I’m sorry, Sidcarmies -spoilers under the cut
1. I have only watched the first and last episode of the season atp. Cause I’m pretty sick rn, but I honestly don’t feel much compelled to watch the rest of the season. Maybe if someone makes a copillation of their favorite sydcarmy moments of the season I’ll watch that. When I was telling you before that I don’t care for this show without sydcarmy I meant it. I specially wasn’t gonna watch if Donna got a redemption arc. They made literal spectacle from Carmys mental health struggles and they they went ‘it’s okay honey your abuser can change now cause she just decides she is gonna’ like that’s remotely how that happens in real life. From the bottom of my heart Storer. Don’t talk about subjects you don’t seem to grasp, or if you just want an idealized version of reality.
2. For what I can gather from the season, romance was not addressed at all besides the Pete ‘there is theories’ thing. And I couldn’t help but think that the show, and specially the last episode really want you to believe that crap of ‘Sydney’s and Carmys relationship is soooo greater than romance’ that’s what the hug in front of the table (from the table scene) meant for me. Yes, is also about a vow of trust that they place on each other and went into fruition, they didn’t let=t each other down in the worst moments. It sadly also had a note of ‘this is all this was ever meant to be, two people supporting each either’
3. You cannot convince me that they were not setting up a sydcarmy romantic possibility. I still believe that dramatic line was not closed. Claire angry staring at Syd and the comparisons between the two woman. All of that, all the anti Claire metas were not blind people. And all the physical manifestations romantic of feelings were also intentional, or they were at the moment. Like Carmy and Syd getting jealous around each other. For whatever reason, that thread is either gonna be pulled in a secret feature or was completely abandoned due to some external force. It was on the cards at some point it seems like they want us to believe is no anymore.
4. On that note, I do wonder if the possibility of an extra feature would have something for us. Idk. Really is too soon to say. I, for some reason, have a gut feeling. Just this small voice of intuition that sometimes tells me things like ‘pick up that call’ when I got my first job as a teacher, and once told me ‘don’t expect much’ about a person that seem to want to be my friend but they weren’t. My gut so far has never been wrong even if I don’t know what it actually means at the moment. As I was going to sleep yesterday feeling pretty awful, this inner voice told me to ‘not lose hope’ idk if it means I should not lose hope that they’ll become canon or just to not loose hope in their relationship just cause they didn’t became canon.
5. I think this ship would always bee fundamental to me. I will keep engaging with the fandom, with the stories and the metas. In my mind, the elements needed for them to get together involved time, vulnerability and therapy, and the show for some reason didn’t wanna go there. Thank you all of yours for believing for so long the better bond will win at the end. Definitely made me feel less alone.
6. I don’t have a problem with unrequited feelings being portrayed (more over here there is only the impression that they were unrequited) I do have a problem with the decision of Sydney having feelings for Carmen so she would decide to help him and tolerate some of his behavior cause she really wanted him to be okay, in a more selfless way and ANY OTHER character in this show. They show used her feelings and then let her to pick up the pieces of her broken heart. They were very aware of that, they played into it with the tatto reveal. Sydney getting ‘what she could get’ from her bond with Carmen and be grateful for it is an extremely mature decision from a very emotionally mature person. But they used her, they did. And they didn’t offer her nothing better at the end. Could Syd not have wandered into a handsome stranger in the farmers market? Let it open for the audience that she did find her person? Would that killed me?, yeah, but this is not about me. I didn’t wanted her to walk away from this thinking that is ‘okay I wasn’t the one fore you’ honestly fuck that. You used the trauma and loneliness for this black girl as a plot device. All while she was the moral compass that also saved and held all of the other characters but she can only be held ‘platonically’ and her feelings were never even given the chance to be exteriorized. Unless there is a feature were that gets addressed somehow, either by Carmy choosing her or someone else choosing her, this show has completely lost me. For real, the only thing that is gonna help me process all of this is the hope that some grace, better things are true soulmatism are in the way for Sydney, even if I only can wish for it in my imagination of the imagination of other fans.
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