i cannot stress enough how i can imagine hotch excusing himself, disappearing for a bit coming back and when asked he just says:
ājust a panic attack, im ok,ā
and he does this a few times before the team finally starts to pick up on the signs. the problem is hotchās panic attacks are deadly silent. so if youāre not looking at him you canāt tell. heāll just excuse himself under the guise of going to the bathroom will only mention it if heās questioned.
the only tell tale sign that anything has happened with be the redness in his eyes. they always get red when he cries.
like mentioned heāll NEVER tell any of the team as itās happening unless heās asked. he canāt burden them like that, or distract them and itās not very professional to put that on them as their boss. he will tell them if they ask tho because he believes in openness like that. if they werenāt willing to take on a burden they wouldnāt ask.
