I am a strong believer man and I should not be feeling these things... but man.
That one priest at my church, fuck you have no idea. Every time there is Mass and he is there things get so tense. I feel horrible because of it but ya know, pussy has no conscience. I just want for him to take all the frustration out on me of probably never having had a woman in forty years, I want for him not to be gentle, I want for him to use me and to fuck himself stupid on me.
I want him on top of me, I want him to wrap his hand around my neck, fucking me nice and deep in missionary, making that heavy eye contact and for him to snap his hips forward like the unexperienced man he is. I don't want for him to even be good at it, I just want to ruin him.
Fuck man, I should not be typing this.
awwww you don’t need to feel guilty about those desires.
ive been raised as practicing catholic my whole life, even went to catholic school at some point and look what has become of me.
you can never be fully sheltered from these thoughts, you’re human, desire is in our nature.
desire for the things we can not have? well that might be a bit of a deeper issue i suppose.
at the end of the day, these are merely your thoughts, thoughts alone are not a sin. it’s not like you would allow it to happen if you had the opportunity, correct?
it’s not like you’d see him tense, snappy and distracted during a confession or mass and approach him with a solution for the frustration right? you wouldn’t try to explain to him that it’s human to feel that way, and maybe god has set you on his path to assist him with those frustrations, offer yourself as the solution to his body and minds longing for this incredibly natural, incredibly human thing. right? You wouldn’t try to convince him that he’d be forgiven, after all god is so merciful he wouldn’t want his child to suffer like this.
„You would help me if i was struggling, right Father?”
and you wouldn’t let him lead you into one of the rooms at the back of the church, and praise him as he takes his frustrations out on you
in that case, we are the same.