energy. Being able to articulate your emotions often and well with your partner is so important.Ā Ā
āSomething in me wants more. I canāt rest.ā
ā Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath (via books-n-quotes)
Queen Anneās Lace.Ā Natureās garden. 1900.

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Cold November nights, poignant sensations, deep, resonant silence,
Virginia Woolf, from a diary entry ft. inĀ āDiaries,ā written c. November 1940 (via violentwavesofemotion)
i keep coming back to this place even though it makes my skin crawl. a poison place wrapped in peace. i keep my eyes down. it is amazing what you can see/unsee/know/unknow. thatās a good couch iāve slept on. thatās a bad window i watched through, waiting for him to come home. thatās a good garden, an away space. thatās a bad driveway, a slammed door. brown is a softness of dirt. brown is his hair and the bruise on my arm.
itās time to go home again. i have been tearing pieces of paper like flower petals. this time it will be good. this time it will be bad. good, bad, good, bad, good,
āare you still coming home?ā my motherās voice sounds distant. old. static in the line. is that my home, i want to ask. am i even invited or am i intruding. arenāt you doing better without my footprints. i donāt want to answer about my love life and my failed expectations and my tried-my-best-ness. at the same time i want to tell you absolutely everything about my love life, and how it felt seeing her again and how her hair still smells like that and how sometimes my trying actually leads to doing and how iām setting better, more specific expectations, and iām actually meeting them.Ā
i tear the paper. in one future youāre proud of me. pass the wine. in the next, youāre sighing. is that what youāre doing?Ā pass the wine. in some weāre not drinking. in some weāre not talking. in some, i come back and the house is warm and garlic is in the air and weāre all laughing. in some, i come back, and everything we havenāt said is rotting in the air.
āare you coming home?ā she asks. i close my eyes.Ā
home? home? where exactly is that?
please make sure that wherever youāre at in life, you donāt treat it like a transitory period. donāt waste your college years wishing to already be graduated & have a job. donāt waste your single years wishing for someone to be in love with. if/when those things come, they will come in due time and they will be good. but there is nothing like looking back and feeling empty because you wasted literal years ignoring what you had because you were hoping for something better. while itās important to better yourself and reach for your goals, donāt neglect the present because thatās where you are now and itās your now that determines your future.Ā

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when you can sense a Mood incoming and feel like a farmer standing in a field looking out at the horizon as the storm approaches likeĀ ālooks like itās gonna be a bad one, boysā
āI did not stop thinking about you, I would like to tell you so much I would like to write that I would like to come back, that I miss you and that I think, but I do not seek you Do not even write to you I do not know how you are You do not have any plans? You smiled today, what did you dream, that you went out, where you go, you have dreams, you have eaten, I would like to be able to look for you, but I do not have the strength, and you do not even have it, and then letās wait in vain, and letās think about it. And remember that I think you do not know, but Iām living you every day, that Iām writing about you, and remember that looking and thinking are two different things, and Iām thinking of you, but Iām not looking for you. ā
Charles Bukowski