I know I haven't been here very much, but know that I love y'all and it's not that I haven't tried. Tl;Dr, life has been really kicking me down, my motivation is struggling. Actual stuff below because like I said, I love y'all and I feel like y'all should understand what's going on !
Life has just really been stressful for me to the point where I really just wanna sleep forever. Back in November, I got a promotion, and since then things at work have been very overwhelming. Not long after I got promoted, my coworker a step above me went to a different department, so everything that she was doing fell on my shoulders. Then there was a whole week more recently where not only did we not have an assistant manager, but we also didn't have our branch manager, so everything once again fell on my shoulders and when I tell y'all that everything that COULD have gone wrong went wrong? Oh boy. I cried so fucking much that week.
Then recently, our assistant manager got promoted. Usually when that happens, they get shuffled around and that person goes elsewhere. Well. They didn't do that this time, and now we're stuck with a branch manager that no one feels comfortable going to.
Besides work, also a few weeks ago, I got a notice, a legal notice, that I needed to remove the weeds from my driveway and the front of my house or we could be threatened with eviction. That was stressing me out to no fucking end because (1) those fuckin things were small and (2) they left a stupid black & white picture with the notice that did not, in fact, help me figure out where the FUCK they wanted shit cleared from. I believe with help from family, that was fixed, but I still am not sure and now am extremely paranoid it wasn't enough.
Basically all this shit has been weighing on me real bad, I've sobbed a lot the past few months due to all this, and I feel like my motivation has suffered a lot because of it. I wanna try to be here, this isn't something I wanna abandon, but y'all... it is SO hard. If you read all this & you're still here, I appreciate it so much. โค๏ธ
I may be sporadic here, but I'm always on discord, and I sure as fuck ain't going anywhere, but I felt some exposition was necessary.
