Memento Mori

Im back up to 210lbs. I think at least 5lbs of it is surgery swelling weight (i had 2 cysts and polyp removed from my ovaries). But its really pushed me back into my starve era. I wanna lose 10lbs before christmas, and then be around 170 before download next year. I will do a download being skinny.

Think im gaining again due to my pain meds. Im up 3.6lbs in 2 days but havent been eating more so maybe its water weight? Im so annoyed i wanted to be near 270 by sunday.

Fiance insisted on ordering dominos, i ate so much. Back on the grind and im doing a 36/48 hr fast to drop it again quick. All the weight loss meds tomorrow no matter how sick they make me feel on an empty stomach.

I cant fuck by fuckbuddy again until im under 180

My mum asked if my work trousers were new because they looked looser on me. Ive only lost 10lbs and i dont feel i look any different. I wasnt expecting her to notice until i lost at least 20.

Wanted some advice on what other supplements to take. I currently take

Why cant i consistantly lose weight. I kkow its science, i eat below my bmr everyday (normally below 1000), i burn at least 500 cals at work everyday so i physically cant fast longer than 24h and be safe working with animals.