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You hate feeling like this. Feeling angry, tingly, and hot. It makes your head hurt and eyes blurry with tears as your ears ring. Your jaw and palms hurt from how hard youâve been clenching them. But itâs all thanks to no other than the man himself. John Price.
What did he do exactly? He hit home. He hit exactly where it hurts the most. John knows youâre a sensitive girl at heart. But that doesnât stop him from putting his foot in his mouth and saying something stupid.
One comment. A few words. Something that practically fell out his mouth without a second thought.
Is all it takes to have you huffy, sniffly, and pissed to high heavens right now. You havenât said a single word to him let alone come near him. God is it bothering John badly. Heâs frowning and furrowing his eyebrows as he watches you curl up in the corner of the couch upset with him. He spreads his legs a little wider and pats his thighs gently inviting you to come over.
âCâmon peanut. You know I didnât mean to hurt your feelings. Daddyâs sorry and just wants to hold you.â John calls out to you in his leather chair. His arms are spread out wide and waiting for you. Itâs tearing him apart to see you like this.
âNo JohnâŚâ The venom in your tone made him wince. He hasnât heard that name from your lips in a long time. âCause Iâm too much of a fucking hassle for you to deal with right?âŚâ You hiccup shortly after only making him groan.
âNo no baby. Youâre my sweet girl who deserves all the love and attention in the world. And Iâm sorry for making you feel like you deserved any less than that for even a minute.â He readjusts his hips and grabs your favorite soft blanket putting it on his lap. âI can see you shivering and fidgeting over there peanut. Come to Daddy.â In a moment of weakness you wipe your face with your forearms and walk over.
You plop down and bury your face into his burly, warm chest. He rubs your back in circles as you hiccup and sniffle. The rhythmic rocking of the John and the chair begin to take away the tingly feeling. Each kiss on your scalp lessens the pressure of your headache. Gentle hums and soothing vibrations of his chest quiet the ringing in your ears.
Give me what I want, calling them a good boy in response to them foldingâŚ.
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Captain price
The Captain loved you in anything soft and sweet. Baby pinks, crisp whites, and delicate pastels were his absolute favorite, colors that never competed with your skin tone but rather amplified its youthful glow.
But you knew exactly how to work your husband. You had been hunting for a very specific, high-ticket luxury item for weeks now with absolutely no luck, and you decided it was finally time to bring out the big guns: the restricted section of your lingerie drawer.
John had a notorious weakness for thigh-highs and stockings. Anytime you slid a pair over your legs, the legendary captain became absolute putty in your hands. It bordered on an obsession; he was completely captivated by the sight of your manicured toes peeking through the soft, intricate patterns of fine lace.
For tonight's date, however, you werenât interested in playing fair.
Price had arranged a romantic dinner at one of your favorite restaurants, and you had spent the better part of the afternoon weaponizing your appearance. Your hair was styled into perfect, big, bouncy bedroom waves. The real kicker, though, was your outfit. Defying his usual preference for pastels, you opted for a lethal black mini dress, paired with beautiful, thigh-high lace stockings.
The delicate lace trim peeked out just enough from beneath the hem of the dressâa tease that would become agonisingly obvious the second you sat down. To finish the look, you slipped into a pair of sky-high stilettos. Red bottoms, of course.
John was waiting downstairs in the foyer, checking his watch. But the moment the sharp, rhythmic click of your heels echoed on the stairs, his head snapped up.
He was instantly entranced. His blue eyes locked onto your feet first, tracking the slow, sauntering descent. His gaze lingered heavily, traveling up the killer arch of your stilettos, tracing the sleek line of your legs, devouring the glimpse of lace on your thighs, before finally landing on your face.
You made sure to walk painfully slow. A mischievous, utterly satisfied look was plastered over your features, your eyes bright as you completely feigned ignorance to the sheer, primal hunger darkening your husband's gaze.
âYou look... look lovely, love,â he whispered, the praise sounding more like a breathless confession to himself. His large, rough hands immediately migrated to your waist, his grip possessive and heavy as he tried to pull you flush against him.
Instead of leaning into his warmth, you casually unzipped your handbag, pulling out a small compact mirror to fix your lip gloss. You deliberately ignored the obvious, sudden stiffening in his trousers.
By all accounts, the sheer tension in the room dictated that you should both be ripping each other's clothes off and cancelling the reservation right then and there.
But you had other plans. You wanted that luxury item first.
Snap.
The loud, sharp clap of your compact closing broke the silence.
âI know,â you purred, flipping your bouncy hair over your shoulder. You smoothly melted out of his tight grip, leaving his hands empty as you sauntered past him toward the front door, your hips swaying perfectly in the tight dress. âThanks, darling.â
Left standing alone in the foyer, John let out a low, gravelly breath. He shook his head, a slow, dark smile of pure amusement tugging at his mouth beneath his beard. He knew exactly what you were doing. This wasnât going to be an easy night, but as his eyes tracked the red soles of your heels moving out the door, he realized he didn't care in the slightest.
He was more than happy to play along with your games. For now.
The ride to the restaurant had been filled with a thick, suffocating silence, the air in the car practically humming with the unresolved heat you'd left behind in the foyer.
Now, you were situated in a cozy, dimly lit booth in the back corner of the restaurant. As you slid onto the leather seat beside your husband, the movement caused your tight black dress to ride up, giving him a completely unobstructed view of the intricate lace stockings peeking out from beneath the hem.
John cleared his throat sharply, a faint flush creeping up his neck beneath his beard as he subtly shifted and readjusted himself in the booth beside you.
You only smirked in response, sipping your drink.
Instinctively, his large, calloused hand migrated under the table, reaching possessively for your bare thigh. But you were faster. You caught his wrist, halting his movements with your own hand before lazily sliding your fingers down to rest flat against his thighâdangerously, agonizingly close to his hardened cock.
âNot so fast,â you purred, resting your chin in your free hand as you looked into his darkened eyes.
You kept your expression completely casual, ensuring your movements weren't obvious to any onlookers, given that you were out in public.
Johnâs jaw clenched tightly, his gaze drilling into yours. âThe answer is still no, love,â he protested, his deep baritone strained as he tried to reassert his authority.
His stubbornness only prompted you to sit back further into the cushions of the booth. Under the cover of the heavy tablecloth, you smoothly slipped your foot out of your stiletto. You lifted your leg, placing your bare, soft foot directly over the heavy bulge of his cock, straining against his trousers, rubbing against him ever so slightly through the fabric.
A low, involuntary groan escaped his mouth. John's hand shot down, his large fingers clamping tightly around your ankle to hold your foot completely steady in place.
His composure was weaning incredibly fast; the risk of being exposed in the open air of a packed restaurant was driving him to the brink.
You didn't say a single word in response. You simply held his gaze, the quiet challenge in your eyes telling him exactly what it was going to take to make you stop.
It was a silent, agonizing standoff, each of you waiting for the other to break first. But the moment you deliberately began to tilt your knees further apart, threatening to give him a full view right there in the booth, John finally caved.
âFine. You win,â he gritted out through tightly clenched teeth.
A victorious, brilliant smirk bloomed across your face as you smoothly pulled your foot down, sliding it back into your red-bottomed heel.
Right on cue, the waiter stepped up to the edge of your booth, notepad in hand. âGood evening, folks, are we ready to orderââ
âChange of plans. Just bring us the bill for the drinks, please,â John cut him off smoothly, his voice flat and commanding, giving the poor man absolutely no room for negotiation. He needed to get you out of there, and he needed to do it immediately.
As the waiter scurried off, you leaned in close, your chest pressing against his arm as you brought your lips directly to his ear.
âGood boy, Captain,â you whispered in a sultry, devastating murmur, catching the shell of his ear between your teeth and biting down just enough to leave him shivering.
You pulled back, grabbing your clutch with a satisfied smile. You had gotten exactly what you wanted, but looking at the raw, unbridled promise of retribution burning in your husband's eyes, you knew one thing for certain: the second that front door closed behind you, you were absolutely in for it.
-
Simon Riley
Simon never cared much for lingerie. He was always far too rough, far too eager to strip you down, meaning any pretty, expensive lace you bought usually ended up ripped to shreds within seconds of you wearing it.
This realization prompted a shift in your tactics when it came to purchasing little "outfits" for your husband to admire.
Simon had a massive thing for tattoos; it was one of the first things that had drawn you two together when you first met, given that you already carried some ink of your own.
Recently, you had added a new piece to your collection. It was a stunning, delicate cursive script running the entire length of your back, perfectly wrapping around the fluid curve of your spine. It read 'Angel'âa permanent nod to his favorite name for you.
To keep it a secret while it healed, you had spent the last few weeks drowning yourself in his oversized, baggy t-shirts. You had even playfully blocked your husband's regular attempts at intimacy to keep the fresh ink hidden.
What started as a fun surprise, however, quickly turned into a battle of wits when you found yourself wanting a particular favour from him, but Simon was being stubbornly difficult, refusing to give in just to watch you beg.
Simon rarely, if ever, said no to you. But for whatever reason, this time he was enjoying his power trip entirely too much.
Well, you were officially done begging. It was his turn.
Later that evening, you feigned exhaustion, heading up to bed early. Simon murmured a low response from the couch, continuing to absentmindedly watch whatever was on the TV, promising to join you shortly.
Before long, the heavy, rhythmic thud of his footsteps echoed on the stairs, making their way toward your shared bedroom. Half-awake and fully expecting to find you tucked into a mountain of blankets already on your tenth dream cycle, Simon pushed the door openâand stopped dead in his tracks.
The sight before him instantly shattered his sleepiness. You were laying flat on your stomach, completely naked, lazily kicking your feet in the air. Under the warm, dim glow of the bedside lamps, the fresh, dark ink on your skin was on full, breathtaking display.
You stared back at him over your bare shoulder, your eyes heavy and heavy with mischief.
â...Thatâs new,â Simon trailed off, his voice a low, gravelly rasp. His brown eyes were absolutely glued to the sultry script following the line of your spine.
âDo you like it?â you teased. With a slow, deliberate grace, you arched your back and pushed up onto your knees, giving him a full, completely unobstructed view of your ass and already wet, glistening cunt.
Simon only let out a rough, animalistic grunt in response. He didn't waste another second, crossing the room and crawling onto the mattress, his massive frame instantly looming over you. His large, heavily calloused hand reached out, gently sweeping your hair over your shoulder before his fingers trailed down the fresh cursive writing, his mind piecing the letters together.
âI do, angel,â he murmured, his eyes lighting up with a sudden, possessive heat. His hands instantly grew bolder, roughly exploring the curves of your body as he prepared to claim you.
But just as you felt the heavy weight of him trying to lay conquest to your body, you fluidly spun around onto your back. Looking up at your thoroughly needy husband, you brought your leg up, placing the sole of your bare foot flat against his massive chest to halt his movements.
âYouâre going to give me what I want, hm?â you purred, your voice thick with a lethal, sexy confidence.
Slowly, deliberately, you slid your foot down his chest, tracing the line of his stomach until your toes pressed firmly against the heavy, rock-hard cock straining against his sweatpants. A deep, ragged groan tore from Simonâs chest the exact second your foot made contact.
He shot you a dark, incredibly dangerous look, his nostrils flaring. He was clearly desperateâit had been weeks since heâd touched you properly, and he was right on the precipice of losing his mind.
âYes. Okay, yesâanything you want,â he rasped, the sheer velocity of his submission making a victorious giggle escape your lips.
âGood boy,â you teased softly.
The praise was the final straw. Simon's large hand instantly clamped around your ankle, pinning your leg as he surged forward, entirely done playing games as he finally had his way with you.
-
Gaz
Youâve been asking Kyle to clear his weekend schedule to take you out of town to a countryside luxury resort, but heâd been playing the âgood soldierâ card. He stubbornly insisted that he had too much base paperwork and logistical prep to finish. Kyle liked to think of himself as the disciplined, professional one of the 141âthe level-headed sergeant who could easily maintain his boundaries.
But your husband really ought to have known better than to think his wife would ever take ânoâ for an answer.
It wasnât to say you were completely unreasonable; in your defense, heâd been promising to take you away for months now. Seemingly, work just got in the way every single time, and you had officially had enough.
Gaz loved you in lingerie and little outfits, but you knew it wouldn't be enough to shatter his legendary composure tonight. Oddly enough, you knew his real weakness: jewelry.
Kyle absolutely loved buying you expensive gifts, and you hadn't failed to notice the possessive sparkle in his eyes whenever you wore the pieces he bought you. He had a distinct kink for seeing you adorned in his moneyâa visual reminder that you were only his to spoil, and only his to ruin.
It was well past midnight. He was sitting at the desk in his home office, rubbing his tired eyes, completely surrounded by a sea of tactical files.
Assuming you had gone to bed hours ago, the faint, soft knock on the office door instantly pulled him from his sleepy, droned-out state.
âIâve brought you some tea, handsome,â you hummed out sweetly.
You stepped into the room with a small tray in hand, making your way toward him. But the tea wasnât what grabbed his attention. No, his eyes locked instantly onto your outfit of choice.
You were wearing a plush silk robe, tied incredibly loosely, with one sleeve casually draping down your shoulder. But underneath the silk, a delicate gold and diamond body chain adorned your figure, catching the warm glow of the office lamps and casting tiny fractured reflections across your skin. Around your neck was a stunning diamond chokerâa recent, very expensive purchase of his.
The glittering metal made your skin look absolutely radiant.
You didn't beg. Instead, you walked right up to his chair, set the tray on the desk with a soft clink, and climbed directly onto his lap. You deliberately sat right across his thighs, facing him, straddling his waist.
Kyleâs hands instinctively flew to your hips to steady you, his calm, professional demeanor instantly shattering as his brown eyes widened in pure shock.
His gaze gravitated helplessly to the gold chains tracing the curves of your body. Slowly, as if under a spell, one of his large hands reached out, his knuckles gently tracing the cool metal down the valley of your breasts before his fingers found the loose tie of your robe. With a soft tug, he pulled it completely free, parting the silk and exposing your hot, needy core to him.
âThatâs not fair, princess,â he pouted, his voice a low, raspy murmur. His eyes still wouldn't meet your own, completely glued to the way the lamplight sparkled against your little belly ring.
You only smirked. Lazily, you reached over his broad shoulder, grabbed the thick logistical folder he had been reading, and closed it with a decisive, heavy thud.
You slid your hands up his chest, your manicured fingers tracing his sharp jawline, applying just enough pressure to tilt his head up until he was finally looking at youâcompletely breathless, flushed, and entirely at your mercy.
âIf you finish that paperwork tonight, you won't have an ounce of energy left for me,â you protested softly, a victorious smirk plastered on your face. To drive the point home, you began to slowly, agonisingly rock your hips ever so slightly against the heavy bulge straining beneath his trousers.
Kyle let out a sharp, hitching breath, his grip tightening drastically on your hips.
You leaned down, brushing your lips tantalisingly close against his ear, your warm breath making him shiver as you whispered a vivid, filthy promise of exactly what you would do to him once you were safely tucked away at the countryside resort.
That was the exact moment his composure completely cracked.
âFineâfine, Iâll clear my schedule for this weekend,â he groaned out, a desperate, breathless submission in his voice as he buried his face in the crook of your neck. âAnything you want, okay? Iâm sorry, love.â
Hearing him fold so beautifully made a soft, triumphant giggle escape your lips. You leaned back just enough to look at his flustered face, giving him a sweet, lingering, victorious kiss.
"Good boy," you teased softly against his lips.
The praise snapped his remaining restraint. In one fluid, explosive motion, Kyleâs arm swept across the mahogany desk, sending the tea tray, the folders, and the paperwork scattering loudly across the floor, completely clearing the surface so he could finally have his way with you.
-
Soap
Johnny knew exactly what luxury item you had been eyeing for weeks. Instead of simply saying "no," he thought it would be absolutely hilarious to turn it into a wager. Your ego couldnât handle the thought of defeat, so you accepted without hesitation. His brilliant idea was a high-stakes trivia drinking game to see who could last the longest.
Hours later, there you both sat at the dining room table, a bottle of expensive, heavy liquor resting between you like a battlefield.
The rules had been simple: whoever answered a question wrong had to take a shot. Unluckily for you, about six shots in, the alcohol hit you like a freight train, leaving you heavily intoxicated.
âW-well, l-lass... think you lost,â Johnny slurred out. He was definitely drunk himself, his cheeks heavily flushed, but he was just coherent enough to laugh at your utterly compromised state.
You let your head drop onto your folded arms, your eyes half-open as the room spun. You were completely plastered. When you tried to stumble up from the table, your lack of balance only caused him to burst into loud fits of laughter, enjoying his smug victory a little too much for your liking.
âThis hic isnât over,â you declared fiercely, waving a clumsy finger right in your husband's face.
You turned and stumbled off toward the stairs with as much grace as you could muster, the booming, boisterous sound of your husbandâs laughter echoing through the house as you made your messy ascent to bed.
The next morning, you woke up with a pounding headache and the bitter sting of last nightâs loss still burning fresh in your mind. You rolled over, eyeing your peacefully sleeping husband, which only added fuel to your fury.
Oh, this is far from over.
An hour later, the sweet, rich scent of pancakes filled the house, drifting into the bedroom and pulling Johnny awake. He stretched, a smug smile instantly spreading across his face as he remembered last nightâs victory, thrilled by the added pleasure of waking up to his wife cooking his favorite breakfast.
He lazily made his way into the kitchen, his tired eyes still half-closedâuntil he actually looked at you. His gaze flew wide awake, his entire body going rigid.
There you stood by the stove, your back completely facing him as you plated up the food. You were wearing an impossibly short, tiny mini skirt that hugged your hips tightly, framing your legs perfectly.
âWell, good morning to you, aye, lass?â Johnny called out, his voice suddenly thick and giddy.
The sound of his voice prompted a wicked smirk to stretch across your face. You didn't turn around. Instead, you deliberately let your grip loosen, dropping your spatula onto the floorboards. With painful slowness, you bent down to retrieve itâfully exposing the fact that you were completely, beautifully naked underneath that tiny sliver of fabric.
âMorning, love,â you called back casually over your shoulder, giving him a fleeting, innocent look before returning to the stove.
It was a fatal blow. You could practically hear the gears in Johnny's brain completely malfunctioning, his eyes darkening with a raw hunger that had absolutely nothing to do with pancakes.
He moved instantly, crossing the kitchen floor with his hands already itching to roam your exposed cunt. But just before his fingers could catch a grip on your waist, you spun on your heel with a sharp, fluid flick of your hair right in his face.
You pressed the flat of the spatula firmly against his chest, halting him in his tracks.
âNot so fast, big guy,â you taunted, looking up at him through faux-innocent eyes.
An impatient, desperate whine tore from Johnnyâs throat. He threw his head back, his broad shoulders slumping as he realised exactly what kind of agonising game you were playing. âAw, come on, donât do this to me, please, lass. Donât tease me like this.â
âHmm... I donât know,â you purred, tilting your head and tapping the spatula against his chest plate. âI think the winner gets to make the rules.â
Johnny didn't care about his pride anymore. The weeks of waiting, combined with the lethal view in front of him, broke his resolve completely.
He dropped straight to his knees on the kitchen floor, his large hands immediately clamping onto your bare thighs, wanting nothing more than to press his face into your aching cunt.
You stopped his movement once again, your fingers locking firmly into his matted mohawk, tugging just enough to force him to look up at you.
âAre you going to give me what I want?â you asked playfully, looking down at your thoroughly defeated husband.
âYes! Yes! Please, baby, whatever you want, itâs yours. Just let me have you,â he whined desperately, his fingers digging into the soft skin of your thighs as he begged.
You smiled down at him, your heart racing with sweet victory. âGood boy.â
Before you could even fully utter the phrase, Johnny surged upward. With a burst of pure, feral energy, he scooped you straight up into the air, tossing you onto the kitchen counter and scattering the plates as he lunged between your legs, ravenous for something far sweeter than breakfast.
You decide to do some shopping and get cute clothes for the summer! Halter tops, tanks tops, shorts, and whatever else could make the summer fashionable and enjoyable for you. You boot up your laptop and get to working on various sites and stores.
As you continue to scroll your mind begins to wander further and further from the clothes itself to something different. You question if you can either wear shorts like these or have the shoulders to rock a halter top. Itâs a downward spiral from there are you pick apart your features and dissect them mercilessly.
You canât help but envy the models. Their clear skin, wide smiles, and gorgeous appearances. Comparison. Perfection. Flaws. Itâs all swimming around about to envelop you whole. At this point you stopped clicking for clothes and just clicked for the models. You day dreamed about having similar features them, looking like them, being them.
You shut the laptop the moment you heat a familiar gruff Manchester accent. Heart rate spiking so hard it almost fell out of your chest and onto the ground before you. Trying to remain calm while also recollecting how perceptive Simon is you begin to speak. âSi, baby, whatâs up-â. Simon just holds a hand up to stop whatever bullshit you were about to sling at him. He opens his mouth, âLovie. What are you doing in here? Especially on tha laptop, eh?â
You bite your lip and technically tell a half truth half lie. âIâm just doing some shopping for summer clothes Si.â The iconic âoh really now?â head tilt of his makes it clear that your statement didnât land on that half truth side as you wanted it to. Simon raises an eyebrow, âAlright now. Up, up on my lap and open up the laptop.â You situate yourself to be on sitting on his lap like he asked but you still havenât opened the laptop. Itâs sitting right infront of you both but closed it almost seemed to be welded together.
Simon takes your hand in his and opens the laptop up. He lets out a low hum that you canât differentiate between good or bad. âThatâs a nice shirt Lovie. Could wear that to the brunch next week.â Your eyes widen at what he says. But thatâs the top you couldnât wear because your shoulders were too wide? You interject with âWouldnât my shoulders beâŚmy shoulders would just ruin it SiâŚâ
You feel all tingly and warm as he places soft kisses on your left shoulder. âNah, youâll be just fine love. I think your broad shoulders are damn well fine on you.â You start to consider buying and wearing the top when he proudly declares that. They even have the top in your favorite color. Each item you were hesitant on buying, Simon reassures you that it would all be fine. Clothes were made to fit you after all. Not the other way around.
hai! If your requests are open then can you write about cod men (any you feel comfortable with!) x disabled!reader specifically with chronic pain? If not then feel free to delete this! I hope youâre having a lovely day and thanks!
Ahhh!!! First anon! Hii hi hi!
Anyways I kinda made it based off my own pain and stuff if thatâs okay! I have severe back pain and it prohibits me from doing stuff like jumping, bending over, sitting too long, etc.
It was days like this that made everything feel 10x worse. Pain so unbearable you couldnât even get out of bed. Tears in your eyes from how debilitating it all was.
Kyle would come into your room and see whatâs happening. He climbs into bed with you and stays there. Not rushing or pulling. Just existing with you. He would hold you in and his warm arms and wipe your tears. âI know pumpkin. I know it hurts. Iâll be right here with you.â His hand going in a circular motion through your scalp as the other holds you close. Lips placing soft, sweet kisses on your temple to distract you from the pain.
Simon has the care prepped and ready. He has heating pads on stand by. Heâs a master at soothing massages for your back. If you just wanna cry about not being able to do simple things like walk around the house even though you did that and so much more just yesterday then heâll let you. Gentle pats to the back and hums to soothe you.
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Ahh! First post! This contains Eating disorder content! Scroll if thatâs not your cup of tea.
You were trying! You really were trying to get better but the calling to relapse was so strong. It was hard to stop crunching the numbers of how many steps or calories you needed in one day and over analyzing everything you put in your mouth. Recovery is a long hard journey.
You promised yourself that it wouldnât go as far as it did last time and that you would keep it tame. You just didnât want the guys to find out again. It would tear you apart to know you broke your promise to them.
But old habits die hard and you quickly slipped into your old ways again. You were sneakier this time though. You went on long walks/runs in the neighborhood when the boys werenât home so they wouldnât question you. During meal times you wouldnât panic but act unfazed by the whole thing seemingly getting through it like it was nothing. You had a strategy of talking a lot, pushing food around on your plate, and drinking alot of liquids during dinner and nobody noticed.
You know itâs bad to be lying to the people you love and how terrible this could end for you. But just one more time. It canât go so wrong right?
Meanwhile, you arenât fooling a damn soul peanut. They all noticed immediately. They just waited until it was the right time to bring it up. You canât fool trained, intelligent operatives as easily as you think so. But they didnât treat it as some âgotcha!â moment. This was their sweet girl theyâre talking about. And they were gonna help you get through this.
One day, itâs dinner time and you prepare for the usual routine. Talk, talk, drink, laugh, move food around, repeat. As you sit down and face everyone at the table, the vibe feels off. You try to lighten the mood by yapping about what happened at work today and the cute pets you saw at the pet shop that just opened up in the shopping center. Thereâs a few chuckles and nods but it doesnât feel like it usually does.
Price, who was sitting at the head of the table, has both his elbows on the table and a calculating, but slightly concerned gaze in his eyes. âPeanut. You havenât touched your food yet. Itâs gonna get cold you know?âŚâ You pause at this. âOh guess youâre right about that huh Price?âŚâ You swallow back your nerves and take a bite of the food. It feels agonizing to chew and swallow. Your mind is panicking but you try to have a brave face.
Price motions for the other three guys to leave the dinning room so you and him could be alone. Kyle, Johnny, and Simon look at eachother before slowly scooting their chairs back and scraping against the hard wood floor to leave you two alone.
The silence is deafening as itâs only you and him in the room. The chair creaks a little as Price leans back and just stares at you for a quick, but agonizingly long, moment. He stands up slowly and places his napkin down. His footsteps towards you feel heavy and each one makes your heart beat faster and faster and drop further and further. Price probably noticed your internal panic and he puts his hands up and gives you that smile to calm you down and show he means no harm whatsoever to his little peanut.
Finally, he reaches your seat and kneels next to you. âOh peanut. Come here.â You immediately shove your face into his chest and begin rambling apologies, explanations, anything. He shushes you and tries to calm you down. âIâm not mad. I could never be mad at you for struggling. Iâm here.â
âI broke my promise PriceâŚâ You weakly mutter against his chest. You feel horrible. Thoughts taking a dark turn and-
Price grabs your face and smooths your cheeks over with his rough palms. âIâm not mad. Youâre not bad. Calm down for me peanut.â You swallow down a thick layer of self-deprecation and nod. Price stands up again and takes your hand. âLetâs take an early evening yeah peanut?â Price takes you upstairs to his room so you two could cuddle. He just has to figure out how to go about addressing this early in the morning tomorrow.