DID Blogging

Not right now kitten, the voices are monologuing about the hubris of mankind again.

How to become normal under 48 hours

everything will probably be fine but i have to get really anxious just in case

sorry for the nervous breakdown everyone im actuallt fine because i have to be

so last year during a period of intense suicidal depression i made this necklace that i always wear, right, and the thing is it's genuinely brought me a lot of comfort and relief and i've developed a strong sentimental attachment to it, to the point that i can inarguably state that it's had a net positive effect on my mental wellbeing. however i did now just have to stop to almost throw up laughing because i realised that i've succumbed to the amulet.

One of those tabs is playing music and it’s not even from this dimension 🤣

I feel like im going literally crazy, like I've been lying to everyone because I cant actually remember any of it firsthand but Im pretty sure it happened, but I dont know and I really hate not knowing. If I am im sorry I guess, but idk aaaa

I also didn’t remember the worst of my trauma at first, but the symptoms were always there. I was going through a very rough time in 2023, which caused a little part to switch in while I was driving. I was diagnosed soon after that, but I struggled with believing it was DID until the host at the time (who was blocked from memories pre-age 16) went digging and had many very unpleasant flashbacks. I may have set myself back a year or two because I chose to do it myself instead of approaching it safely in therapy. Remembering the trauma isn’t all it’s cracked up to be. But choosing to embrace and believe your system is a great first step to stability regardless of what you remember about your past.

It’s so valid to want validation of your experiences. I hope you’ll get that, or can come to terms with what happened even if you can’t remember everything. It’s a long process, but you’ve got this!