“He leaves me. And not like he did back in the day when he told me that I was vile and cruel, and not like he did when we told each other it was over earlier this year, making out in a hotel corridor, clutching onto each other too hard, trying to convince each other that we didn’t feel what we obviously felt. He just doesn’t choose me. It’s that simple. He is just too good a person to love me.”

“Remember the animal that after escaping, returns to captivity. Choice crushed my body into shapewear. Want for motion free of direction folded me into cars with strangers. I want when I want, and then I wish for corrosion.”

“A lover? Maybe. Something tender, anyway. But tender like a bruise.”

We really need to address the fact that women aren't more likely to be asexual than men. Ace men are more likely to be closeted especially to themselves because society tells them that they must be sexual/are sex obsessed/be attracted to people and in particular women. And it can be extrememly difficult to look at yourself and say "wow I guess I'm not the way society says I should be".

one of the big concepts I learned in therapy that has been fucking revolutionary for me is the concept that sometimes u can just feel feelings and they don't have to mean anything.

Tell me where it hurts, she’d say. Stop howling. Just calm down and show me where. But some people can’t tell where it hurts. They can’t calm down. They can’t ever stop howling.