𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐑𝐄𝐃 𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐆

Hi guys, well. I've weighed this up for a very long time. I've been flip flopping whether to revive this blog or not. It's been hard, and I feel like I've been battling with this decision ever since the SPN writers completely fucked me and other Crowley/Mark Sheppard fans over by killing him off. I came very close to ending my life that day and it was only outside sources that had no idea about the internal battle I was facing that helped me stay alive and somewhat sane.

It's been a tough decision to make but in the end I've decided that ultimately I am going to bring Crowley back someday. If not this year then hopefully in 2024. I'll need to get my headspace into Crowley mode again which might mean rewatching SPN again (or at least the episodes where Crowley isn't killed or emasculated or made into the joke of the show).

There are always things I wanted to do on here with Crowley. I want him to interact with Jacks. I want him to interact with God!Chucks. I want him to interact with plenty of other characters in other universes (including Good Omens Crowley because I know that they would be friends because SPN Crowley has bits of Aziraphale and Crowley in him).

I think ultimately that I've also been struggling with the direction to take Crowley. I think in the end I'll keep things simple. I want Crowley to be semi-canon, in the sense that he retains a lot of the same characteristics and backstory on the show. But I want Crowley to be, well-- pretty much unkillable and invincible. And that's because it really fucking sucked when Crowley was killed off for me, it was like killing off a part of myself. In my head, Crowley when he was 'killed' on screen, and when nobody was looking at his body, reappeared somewhere else on Earth, powers intact, and retired happily with his dogs, occasionally solving small town mysteries or hunting certain things that interfered with the few friends in the small town he'd made. I briefly was part of an insanejournal RP community that I actually had this backstory developed in, and Crowley even had a love interest in Michael (yeah the archangel SPN Michael) who was a cop kinda character but we never got to finish that off because my mental health struggles got in the way and everything.

But Crowley will be ok. He'll be different. It'll never really be one consistent backstory, just a few different ones that kinda have that similar thread through them. It'll be a bit of a running gag, even. Maybe he's God from some other dimension, maybe he's Mephistopheles, maybe he's some eldritch manifestation of Hell that latched onto Fergus's soul and gradually took him over until Crowley didn't have a soul anymore but was still a demon somehow. Maybe it's all of these things. Maybe it's none of these things.

if anyone is interested in possibly rping with me on insanejournal, feel free to friend request me, my handle there is redsmoke :)

tumblr is far too slow and difficult for me to use but i might keep this blog up and running as an aesthetic one (or in case it becomes less laggy in the future - not bloody likely but anyhoo~)

crowley in my head:

and walker's boss called him MOOSE!!!!! i think a few other people did too. it was fun. and i know mark's going to be in the prequel series too and i'm hoping he doesn't play Token Bad Guy (though i know he does it so well)