little things about life

I would give anything to switch the feeling I had when you gave up on me the first and the second time, and what I have now. I could easily move on. I could still smile and laugh and didn't shed any tear. Why would you make me believing if our fairytale was real? Why would you convince me if you're unlike any other guy? Why would you do that to me? It's right, I was the person who's aiming to give up for so many times. But never was.Yet you, you never planned it but did it thrice. The two before ended up saying you were sorry and stuffs. And I was stupid enough to let you came into my life. Over and over again.

But what are we? We are two dummies. You were dumb at the first place. You said you just love! That was idiot. You didn't try to figure out the roads ahead of us. And you pushed yourself and your feeling towards me. Being that one person I never thought you would ever be. And I was dumb at the second place. I was aware of all of this. Yet I gave you those precious chances. I gave my heart to you. I gave this betting a try. I did.

And I won't lie. I've had the best feeling when we were together. Though it never seemed to be real. But looking at your eyes, your smile and your laughter brought a new life to me. Vederti felice e' la mia gioia I would say. E quando siamo insieme, quel momento che io credo nell'amore.

Then my friends came for rescue. The girls say, you might be right there regretting what you're doing and there's still a chance for us. Che sei innamorato di me. You're just a child at heart who's wanting a candy so bad until you can't wait to go to the next shop where you can see your favorite candy taste and have it all for you forever. The boys in the other hands say, just let it go! You don't deserve me and my love. I will find another one, the best one, to whom will never give up on me no matter how hard the things get. While I'm lost in the middle cause I had those in my mind.

I don't want to make you looking like jerk. Though you totally are to me.

I hate you. I hate you for making me feel this misery. But I love you. I love you so much that I have to let you go.