system blog

We interact from @medleyharmonic.

quick system overview:

orange / 🍔 - host, he/him

green / 🌱 - she/her

white / 👁️‍🗨️ - he/any

purple / ☔️ - they/them

awwww!! thank you so much!! :D even though it’s such a huge simplification of how i see myself, my little fairy bug feels like a really good representation of me, i like her a lot too!

hussie’s art style was definitely a big inspiration for us when we started this way of drawing :) it’s a really accessible style for expressing things while not needing to fuss about details or consistency too much !

to be heard without words

hell on body technique

my friend red

hmm!!! not exactly... i did have a look around to help you, and i think the best thing to look up might be "list of personality/character traits" which could be a good springboard!

the way that we settled on ours though is basically "to describe, then summarise" our nature!

for example! for mine, which i simplified to "playfulness, vulnerability, self-acceptance", we looked at what my fronting patterns are, and what kind of things i like to do when i'm around!

"playfulness" was clear in how i type and my hobbies (i like to watch fun movies and play games!)

"vulnerability" comes from how i tend to feel, and how i often am the one to front when someone else is really upset

"self-acceptance" comes from the fact that i'm always the one most likely to celebrate who i am and who we are, and allow us to struggle openly with our disability :)

we looked into the core of what these things mean about me and what i like to represent. the words might be clear right away! but otherwise for example, if you look up, "words to describe someone who xyz," you might get a couple ideas!

we tend to have a remarkably easy time telling who is fronting or present, because it is a quite tangible direction-based system that we feel in our head, as surges, twinges, and jabs — it’s difficult to describe, but all noise has motion to us, so perhaps it’s a form of synesthesia?

regardless, recently i attempted to make a kind of “map” of where our presences range from:

the circles indicate the general presence of the part, while the “tails” indicate the motion they are prone to taking.

my own, for instance — purple — tends to gently ease up and out from the centre in rolling waves, perhaps slightly to the left at times — (although now that i think on it, this is very rare).

green’s is quite centrally at the “north” position, but if she’s fronting her presence can become “central.”

orange, the host, tends to be very central, but can be pulled deeply southward if he is not fronting.

white, in the south-east position, tends to stay in that area and creep closer when he is more present.

red is one of the most erratic, coming in in sudden spear-like jabs from the west-southwest.

with this sense of direction, it can be very easy at times to tell who is thinking of what. of course, any of these can be absent at any time, or sporadic; and in green and i’s case, it can be somewhat difficult to parse at times, especially given that we tend to appear together. i think all parts can be central at times, too, but this is not the norm.

i’m sharing this as i’d like to know if anyone else experiences the presence of parts in the same way — it’s something that we have been very curious about since we started to pay mind to it. otherwise, i am deeply curious to hear of any other sensations or ways of sensing presence people feel.

We may not be heavily active and are still deciding what we want to include on this blog.

As we are a relatively small system, we are going to use simple colours (and emojis) as aliases, at least for now.