Crazy Girl

It doesn’t matter that you broke my heart multiple times, I still saw all that good in you. I still cared for you despite of it, loved you when you didn’t love me back. I still believed, but I deserve someone who will see all I have and not walk away.

"Laughing with you is my love language.. I love it when you make me smile until my cheeks hurt."

“I really tried. The harder I fought to hold onto you, the further you slipped away from me. I really wanted you, but you didn't even look at me.”

“I’ll be here waiting because that’s what you needed me to do, to wait for you to need me, and I’ll wait until it breaks me, I’ll wait until you want me.”

I haven’t forgotten about him. I haven’t given up yet. But I’m moving on in my own way, I’ll be waiting for as long as I can but I won’t cry everyday anymore. I refuse to waste my life crying and wishing. I’m gonna live my life, and if he comes back one day, so be it.

“What makes moving on so scary is the process of consciously choosing to walk away from something that’s been a part of us for the longest time. It’s familiar. It’s safe. Easy to navigate. Taking one step forward and three steps back is not an option. Moving on is final, sometimes the end of an era. But that’s just how it works, isn’t it? Watching someone new rush into our lives until we eventually let them in and allow them to become a part of us, while we bury something old, shovel still in hand. Closing one door just to leave a window open, just in case. Trusting that this is not the end. This is not the end.”

And when you lay awake at night with just my memory beside you, I want you to remember that I’m not the one that got away- I’m the one you pushed away.

Do not look for healing at the feet of those who broke you.

“There comes a day when you realise turning the page is the best feeling in the world, because you realise there’s so much more to the book than the page you were stuck on.”