Measure yourself against the truth, not the other way around.

”okay but are you normal about-“ no. I’m an insane pervert.

text reads: "you're struggling to make the change because the old behaviour is still meeting a need. instead of shaming yourself, identify the deeper need and allow it to exist. then get curious about a new way to meet it."

For most people it's not about learning not to be afraid, it's about learning to live a life even though you're insecure and terrified

me sexting: if that is amenable to you

days keep happening to me. and nights also. no say in it whatsoever

forgive me lord for I have imagined a life far more soft and tender than the one you created for me

one of the most important things, perhaps the most important thing I have learned in my life is that nice people can fuck each other up in monstrous ways. people can be bone deep kind and loving and self reflective and still lash out under pressure. people can be earnestly neighbourly and charitable and hospitable and generous and still find themselves in situations where they become selfish. people can be well meaning and easygoing and gregarious and hold deep seated opinions that turn them into vicious little bullies under the right conditions. nobody is just one thing, and nobody stays one way. every person is a kaleidoscope and they will surprise you. you will surprise yourself. it's not a warning and it's not a judgement and it's not an excuse, and it's certainly not a reason to stop trying or to stop trusting. it is just a fact.