in my feelings, but clearly out of my mind

You aren't dead, but you're leaving our friend group.

You aren't dead but you've moved to a different state and now we text twice a year.

You aren't dead but you blocked me.

You aren't dead but we stopped talking, not on purpose but so long ago that I wouldn't even know what to say to you now.

You aren't dead but you're a stranger to me now.

You aren't dead but we lost touch and now I don't even remember your username.

You aren't dead but I ended things with you and now we never speak.

You aren't dead but I still have to grieve you. Whether I'd change it if I could or not, you're still a presence that I'm used to and now you won't be there anymore.

I was and overwhelmed about his mental state and motivation. Until I realized I started to feel bad for him.... 😭😭 Like the realization he just wanted to be loved. His greatest fear and motivation was his fear of being abandoned.

He was diagnosed with many Personality Disorders, all stimmed from a childhood of abuse and abandonment.

I can almost empathize to his mental incapacity to think clear, but to think of the horrors he put his victims through. Especially his next door neighbor, Glenda Cleveland.

It started to trigger me how much people view people with personality disorders as evil. In Dahmer's case he had other diagnosis that lead to the killing and mutalation of his victims. But the emotions he was feeling are nothing short of typical B type disorders.

Normal people do not understand what it feels like to have your brain take control and disassociate from reality. To do harm, when all you are trying to do is feel love.