19 years of autism

the wonders you do to me is all the things you really don’t do the fact that you are in my head at all times, even if you’re not here the only contact I have to you is through my phone, and I wonder how I came to care this deeply for you the wonders you do not only to me, but to the world, your talent, your kindness, your perfection, The strong pull I feel to you, the way you attract me, and it’s a wonder I haven’t run a thousand miles yet to be with you. the wonders you do to me, is more the wonders you are to me. And being unable to show you the appreciation, the love, the admiration you deserve is torturing. It’s a wonder you are in my life.

I cannot help but fear that no one will ever make me feel the way you made me feel I cannot help but wonder If my mind is going under I seem unable to decide If I should be giving you a chance, to love me, adore me, make me laugh It’s been so long, I don’t know how Would you sit beneath the empty night And watch the sky and stars flow by With me? Would you love me? I cannot help but dread If my feelings were to take a rest, You just might be able to get in And I cannot help but wonder, If my mind is going under How do you expect me to decide? I cannot make up my mind. Should I be giving you a chance, to love me, adore me, make me laugh It’s been so long I don’t know how Would you sit beneath the empty night And watch the sky and stars flow by With me? Would you love me? Would you do the things he never could Like love and care as a lover should, Like taking me on an actual date And show me that I can be great, Like showing that I’m worth the while Should I be giving you the chance to love me, adore me, make me laugh the chance he’s wasted too much before Would you sit beneath the empty night And watch the sky and the stars flow by With me? Can anyone love me? I’m afraid they don’t.

when u make a mistake

I usually don’t reblog these but oh my god