Lovergirl Jullia

Gimmie Eridians who are absolutely heartbroken to hear that humans where so desperate and so scared that they where willing to part with not just one Grace, there were three of them! Gimmie Eridians touched to find that the humans planned a way for their sacrifices to be as comfortable as possible. Gimmie Eridians who send earth a message saying “We know it must have hurt to send your heroes to die, but one made it and he’s safe here. We lost 22 good Eridians on the journey we would have lost 23 if not for your Grace.”

But for now it’s too much. He finishes them both off quickly, giving Shane a few face pats to keep him awake. It’s not as hot as it was a few moments ago and Shane’s smile has gone from dopey to polite, and Ilya makes the rushed excuse of a shower so he can try to run away from the aching in his heart

When he gets back Shane is out cold, somewhat literally since he didn’t pull the covers up. Ilya gives himself a moment of grace under the guise of being a good hookup and careful cleans Shane with a warm washcloth, lingering a little longer than necessary, and tucking him in properly. Ilya feels his legs freeze under him as his task is now complete, and without thinking too much about it leans down to kiss Shane’s sleeping form, petting his hair as he shifts and sighs

I’ve seen people comment that Pomni’s torture scenario was kind of weak compared to the others, and that it could be because she hasn’t been in the circus as long, thus Caine can’t personalize her punishment as well.

And even if he’s technically using their traumas to hurt them, I don’t think that was his main intention. I think he was “replying” to their criticisms.

Pomni: We think your ideas suck!

Including Gummigoo, Pomni?

Zooble: Pathetic! You’re like a child! What kind of all-powerful being has such fragile ego?

How can someone, whose body perfectly encapsulates their mind and is fully customizable, not feel satisfied yet? How many options do you need? How vain can you be, Zooble?

First of all, I know that Zooble most likely suffers from dysphoria, and Caine focusing the torture scenario on that was a massive dick move on his part, especially when Zooble had shared their insecurities about their body in a previous episode.

However, in that same episode, Caine shared with Zooble his own insecurities.

Caine: Making adventures is my art! It’s all I exist to do! All I am… good at. (…) … w-what you’re saying could imply that I’m bad at the only thing I’m good at, and that…

I’m just saying that he probably took Zooble’s criticism as a low blow of its own and he made it personal.

Ragatha: You never let us feel like we’re at home.

Which home? Yours, Ragatha?

Gangle: You discourage us from thinking outside the box and doing things our way!

Spudsy’s was a hell of your own making, Gangle.

Jax: You lie to us constantly!

it's simple.

i've recently been doing research on why awake methods seem to be "ineffective" for me and using tarot cards to get deeper personal insight on what i should do differently and instead i ended up exploring a rabbit hole on spirituality and meditation.

i feel that maybe this resonates for many people and could be really helpful in allowing yourself to successfully shift; during awake methods sometimes you may be deep into your attempt and suddenly get a gut feeling that "nothing is working" or even a sudden deep urge to open your eyes and confirm that "you're still here", the best way i could describe this is as for example: i may be affirming that i am present in my intended reality constantly and within a good amount of minutes of doing so my thoughts will strongly waver towards disproving that and completely counterarguing it, trying desperately to remind me that i am still in my cr or that i should open my eyes. a sort of huge wave of disappointment.

this is whole experience in meditation is named by many different terminologies in the spiritual community such as: "the ego self" or in other words "the guardian" (rudolf steiner’s esoteric teachings) and it refers to your engrained beliefs that you learn based off of your experiences in this original reality, it's an attempt for your consciousness to make logical sense of the sudden loss of control and the shift that is beginning to take place.

⋆𝜗𝜚 ࣪⊹ here's a diagram from meditation teachings that show the different phases:

(i'll probably go into more depth on this diagram on another post) !

it means that you are actually approaching and are close to shifting or if anything your "attempt" is working so deeply that as a result you're threatening your own beliefs of what physical reality is, who and where you are so much so that you've awaken or encountered (3.4.3) your "ego", a self defense to make sense of everything. you're rewriting your identity as a being and that is seen as a threat your physical body and so it desperately tries to make sense of this experience. it's not a flaw it's actually an attempt at your self trying to protect yourself from the unfamiliar.

this is important and where shifters say "let go" or have "patience" it applies here, do not fight the doubts or insecurities that come, persist in the feeling of knowing you are shifting and surrender to it, acknowledge each urge but understand that it does not defy nor control your abilities, remember that you are more than your physical self, take each thought as a wave count to 30 if you need to, the longer you persist and do not fight but rather alchemize these thoughts, the more they'll quieten until they become nothing and gradually you'll enter a deeper state and sink, losing awareness of your reality each time.

you are able to shift with doubts. you do not have to fight them, you have to acknowledge them and realise you hold more power. each time you fight them the more power you give these thoughts and the less you'll allow yourself to flow.

at certain point you'll reach a deep meditative state where you're free of any thoughts and your doubts do not seem as having much power, you're unaware of your surroundings and completely free of anything, free of expectations of what reality is and what we're "able to do" and most importantly free of any reality. that is when grounding affirmations can redirect your subconscious completely to another reality.

so anytime you've taken a shifting awake method attempt and felt "nothing is working" remember you were closer than you think.

hopefully this is helpful!

(again this is my own theory lmao based off of shadow work, shifting is individual entirely so.)

Yes, he should embrace that part of himself that he used to be ashamed of, but holy shit. Nothing to do with his art? His paintings?

That’s even worse. That’s what makes me angry. They genuinely watered him down to the “gay one” of the group there.