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this is gonna sound really bad cuz i’m not gonna do this anytime soon but ive always wanted to be the one who takes me out of this world. something is just really beautiful about swcde and i just don’t wanna go out any other way. like why tf should i wanna get old n die of health problems. ima do my thing, create, spread love, do what i need to do and then when i think my work here is done i shall return myself to the lobby. not swcdal but shi the way things are going i may have a couple years of creating left in me. idunno

i feel like i’m there for everyone but nobody is ever there for me unless i lash out n basically have to beg to get attention

i got a couple people around me but man i feel so damn lonely all the time i hate it sm

god i wish i could just tell you

i can reverse all of this. i won’t tho. i just need to be helped.

i don’t know why i keep doing this to myself but i can’t stop doing it

i feel so alone. i just want to be appreciated and loved for once.

𝑳𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒊𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒎𝒐𝒔𝒕 𝒑𝒂𝒊𝒏𝒇𝒖𝒍 𝒚𝒆𝒕 𝒃𝒆𝒂𝒖𝒕𝒊𝒇𝒖𝒍 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂 𝒉𝒖𝒎𝒂𝒏 𝒄𝒂𝒏 𝒊𝒏𝒅𝒖𝒓𝒆. 𝑳𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒊𝒔 𝒘𝒂𝒓

this is my only social media now and will now be a digital journal. welcome to my rebirth

𝑰𝒇 𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒌𝒔 𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒌𝒊𝒍𝒍...