chris

i know i am loved. i know i am more than bullshit vague vents and tense silence. i know that whatever the fuck i thought i had is gone, and that’s fine. that’s just the way it is. i will move on. i will adapt and flourish because i’ve fought so fucking hard to get where i am. that’s not to say that others haven’t, but i’m at a point where i won’t let anything get in my way anymore. i will be educated. i will be kinder. i will be more than my parents. i will be better than i have ever been, and i will do it without feeling an ounce of guilt.

maybe i’m just bitter but i have lost so many people already, i can’t afford to care about losing another. i will move on. i will let go. i will build a life for myself regardless of the people around me.

i pour myself into those who pour into me. i am so blessed to have my family, partner, and true friends.

i miss my friends

intellectual intimacy, emotional intimacy, physical intimacy, sexual intimacy… i could go on it is all so wonderful

it’s all so insanely euphoric and rewarding