I AM CONFUSED AND I LIKE IT

“Forgive yourself for not knowing what you didn’t know before you learned it.”

Total loyalty is possible only when fidelity is emptied of all concrete content, from which changes of mind might naturally arise.

I knew a little girl who had a bunny rabbit. She was so delighted with it and so afraid of losing it that taking it home in the car she squeezed it to death. Lots of parents do that to their children, and to eachother. They hold on too hard, and so take the life out of this transient, beautifully fragile thing that life is. To have life and its pleasure you must, at the same time, let go of it. Then you can feel perfectly free to have that pleasure in the most gutsy, rollicking, earthshaking, lip-licking way, with one’s whole being taken over by a kind of undulative, convulsive ripple, like the very pulse of life itself. But, this can happen only if you let go, if you are willing to be abandoned.

Farewell to the monsters, farewell to the saints. Farewell to pride. All that is left is men.