☭ Eternal Suffering, Also Gay. ☭

#explanation: this references the scene where Hektor the prince of troy goes to his wife after a battle and leans in to kiss his son #(who is still a baby and being held in andromache's arms) #but his son cringes away in fear of his father's battle helmet #it's a gut wrenching scene about how war dehumanizes you and separates you from the people you love #this interpretation implies that being a gamer is analogous

The most interesting question you can ask about any character is not what do they want. it's what do they believe they deserve. because those two things are almost never the same and the gap between them is where your entire story lives. a person can want love completely and believe they don't deserve it and that belief will destroy every good thing that comes toward them in ways they won't even notice they're doing. write the gap. the gap is the character.

Everybody talking about how diy hrt is so haaaard and dangerousssss is lying btw it's literally fine. Yes even for testosterone. Do you know how many cis dudes are taking grey market steroids? Nobody gives a shit unless you're going through customs or already getting pulled over for something else

Also the whole "taking t is dangerous for your health" thing like. It's not going to turn your blood into pudding and kill you. Do you know how much higher than the suggested max/cis male dosage you have to go for anything weird to start happening? You are not going to accidentally overdose on a sex hormone your body already naturally produces. Your body will start converting it to estrogen (which still isn't ideal, sure) Long before it reaches that point. It's Literally Fine. Do your actual research on this don't let detrans grifters scare you out of at least Reading About It as a possibility

You can also get bitcoin via cashapp in like two seconds, yknow, if you don't want to email some dubious website your banking information. None of this is as hard as they want you to think it is

I also like to point out that the HRT you see online is generally legit, especially if you're using a source that has been approved and vetted by the community. If it's not gray market stuff that's just the actual medication, but from another country, then it's almost certainly something that was made with a level of care and safety. People will take DIY vials and send them off to be tested in labs. People have made sure that this stuff is safe and they wouldn't be recommending it unless it was something that they felt was safe and effective.

^ Yeah literally. It's not like. Being made in a bathtub or something. It's just dropshipping. I've Heard about homebrewed estrogen being Fine anyway but you can literally just order medicine from other countries

it's unavailable in my region :(

Good news! You'll probably still be able to purchase it on itch.io, which has some additional neat perks like giving the developers a bigger cut of the money and also actually owning the software

we give itch the same cut steam takes, but apart from that this is true. Link to itch

i have never felt so valued and able to sharpen a pencil why am i crying

I love her so much ♥️

I don't know what else I expected him to do.