*& CROWN / BLED

don’t go. 

please, don’t go. 

it hurts. 

this hurts. 

we can’t be friends. 

you shouldn’t be here. 

stay here with me. 

it doesn’t feel like you care. 

i can’t feel your heart. 

i’m so alone. 

i need you here, with me. 

there’s nothing left. 

we’re up in flames, the both of us. 

it all comes crashing down. 

i don’t know what to do. 

you won’t go with me? 

why don’t you stay here? 

i’m going alone.

my heart’s broken. 

they broke your heart. 

where did this come from? 

how did you get this scar? 

who is {name}? 

what are you saying? 

i shouldn’t have come here. 

it’s like we’ve become strangers. 

who hurt you? 

who did this to you? 

please, don’t ignore me.

please, say something. 

is there something i should know?

i’m not leaving you here. 

you can’t do this to me. 

after all that we’ve been through… 

TW: suicide, ns/fw themes, violence, drugs

BEAUTIFUL

“college will be paradise if i’m not dead by june.”

“life can be beautiful.”

“what can i say? i’m a sucker for a happy ending.”

“you’re a high school has-been waiting to happen. a future gas station attendant.”

“she is a mythic bitch.”

“if i took a meat cleaver down the center of your skull, i’d have matching halves. that’s very important.”

CANDY STORE

“you’ve come so far, why now are you pulling on my dick?”

“it’s time for you to prove you’re not a loser anymore.”

“maybe sesame street is on.”

“keep on testing me and end up like her!”

“color me stoked.”

FIGHT FOR ME

“why, when you see boys fight, does it look so horrible yet feel so right?”

“i shouldn’t watch this crap.”

“could you be seen with me and still act proud?”

“i would fight for you.”

“holy shit!”

FREEZE YOUR BRAIN

“no point planting roots when you’re gone in a hurry.”

“who needs cocaine?”

“does your mommy know you eat all this crap?”

“when the voice in your head says you’re better off dead, don’t open a vein.”

“freeze your brain.”

BIG FUN

“let’s get naked in my pool!”

“so it’s salt, then lime, then shot?”

“a hot guy smiled at me!”

“hey, is that weed? i want a hit!”

“i think that’s what they call ‘third base’.”

“i wasn’t gonna come, but since you took the time to write that sweet note…”

“people wouldn’t hate you so much if you acted normal.”

DEAD GIRL WALKING

“what are you doing in my room?”

“you’re my last meal on death row.”

“shut your mouth and lose them tightie-whities.”

“it’s ‘cause you’re beautiful.”

“you say you’re numb inside, but i can’t agree.”

“i think you tore my mattress!”

“slap me, pull my hair—”

THE ME INSIDE OF ME

“no one thinks a pretty girl has feelings.”

“jesus, you’re making me sound like air supply!”

“call me when the shuttle lands.”

“maybe i can help the world by leaving.”

“you’re very quiet. what’s on your mind?”

“holy crap! this is awesome!”

BLUE

“you got a left hand, use it.”

“don’t run from me!”

“look! booze! drink!”

“my balls are in your court!”

OUR LOVE IS GOD

“they made you cry…”

“you are the only thing that’s right about this broken world.”

“you’re not alone.”

“how did you know it was always a fantasy of mine to have two guys at once?”

“i’d trade my life for yours.”

“well i was hoping you could rip my clothes off me, sport.”

“stop being a dick!”

“what the fuck have you done?”

DEAD GAY SON

“i’ve been thinking. praying. reading some magazines.”

“they just had flair!”

“they took a rebel stance!”

“that was one hell of a fishing trip.”

SEVENTEEN

“we don’t choose who lives or dies.”

“don’t you want a life with me?”

“if you could let me in, i could be good with you.”

“you’re right, that really blows.”

“i wanna be with you.”

“i’ll stay if i’m what you choose.”

SHINE A LIGHT

“deep inside of everyone there’s a hot ball of shame.”

“no volunteers? fine. i’ll start.”

“i faked it, every single time.”

LIFEBOAT

“everyone’s pushing! everyone’s fighting!”

“there’s nowhere to hide.”

“the weakest must go.”

SHINE A LIGHT (REPRISE)

“stupid childproof caps—”

“you don’t deserve to live!”

“you’re gonna die alone.”

KINDERGARTEN BOYFRIEND

“he was sweet. he said that i was smart.”

“now we’re all grown up and we know better.”

“certain girls are meant to be alone.”

“i believe that any dream worth having is a dream that should not have an end.”

YO, GIRL

“oh my god, is s/he dead—?”

“we’ve been worried sick!”

“i’ve experienced everything you’re going through right now!”

“you don’t know what my world looks like!”

“sorry for coming in through the window—dreadful etiquette.”

MEANT TO BE YOURS

“you’re my date to the pep rally tonight!”

“they’re keeping you away from me.”

“you left me and i fell apart.”

“i was meant to be yours.”

“can we not fight anymore please?”

“sure, you’re scared, i’ve been there.”

“one, two—fuck it!”

DEAD GIRL WALKING (REPRISE)

“no one here deserves to die—except for me and the monster i created.”

“it’s one more dance and then farewell.”

“yeah, well, s/he’s wrong about a lot of things.”

“this little thing? i’d hardly call this a bomb.”

“i wish we’d met before they convinced you life is war.”

I AM DAMAGED

“stick around here. make things better.”

“you beat me fair and square.”

“wish you’d kiss me.”

“say hi to god.”

“you look like hell!”

“i just got back.”

SEVENTEEN (REPRISE)

“we are done with acting evil.”

“are you free tonight?”

“my date for the pep rally tonight kind of… blew me off.”

“are there any happy endings?”

“i’d be honored if you let me be your friend.”

THE 1

i’m doing good, i’m on some new shit

and if you wanted me, you really should’ve showed

but we were something, don’t you think so?

and if my wishes came true, it would’ve been you

in my defence, i have none

but it would’ve been fun if you would’ve been the one

if one thing had been different, would everything be different today

CARDIGAN

when you are young they assume you know nothing

i knew you

baby kiss it better

you put me on and said i was your favourite

a friend to all is a friend to none

chase two girls, lose the one

you drew stars around my scars

but now i’m bleeding

tried to change the ending

i knew you’d haunt all of my what-ifs

cause i knew everything when i was young

and i knew you’d come back to me

THE LAST GREAT AMERICAN DYNASTY

how did a middle class divorcée do it?

there’s only so far new money goes

their parties were tasteful, if a little loud

there goes the last great american dynasty

who knows, if she never showed up what could’ve been

she had a marvellous time ruining everything

there goes the most shameless woman this town has ever seen

she stole his dog and dyed it key lime green

i had a marvellous time ruining everything

EXILE

i can see you standin’ honey

and it took you five whole minutes to pack us up and leave me with it

i think i’ve seen this film before

you’re not my homeland anymore

now i’m in exile seein’ you out

i can see you starin’ honey

like you’d get your knuckles bloody for me

those eyes add insult to injury

i’m not your problem anymore

so who am i offending now?

we always walked a very thin line

you didn’t even hear me out

i never learned to read your mind

MY TEARS RICOCHET

even on my worst day, did i deserve babe, all the hell you gave me?

i swear i loved you

i didn’t have it in myself to go with grace

and if i’m dead to you, why are you at the wake?

you know i didn’t want to have to haunt you

cause when i’d fight, you used to tell me i was brave

and i can go anywhere i want, just not home

you had to kill me, but it killed you just the same

you turned into your worst fears

MIRRORBALL

and when i break, it’s in a million pieces

hush

you’ll find me on my tallest tiptoes spinning in my highest heels

i know they said the end is near

i can change everything about me to fit in

i’m still trying everything to get you laughing at me

i’m still a believer but i don’t know why

SEVEN

please picture me in the trees

i was too scared to jump in

are there still beautiful things?

cross your heart, won’t tell no other

and thought i can’t recall your face, i still got love for you

love you to the moon and to saturn

and i’ve been meaning to tell you

i think your house is haunted

i used to scream ferociously

AUGUST

i never needed anything more

are you sure?

never have i ever before

cause it was never mine

and i can see us twisted in bedsheets

cause you were never mine

i remember thinking i had you

wanting was enough

for me, it was enough

so much for summer love, and saying “us”

cause you weren’t mine to lose

THIS IS ME TRYING

i’ve been having a hard time adjusting

i didn’t know if you’d care if i came back

i have a lot of regrets about that

and maybe i don’t quite know what to say

i just wanted you to know that this is me trying

they told me all of my cages were mental

so i got wasted like all my potential

i was so ahead of the curve, the curve became a sphere

but i didn’t pour the whiskey

at least i’m trying

it’s hard to be anywhere these days

ILLICIT AFFAIRS

make sure nobody sees you leave

tell your friends you’re out for a run

take the road less travelled by

and that’s the thing about illicit affairs

like you don’t even exist

but they lie, and they lie, and they lie, a million little times

don’t call me kid

don’t call me baby

look at this godforsaken mess that you made me

for you, i would ruin myself

INVISIBLE STRING

i used to think i would meet somebody there

were there clues i didn’t see?

all along, there was some invisible string tying you to me

you ate at my favourite spot for dinner

something wrapped all of my past mistakes in barbed wire

one single thread of gold tied me to you

hell was the journey but it brought me heaven

MAD WOMAN

what did you think i’d say to that?

what do you sing on your drive home?

every time you call me crazy, i get more crazy

and when you say i seem angry, i get more angry

what a shame, she went mad

no one likes a mad woman

you made her like that

it’s obvious that wanting me dead has really brought you two together

cause you took everything from me

the master of spin has a couple side flings

good wives always know

EPIPHANY

just a flesh wound

___, i think he’s bleedin’ out

something med school did not cover

doc, i think she’s crashin’ out

and some things you just can’t speak about

to make some sense of what you’ve seen

BETTY

but i think it’s cause of me

it’s like i couldn’t breathe

you can’t believe a word she says

the worst thing that i ever did was what i did to you

would you have me?

would you want me?

would you tell me to go straight to hell?

i’m only seventeen, i don’t know anything

but i know i miss you

just thinking of you

i dreamt of you all summer long

the only thing i wanna do is make it up to you

PEACE

i never had the courage of my convictions

as long as danger is near

but i would die for you in secret

the devil’s in the details

but you got a friend in me

your integrity makes me seem small

and you know that i’d swing with you for the fences

and you know that i’d sit with you in the trenches

and you know that i’d give you my wild

and you know that i’d give you my child

is it enough?

all these people think love’s for show

would it be enough if i could never give you peace?

HOAX

this has broken me down

stood on the cliffside screaming “give me a reason”

your faithless love’s the only hoax i believe in

don’t want no other shade of blue but you

i am ash from your fire

you know i left a part of me back in new york

you knew the hero died, so what’s the movie for

you knew it still hurts underneath my scares

you knew you won, so what’s the point of keeping score?

darling, this was just as hard

you have beaten my heart