lost - active 6/22

- i won’t be the ugly fat friend anymore

- guys (and girls) will like me, not my friends

- i can hug people without being scared of them feeling my stomach

- wearing cropped tops

- wearing tight, body forming dresses and clothing

- being looked at and asked if i want something to eat out of concern

- being cold on 30° celsius days

- someone can carry me

- being picked for a lead in a musical

- my school uniform fitting properly

- thigh gap 🤩🤩

- being able to fit both my hands around my leg without having to stretch

- shopping at op shops and being able to wear everything there

- looking like the characters i so often read about in my books

- walking through the house and not making a sound

- rings fitting my fingers

Tomorrow I wake up at 9.00am. I open my eyes and I have trouble keeping them open for a moment. I roll over and cuddle up in the sheets a bit more, but after some stretching and checking my phone I get up from the bed. First I look at myself in the mirror and then I open my bedroom door to walk to the toilet. I'm a bit wobbly on my feet and feel really tired still. I also feel my stomach is really empty and I feel lighter than the day before. I sit down to do my business and I walk to the kitchen. I grab my Bob Ross mug and I pour myself a coffee. I grab a sweetener and some oatmilk. The sun is shining and I slowly wake up more. While the coffee machine is running I first drink some water and then put my vitamins in my water. I walk to the livingroom and I say hello to my dad. I tell my dad I want to weigh myself and when I promise to be quiet I put my cup and mug down and I quietly walk to my parents room to weigh. I open the door and put the scale down on the right spot, right beneath the small stain on the floor. The scale is cold but I know it is going to be worth it because I feel particularly empty that morning. The evening before I weighed 102.8 and I know it will be less. The first time I step on the scale the number is 102.5, but I know the number will go down when it callibrates as I step on it a second time. When I step on it a second time it is 101.7. I have lost one point one kilogram overnight. I feel happy as I put away the scale and return to my coffee. I feel light and beautiful and know that I have it in me to lose all the weight I want to lose.