SOFTER: “  stop doing that— stop trying to hide your emotions from me.  ” “  i can’t make you trust me. but i’m gonna stick around long enough for you to realize you can.  ” “  not everyone is just gonna become another scar. some people will stay, if you let them.  ” “  i feel like i’ve been living in a storm for so long, like i’m just drifting from wave or wave hoping i won’t drown.  ” “  what happened to you? what made you so scared to stay still long enough to let someone in?  ” “  i don’t wanna be scared anymore.  ” “  even when you smile, your eyes are still sad.  ” “  you’re safe with me. you can let go. breathe. ”   “  i just want to belong somewhere again. or to someone, i guess.  ” “  the thing about never having a home, is you don’t know what to do when you’re finally given one. you just feel like you’re waiting for something to take it away again.  ” “  would you just sit still? you’re gonna get an infection if you don’t let me clean this up.  ” “  i’m not gonna hurt you. i’m just here to help.  ” “  close your eyes. go back to sleep. nothing can hurt you while i’m here.  ” “  you looked so peaceful while you were sleeping…i couldn’t bring myself to wake you up.  ” “  why do you trust me?  ” “  don’t do that— don’t shut down on me. let me in.  ” “  you were talking in your sleep again. i’m starting to think they’re memories and not just dreams.  ” “  i’m not used to letting people close. i don’t like being vulnerable— but i want to, with you. i want to let you in.  ” “  how did you get this scar?  ” “ i don’t always need you to fix everything. i just— sometimes i just want you to listen. ” “  you’re so beautiful when you laugh. i wish i could see it more, but maybe it’s the rarity of it that makes it so captivating. ”

Something’s Wrong With My Muse

“Oh, God, you’re bleeding. You’re bleeding a lot.”

“Stop squirming, I’m trying to help.”

“Hang on, I got you.”

“Just lean on me, I’ll help you walk.”

“We should get that looked at.”

“Don’t tilt your head back, you’ll make your nosebleed worse!”

“Just sit up and breathe, ok?”

“Eh, you’ll be fine. I think. Maybe.”

“Whatever you do, don’t go to sleep. Stay awake.”

“Oooooo. That looks painful.”

“Oh, thank God! Don’t scare me like that!”

“How the hell did you do this to yourself?”

“Hey, hey, stay with me, ok?”

“You stopped breathing.”

“Oh look, it’s alive.”

“Take deep breaths, you’ll be fine.”

“Arms shouldn’t move like that…”

“What happened to your leg?!”

“Yep, that’s broken alright. How’d you manage that?”

“Here’s some ice for that.”

“You’re welcome, by the way.”

“Yeesh, you look like shit.”

“Wait, you were mugged?!”

“Is that a stab/gunshot wound?”

“Ok, ew. I’m not cleaning that up.”

“Easy, easy! Just lay down, you hit your head.”

“You probably have a concussion, so I wouldn’t be moving around too much if I were you.”

“I thought you were dead!”

“On a scale of 1 to 10, how much does it hurt?”

“Can you walk on your own?”

“You’re getting blood on my clothes!”

“How many fingers am I holding up?”

Something’s Wrong With Your Muse

“Is that three fingers you’re holding up?”

“I’m so sorry for getting blood on your clothes!”

“I’m not sure I can walk on my own.”

“On a scale of 1 to 10, my pain’s at least an 8.”

“You thought I was dead?”

“Do you think I have a concussion?”

“I hit my head; now I don’t feel so good.”

“I’m so sorry. Do you mind cleaning up?”

“I think I’ve been stabbed/shot.”

“I just got mugged!”

“Do I look as bad as I feel?”

“Could I maybe get an ice pack for this?”

“Thank you, by the way.”

“I think my leg is broken.”

“I can’t feel my arm.”

“I’m going to need more than deep breathing to calm me down.”

“I’m not dead yet!”

“Oh, God, I’m bleeding. I’m bleeding a lot.”

“Are you really trying to help?”

“Please help me.”

“Can I lean on you? I don’t think I can walk.”

“I think I need to get this looked at.”

“I can’t get my nose to stop bleeding!”

“I can’t seem to catch my breath.”

“I’ll be fine. I think. Maybe.”

“Please help me stay awake.”

“This hurts just as much as it looks like it does.”

“Sorry - did I scare you?”

“I don’t know how I managed to do this to myself.”

“I don’t know if I can stay awake.”

“I stopped breathing?”

TW: suicide, ns/fw themes, violence, drugs

BEAUTIFUL

“college will be paradise if i’m not dead by june.”

“life can be beautiful.”

“what can i say? i’m a sucker for a happy ending.”

“you’re a high school has-been waiting to happen. a future gas station attendant.”

“she is a mythic bitch.”

“if i took a meat cleaver down the center of your skull, i’d have matching halves. that’s very important.”

CANDY STORE

“you’ve come so far, why now are you pulling on my dick?”

“it’s time for you to prove you’re not a loser anymore.”

“maybe sesame street is on.”

“keep on testing me and end up like her!”

“color me stoked.”

FIGHT FOR ME

“why, when you see boys fight, does it look so horrible yet feel so right?”

“i shouldn’t watch this crap.”

“could you be seen with me and still act proud?”

“i would fight for you.”

“holy shit!”

FREEZE YOUR BRAIN

“no point planting roots when you’re gone in a hurry.”

“who needs cocaine?”

“does your mommy know you eat all this crap?”

“when the voice in your head says you’re better off dead, don’t open a vein.”

“freeze your brain.”

BIG FUN

“let’s get naked in my pool!”

“so it’s salt, then lime, then shot?”

“a hot guy smiled at me!”

“hey, is that weed? i want a hit!”

“i think that’s what they call ‘third base’.”

“i wasn’t gonna come, but since you took the time to write that sweet note…”

“people wouldn’t hate you so much if you acted normal.”

DEAD GIRL WALKING

“what are you doing in my room?”

“you’re my last meal on death row.”

“shut your mouth and lose them tightie-whities.”

“it’s ‘cause you’re beautiful.”

“you say you’re numb inside, but i can’t agree.”

“i think you tore my mattress!”

“slap me, pull my hair—”

THE ME INSIDE OF ME

“no one thinks a pretty girl has feelings.”

“jesus, you’re making me sound like air supply!”

“call me when the shuttle lands.”

“maybe i can help the world by leaving.”

“you’re very quiet. what’s on your mind?”

“holy crap! this is awesome!”

BLUE

“you got a left hand, use it.”

“don’t run from me!”

“look! booze! drink!”

“my balls are in your court!”

OUR LOVE IS GOD

“they made you cry…”

“you are the only thing that’s right about this broken world.”

“you’re not alone.”

“how did you know it was always a fantasy of mine to have two guys at once?”

“i’d trade my life for yours.”

“well i was hoping you could rip my clothes off me, sport.”

“stop being a dick!”

“what the fuck have you done?”

DEAD GAY SON

“i’ve been thinking. praying. reading some magazines.”

“they just had flair!”

“they took a rebel stance!”

“that was one hell of a fishing trip.”

SEVENTEEN

“we don’t choose who lives or dies.”

“don’t you want a life with me?”

“if you could let me in, i could be good with you.”

“you’re right, that really blows.”

“i wanna be with you.”

“i’ll stay if i’m what you choose.”

SHINE A LIGHT

“deep inside of everyone there’s a hot ball of shame.”

“no volunteers? fine. i’ll start.”

“i faked it, every single time.”

LIFEBOAT

“everyone’s pushing! everyone’s fighting!”

“there’s nowhere to hide.”

“the weakest must go.”

SHINE A LIGHT (REPRISE)

“stupid childproof caps—”

“you don’t deserve to live!”

“you’re gonna die alone.”

KINDERGARTEN BOYFRIEND

“he was sweet. he said that i was smart.”

“now we’re all grown up and we know better.”

“certain girls are meant to be alone.”

“i believe that any dream worth having is a dream that should not have an end.”

YO, GIRL

“oh my god, is s/he dead—?”

“we’ve been worried sick!”

“i’ve experienced everything you’re going through right now!”

“you don’t know what my world looks like!”

“sorry for coming in through the window—dreadful etiquette.”

MEANT TO BE YOURS

“you’re my date to the pep rally tonight!”

“they’re keeping you away from me.”

“you left me and i fell apart.”

“i was meant to be yours.”

“can we not fight anymore please?”

“sure, you’re scared, i’ve been there.”

“one, two—fuck it!”

DEAD GIRL WALKING (REPRISE)

“no one here deserves to die—except for me and the monster i created.”

“it’s one more dance and then farewell.”

“yeah, well, s/he’s wrong about a lot of things.”

“this little thing? i’d hardly call this a bomb.”

“i wish we’d met before they convinced you life is war.”

I AM DAMAGED

“stick around here. make things better.”

“you beat me fair and square.”

“wish you’d kiss me.”

“say hi to god.”

“you look like hell!”

“i just got back.”

SEVENTEEN (REPRISE)

“we are done with acting evil.”

“are you free tonight?”

“my date for the pep rally tonight kind of… blew me off.”

“are there any happy endings?”

“i’d be honored if you let me be your friend.”