Fainting at work
In the engine room, the days and nights melted more and more into a single gray mass. Maurice had become so accustomed to the obtrusive smell on the coal deck that he no longer even noticed it. Menu no. 5 had long since lost its horror: whatever he ate, it all tasted the same - like nothing. He simply spooned up what was in front of him and swallowed it, because somewhere deep down he knew it was necessary to stay alive. Afterwards, he staggered to his bunk and sank into a deathlike sleep - until the next morning, when one of the stokers shook him awake and pushed him to the sink, where a few handfuls of ice-cold water woke him up enough to find his way to the breakfast table. A few cups of tasteless broth, which the other stokers called â'devilish strong coffeeâ, got him up enough to get back to work. One: a shovel full of coal, two: into the heater, one: coal on the shovel, two...
Maurice only listened to the time and the singing of the others as he shoveled the coals into his ravenous, red-hot mouth. His head and body were also glowing and he was too tired to sing along. He silently moved his lips to the lyrics, thinking only that he mustn't lose his timing and that he mustn't fall asleep. One (up) - two (in) - one (up) - two (in) - one (up)... Pain raced in his hand: a small greeting from reality. A few moments later he was far away - pleasantly surrounded by a strangely gentle exhaustion. Maurice straightened his back and forced himself back. Don't get weak - don't go limp! One (up) - two (in) - one (up)... The furnace opening with the red, glowing coals flickered before his eyes. - two (in) - one (up)... His hands failed. The shovel clattered to the ground. He swayed - his legs buckled powerlessly under him without him being able to do anything about it. No, he thought, no - no way he was going to get weak... He searched for something to hold on to and pull himself up again, but his hands were grasping at nothing. He could barely feel his body hitting the hard ground...
âRun, Sal - run! Get the doctor! Hurry up!â âKeep breathing, boy, keep breathing!â Luuk and Sebba's voices came from far away. Maurice obeyed and wondered why they sounded so anxious. He was fine after all! Everything was so pleasant and light - he even floated a little, while at the same time his body continued to hang in Sebba's arms, feeling as heavy as lead. There was no need to worry: everything was fine and nothing hurt... âCome on, boy, breathe, keep breathing, do you hear me?â Something cool was placed on his forehead, around his shoulders and over his upper body, bringing him back to reality for a few moments. He blinked briefly and vaguely recognized Sebba, who was looking at him worriedly. â Feel better again?â Maurice tried a nod and a smile, both far too exhausting: his head sank to the side, into the crook of Sebba's arm. He fell deep - so deep... A dark, gentle, peaceful security caught him: a place where everything was good and where there was no more pain and no more fear.

























