𝐂𝐔𝐋𝐋 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐃

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nicole homer, underbelly (2019)

You made your sacrifice.

Jacob Seed 04/???

the soldier wip

❝ did something change? the forest feels different. ❞   ❝ it’s…it’s still alive. ❞   ❝ i heard you. it’s not up for discussion. ❞   ❝ space your shots. speed costs accuracy. ❞   ❝ we do what we must to survive. ❞   ❝ it’s not like you don’t get angry in a fight. ❞   ❝ do not speak again. ❞   ❝ didn’t you hear that? voices. it felt…evil. ❞   ❝ close your heart to their desperation. close your heart to their suffering. ❞   ❝ people… they’re trying to survive too. ❞   ❝ we are not men. we are more than that. ❞   ❝ and i thought my family was fucked up. ❞   ❝ finish what you started. ❞   ❝ smells like rotten eggs. is it still good? ❞   ❝ kill for survival, not for indulgance. ❞   ❝ there is one unavoidable truth you will never escape: you cannot change. ❞   ❝ we all gotta take responsibility sometime, huh? ❞   ❝ slow down. your haste will cost us. ❞   ❝ i need to know if you can survive the journey. ❞   ❝ everything is different. try not to dwell on it. ❞   ❝ find your way home. you are free. ❞   ❝ put as much distance between you and the truth as you want, it changes nothing. ❞ ❝ i will do what i must. leave me be. ❞   ❝ that doesn’t mean you should lie to your friends or family. ❞ ❝ do not concern yourself with what might be. focus on what is. ❞ ❝ you do not want this fight. ❞   ❝ i will rain down agony, every possible violation, upon you. ❞   ❝ um, alright…that hurt a little. ❞   ❝ you see through the eyes of a child. ❞ ❝ you are stronger than you know. ❞   ❝ we fight…until i say stop or we are dead. understand? ❞   ❝ you are right…i do not believe you. ❞   ❝ you think you understand, but you don’t. ❞   ❝ i know who you are…most importantly, i know what you are. ❞   ❝ your anger…you can get lost in it. ❞   ❝ it happens again, you tell me. understand? ❞   ❝ oh, you already know the answer to that. ❞   ❝ i’m strong. i’m smart. i’m not what you think i am. ❞   ❝ your memory was a comfort in dark times. ❞   ❝ whatever it is you seek i do not have it. you should move on. ❞   ❝ long way from home, aren’t you? ❞   ❝ i have no desire to help you. ❞   ❝ i used to dream about getting eaten. ❞   ❝ it is wise to be discreet. ❞   ❝ you are not yourself. ❞   ❝ fight until we stop or we are dead. ❞   ❝ have you ever heard the term ‘tempting fate’? ❞   ❝ as far as i’m concerned, death suits you better. ❞   ❝ would you pardon me please? i need to collect myself. ❞   ❝ this fight is pointless. your struggle is pointless. ❞   ❝ struck a nerve, did i? ❞   ❝ no, wait…i’m not giving up. i just…have to catch my breath. ❞   ❝ a dangerous beast. we’ll take him down together. ❞   ❝ it is so good to see you again. ❞   ❝ can’t believe you’ve lasted this long. ❞   ❝ hurry! i’m slipping. ❞   ❝ only time you talk to me is when you need something. ❞   ❝ you’re more concerned with their safety than our goal. ❞   ❝ i’d bow if i could, your majesty. ❞   ❝ try to find forgiveness, and we can start something new. ❞   ❝ i cannot undo your mistakes. ❞   ❝ it is a delicate balance. expect the worst. assume nothing. ❞   ❝ it sounds like they needed help. ❞   ❝ she meant more to me than you anyway. ❞   ❝ you’ve seen it with your own eyes; you can’t hurt me. ❞   ❝ i just needed answers…but you had to act all proud. ❞   ❝ you only know half the story. ❞   ❝ i’m…sorry for your loss. ❞   ❝ anything you’d like to get off your chest? ❞   ❝ throw whatever you have at me…i’ll keep coming. ❞   ❝ slow and old. you should never have come here. ❞   ❝ think i’m afraid of you? you’re nothing to me. ❞   ❝ we’re going to fight that? ❞   ❝ the fault is mine…and my responsibility to make it right. ❞   ❝ dead things…they have no needs. only wants. ❞   ❝ i am known for my attention to detail. ❞   ❝ i see you’ve been busy. ❞   ❝ ;et me take this moment to tell you what you are about to do is absolutely insane. ❞   ❝ i’ll be keeping my eyes on you. ❞   ❝ i am your monster no longer. ❞   ❝ until our journey is over, one of us must remain focused. ❞ ❝ you know, i really hoped i’d never see this place again. ❞ ❝ i warned you. you would not listen. ❞   ❝ no…you’re bleeding. ❞   ❝ with power comes a big choice. you serve yourself or you serve others. ❞   ❝ be careful where you’re going. there’s no one nice out here anymore. ❞   ❝ you talk too much. ❞   ❝ we will fight it. because you are frightened of it. ❞   ❝ why are there two beds in there? ❞   ❝ will we see people on the road? friendly? will they try to rob us? ❞   ❝ tell me what i want, pain stops. real simple. ❞   ❝ you are going to have to kill me for that to happen. ❞   ❝ just tell me what i want to know! no need for this to get bloody. ❞ ❝ relax. do not think of it as an animal. it is simply a target. ❞   ❝ we do what we please. no excuses. ❞   ❝ you’ve had to kill people before, haven’t you? you’re used to it. ❞   ❝ how did they find me…after all this time? ❞   ❝ i’m not allowed there anymore on account of the, uh, incident. ❞   ❝ hm…thought you’d be bigger. ❞   ❝ you’re sounding more like your father by the minute. ❞   ❝ well, this is it. it’s been an honor. ❞   ❝ do you have any idea, any idea at all, what you have cost me? ❞   ❝ for someone so strong you sure worry a lot. ❞   ❝ uhh…this is a lot of bodies. ❞ ❝ you must be better than me. understand? ❞ ❝ we win because we are determined. disciplined. not because we feel ourselves superior.)❞   ❝ i’m fine. just lost my balance for a moment. ❞   ❝ do not drop your guard. ❞   ❝ you’ve only killed those deserving, right? ❞   ❝ can you kill something that big? ❞   ❝ worry serves me well…and how i keep us alive. ❞   ❝ earlier you said people might kill us. i’ll kill them if they try. ❞   ❝ so we’re going towards the scary singing? ❞   ❝ uh… do you hear that? what is it? ❞ ❝ will i see you again? ❞ ❝ you know my door is always open to you. ❞   ❝ but nobody’s killed a dragon for hundreds of years. ❞   ❝ the road ahead is long and unforgiving… no place for a child. you must be a warrior. ❞ ❝ to be effective in combat, a warrior must not feel for his enemy. ❞   ❝ you’re kinda scary sometimes. ❞   ❝ do not call me that. ❞   ❝ i feel like we can beat anything now. ❞   ❝ to give up this easily, so close to the start… ❞   ❝ you are in your head. let it go. ❞   ❝ unless i’m mistaken, you did all that…for me. ❞   ❝ i’ll kill them if they try. i’m not afraid. ❞   ❝ if seeing me dead will make things right, i won’t stop you. ❞   ❝ never thought i’d see one up close… ❞   ❝ stay by me. touch nothing. ❞     ❝ you are wise for one so young. ❞   ❝ are they dead? …not dead! not dead! ❞   ❝ do not mistake my silence for lack of grief.  ❞   ❝ never leave me alone again. all right? ❞   ❝ i did what had to be done. ❞   ❝ i know you hate gods but you really can’t stay away from them, can you? ❞   ❝ something’s breaking through the wall! ❞   ❝ it does not matter if you fire only once. show me control. ❞   ❝ do not allow yourself to feel for them. they do not feel for you. ❞   ❝ i do not know how to do this without you. ❞   ❝ i’d hoped that you, of everyone, would finally make me feel something. ❞   ❝ steady your aim and breathe in. exhale and release. ❞   ❝ are we lost? should we be in here? ❞   ❝ the path you walk. vengeance. you will find no peace. ❞   ❝ you know i love you. you just can be better. i know you can be. ❞   ❝ you think it’s safer in here?  ❞   ❝ listen to me. i can help. ❞   ❝ why wait to warn me? ❞   ❝ know any good stories to pass the time? ❞   ❝ you know what’s adequate? that footwork. you step in shit?   ❞   ❝ uh…you didnt mean to do that, did you?  ❞ ❝ why do you even care? you could have just walked away. ❞   ❝ if i wanted your opinion, i’d ask for it. ❞   ❝ you left me here. again. why don’t you care? ❞   ❝ that bow’s a little big for you, isn’t it? ❞ ❝ the last of his kind in all the realm and you shoot him. ❞   ❝ and here i thought your kind was supposed to be so enlightened. so much better than us. so much smarter.   ❞   ❝ you will always me a monster. ❞   ❝ what, you want a hug? ❞   ❝ in war, a soldier sees beauty in the blood of his enemy. ❞   ❝ follow down this path and head for daylight. ❞   ❝ finish what you started. ❞   ❝ it would serve you to stop talking. ❞   ❝ you did not think it was important to tell me? ❞   ❝ not a something for nothing type, are you? ❞   ❝ why should a deadly curse stop you? ❞ ❝ something feels strange…we’re heading into danger. ❞   ❝ the gods care nothing for you. (men should not pray to monsters.)   ❞   ❝ the fates…no good comes from them. ❞   ❝ it is important for a warrior to keep his skills sharp. ❞   ❝ trust i will not let us die. ❞   ❝ war was simply no fun anymore, but a rather senseless waste of precious life. ❞   ❝ when i require your counsel, i will ask. ❞   ❝ what i did, i did for you. ❞   ❝ you are too quick to temper. you a rash, insubordinate and out of control. ❞     ❝ i don’t think we’re supposed to be in here. ❞   ❝ you think i’m weak, because i’m not like you. ❞   ❝ maybe i’m just seeing things… ❞   ❝ mourn how you wish. leave me to my own. ❞   ❝ your father can kill. are you going to be able to do that? ❞   ❝ the path ahead is difficult and you are clearly not ready. ❞   ❝ anger can be a weapon if you control it — use it. ❞   ❝ i proved myself. how am i not ready? ❞   ❝ if you’d given me what i wanted, it wouldn’t have ended this way. ❞   ❝ you are hunting deer — not chasing it. ❞   ❝ i don’t believe it. are you…alive? ❞   ❝ are you really going to lecture me about that? ❞   ❝ keep your expectations low, and you will never be disappointed. ❞   ❝ are you the last of your family too? ❞ ❝ you got a real sentimental streak, know that? ❞   ❝ now is not the time for that. ❞     ❝ you were gone for so long i thought that you… ❞     ❝ are you jealous? want me all to yourself, do you? ❞      ❝ hey, do you mind? trying to concentrate here. ❞   ❝ your mother taught you well. ❞   ❝ i can tell you a thing or two about family matters. ❞   ❝ i’ve been to many strange places…but this is a new one. ❞   ❝ you left me alone to fight. ❞   ❝ look at me! look at me! ❞   ❝ don’t you see? they never gave up hope. and neither should we. ❞   ❝ my mother made it for me. ❞   ❝ you killed against my wishes. ❞   ❝ come. no looking back now. ❞   ❝ love and hate are more closely intertwined than you might imagine. ❞   ❝ there is much about me i would not have you know. ❞   ❝ today the winds of fate have kicked up a strange vortex of coincidence. ❞   ❝ okay, there are a few gaps in my knowledge. ❞   ❝ they’re gonna be sorry they picked this fight. ❞   ❝ you can change your path. it’s not too late. ❞   ❝ let me guess…you’re gonna be smug and say we shouldn’t have got involved. ❞   ❝ i defended us. nothing more. ❞   ❝ no. you’ve been gone a long, long time! ❞   ❝ you are right to distrust the word of a god. ❞   ❝ you’ve got some father. i almost feel bad for you. ❞   ❝ so your plan involves a whole bunch of luck? ❞   ❝ well, that was a waste of a perfectly good apple. ❞   ❝ our home is no longer safe. but it will be again. ❞   ❝ well, even a blind pig farts up a truffle. ❞   ❝ when they find you - and they will - they’ll make things difficult. ❞   ❝ there’s only one person alive who can get you where you need to go…and luckily for you, my schedule’s wide open. ❞   ❝ they were just hungry, the wolves. they weren’t mean. they were starving. ❞   ❝ only fire when i tell you to fire. ❞   ❝ no need to explain. not to me. not for that. ❞   ❝ i was just having a little fun, you big grump. ❞   ❝ you deserve better than what you’ve got. ❞   ❝ wow…that was something, that fight. ❞   ❝ you help me, i help you. ❞   ❝ let them go. take me instead. ❞   ❝ you’ve taught me so much. let me teach you something. ❞   ❝ alright. say it. ‘i told you so’. ❞   ❝ truth is seldom as pretty as myth and legend. ❞   ❝ hope is blinding your instincts. ❞   ❝ we are here because of you. never forget that. ❞   ❝ you are avoiding the question. ❞   ❝ you have a talent for destroying things. ❞   ❝ i can smell your grief. ❞   ❝ but…you told me to never go down there. ❞   ❝ i’ve never felt more alive. ❞   ❝ it’s not my blood. ❞   ❝ i’m going to cut off your head now. ❞   ❝ you’ve got a knack for ominous statements. ❞   ❝ this place…it feels like a prison. ❞   ❝ don’t you know when to give up? ❞   ❝ we will handle it. we have come this far. ❞   ❝ i’m fine…nothing to worry about. ❞   ❝ is it dishonorable to grow old? ❞   ❝ the power of any weapon comes from your heart…but only when tempered by your head. ❞   ❝ so unclean. so, so unclean. ❞   ❝ oh, cut it out, princess. you’re gonna get me all weepy. ❞   ❝ do not take your disappointment out on me. ❞   ❝ your anger…you can get lost in it. ❞   ❝ it’s all you talk about, over and over. do something about it or shut up. ❞   ❝ i have a favor to ask. just a small favor. ❞   ❝ check the path and make sure we are alone. ❞   ❝ pain we endure. faulty weaponry we do not. ❞   ❝ that’s it? the adventure is over? ❞   ❝ if you try, i’ll try. ❞   ❝ wow, you’re so stupid. that your father’s doing? or your mother’s? ❞   ❝ behind you, watch out! ❞   ❝ deny it all you want, but you saved me. ❞ ❝ only use this as a last resort. ❞ ❝  truth is more important than kindness.  ❞ ❝ i know every corner of these lands, every language spoken, every war waged, every deal struck. ❞ ❝ it should have been you. you hear me? you. not her. ❞ ❝ you don’t want me and you never will. ❞ ❝ don’t know, don’t care. ❞   ❝ time has a way of changing things ❞   ❝ betrayal begets betrayal. ❞   ❝ bit of a softy, eh? you’ll grow out of it. ❞   ❝ what do you mean ‘it’s your fault’? ❞   ❝ when we last spoke…i was… ❞   ❝ i regret my actions, and am filled with remorse. ❞   ❝ i wish i was strong enough to do that. ❞   ❝ they do not stop us, so they do not concern us. ❞ ❝ this used to be a challenge. ❞   ❝ sorry. i’m just trying to help. ❞   ❝ i’ve always thought this place as desolate and cursed. ❞   ❝ inspiration is a fickle mistress. ❞   ❝ we’ve come so far. there has to be a way. ❞   ❝ on our journey we will be attacked by all manner of creature. ❞ ❝ woah. what happened here? ❞   ❝ you don’t have to be the smartest man in the world to see that. ❞   ❝ no one deserves to be held captive like this. ❞   ❝ did you hear that? it sounds like something screaming. ❞   ❝ stay quiet. make no movement. ❞   ❝ don’t be sorry. be better. ❞   ❝ you won’t stop me. ❞   ❝ they caught you off guard. ❞   ❝ carelessness will only delay us. ❞   ❝ pull your weight or we go home. ❞  

Also only the Eden’s Gate Cross as tattoo. But smaller. In red. And where his neck is. A little like a target.