Follow the Guiding Light

PILE ONE

Astrology: Scorpio, Leo, Taurus, Aquarius

Song: Spring and the Storm by Tally Hall

Vibes: Wild flowers, 345, abstract art, weird dreams, fog, confusion, racing thoughts, mental illness, courage, amethyst, howlite, sodalite, porcelain teacup, traditional patterns, 3rd eye, crown

Cards: 10 of Books, Ace of Bugs, Dandelion, The Mystic, The Castle

Pile 1, I see many spirits reaching out to you. The most prominent spirits are house ghosts. I get the feeling you might live in an old apartment building or in a flat that has existed for a very long time. The ghosts are not malevolent at all. They just see stuff you don't see in yourself that they want to tell you about. They are sorta telling me that you are going through a rough time. Everything feels up in the air and nothing feels solid. There isn't anything to ground you in reality and they notice that. They worry for you. You take care of their old home so i think they see a kinship with you. They want to help you ground but their attempts have probably made you feel more crazy than anything.

I can also sense a spirit that reminds me of Lady Saraswati or Lady Psyche. She is definitely a divine feminine that sees you going through intense change. She wants to lend her hand to you. So you may have a guiding spirit to lead you through the dark. She tells me to tell you that change isn't bad. Maybe it seems like this disruption is recent but she tells me it has been for much longer. The ungrounded feeling was there before this massive change and now you are in the thick of the consequences. Lean on this goddess to take care of you in this trying time. She wants you to come out of this stronger than you were before and with more clarity on who you are/where you are going.

This last spirit is difficult for me to pin down. I sense them but they don't really have a title or a name. They come off as a nature spirit. Could be gnomes. Could be a mountain spirit. Could be a grass fey. I think they just want me to make you aware of them so you can seek them out for help if you so choose. They don't feel malevolent but the do feel playful and trickster-like.

PILE TWO

Astrology: Sagittarius, Gemini, Virgo, Pisces

Song: Iconic By Mistake by KATSEYE

Vibes: Snapdragons, violets, 555, 444, netflix binge, party, solo cups, full moon, werewolves, novels, writing, coffee shops, high energy, mania, solar plexus

Cards: King of Beakers, The Moon, Turquoise, The Village, The Shapeshifter

Pile 2, the main spirits reaching out to you are ancestors. They are begging for you to come home to your roots. I get the feeling you are spiritual person but you lean on a spirituality that you were pressured into following. It doesn't really suit you. Maybe you already know that and have been trying to deconstruct your previous views to rebuild them in a way that makes more sense. Expand your horizons by returning to your roots. If you don't know your roots exactly, its okay to feel it out. I am very confident that the ancestors who want your attention are paternal ancestors. For too long, you have changes yourself to fit the ideals of others who dont have your best interest at heart. You might have some indigenous roots you were unaware of. Explore and learn everything you can. Stop changing yourself to be digestible. Sing your song as loud as you possible can. Ignore the people pressuring you to follow their spirituality. March to the beat of your own drum.

Your ancestor is telling me that you have a lot in common with them. You are a creative! You see things in ways that others can't. And you care about your loved ones so so so much. Honestly, you probably care for them way more than they care for you. This ancestor tells me you deserve more than you are given. He wants to give you anything you ask for. Just visualize it and it's yours for as long as you want it.

PILE THREE

Astrology: Aquarius, Libra, Gemini, Taurus

Song: XO by ENHYPEN

Vibes: Cactus, aloe vera, succulent, desert, 606, 1234, 7, nerdy stuff, renfaire, carnelian, agate, fluorite, bone, hot weather, spice, ice cream, popsicles, sharp objects, alternative fashion, throat, wooden items, coy fish, tiger

Cards: 5 of Beakers, Knight of Lily Pads, Lavender, Gnosis, The Empty Room

Pile 3, the spirit reaching out to you is already known by you. You know exactly who it is. I could be wrong because i don't know anything about some eastern mythology but i think it is Hu Ye or Lord Ares or some kind of powerful divine masculine. They are protective of you and have guided you for your entire life. You thought he left you. That he wouldn't stick around just because they had to say goodbye for a while. You are never alone, pile 3. This spirit has always looked after you. Especially when you felt like you failed or you hadn't done your best. He works as hard as he can to make sure your momentum never slows for too long. You know you are meant for more than where you are at the moment. He knows that too. He wants you to know he has your back every step of the way even when you get disappointed or discouraged. He will take you to victory. This spirit wants to see you succeed more than you do. And i think the best thing about this spirit is that he is casual with you. The respect between you is so strong and the relationship you built with him over such a long period of time is so sturdy you could literally talk to him however you like. Some spirits are particular about how you speak to them but he genuinely doesn't give a fuck how you speak to him. You could tell him "fuck off and never come back" and he will still always be there for you if you ask for him. He loves you so so much. You are his pride and joy. Trust this spirit with your everything, pile 3.

I also feel another spirit. The previous spirit is very intense so this one was difficult for me to detect but I believe it could be Lord Horus. Look to the skies. If you see birds high in the sky. He is looking after you. Making sure you always have the protection of the eye of horus.

PILE FOUR

Astrology: Capricorn, Cancer, Aries, Libra

Song: Sheperd by Plainride

Vibes: Morning glory's, honey suckle, hibiscus, 555, 777, 111, 19, labor, vegetables, fruits, freshly cut grass, nature, flowing river, strong values, kisses goodbye, opinionated energy, heart

Cards: Knowledge, Page of Shrooms, Lady's Mantle, The Vow, The Healer

Pile 4, there are many spirits who want your attention but one rises above them all. Lord Apollo is seeking an audience with you. If you are not helpol then any spirit of healing in the spirituality you follow will also resonate.

Pile 4, you have been through so many struggles. You have faced demons by yourself and battled in the dark. I think you have faced this pain ever since you were little. You were so young. The people who were supposed to have your back may have been part of why you faced such hard times. It is time to find a safe place to stay for a while so you may heal. Healing can't happen in a place of abuse. You are strong and fortitude will always be in your wheel house but know you don't have to do it alone anymore. Your healing will be overseen by this spirit to get you ready for the next steps of your life. There is a long beautiful road ahead of you without all the thorns and burs you encountered so far. Take a deep breath. And except this promise from this spirit. "I promise there is more to life than pain. I promise I will carry you to the safer, greener pasture so you may be at peace and do what you love." You are no longer tied down by victimhood. You are in charge of where your life goes. Where ever you may travel. This spirit will make sure you are protected and you are safe. You are safe. You are finally safe. The trick is that you must choose to take this spirits advice on your own. Remember you have free will. It is easy to choose what is familiar when you are healing. Be careful, pile 4.

PILE 1

Astrology: Aries, Capricorn, Gemini

Song: Queensway by Coral Bones

Vibes: Lady Hekate, Lord Hypnos, gold obsidian, peonies, strawberries, flame, passionfruit, chocolate, wine, girl talk, 8910, divinity, 333, counting sheep, waiting in line

Cards: The Empress, 10 of Shrooms, 9 of Wands, 8 of Wands, Fog

Pile one, someone in your life has deep feelings for you. They want to tell you so bad. They seem like the kind of person who rushes into things without thinking sometimes but i think this time something is keeping them bound to secrecy. They adore you so much. They think you are sweet and sexy. They want to see your clothes on the floor but they'll just have to wait. You both aren't ready for something serious. Even though you both want something more serious with each other. There is too much healing to do. There are so many mixed emotions running around this connection. This feels like you have had some spicy encounters before. If you haven't, their fantasies are so intense that they almost feel real to this person. You two are close but there is some anxiety around relationships. You probably watched them go through a giant break up. Maybe you where their while they cried about their former love. They haven't had a serious relationship in a long long time after that. (i suspect it's cus they want to save themself for you) They don't know how to even start because if they were to do what they wanted to do they might come on very strong. I see bouquets of roses so massive they barely fit in the car on the way to your place. Their fantasies turn to dreams and the dreams turn to delusion. They want you so bad it hurts, pile one. Just give it some time. You both need the time to figure out your feelings and make a game plan. I have a feeling that they will not know how to be patient and will eventually rush in. Just know they have a good heart. They have been hurt though so if they do rush in and make a mistake. Be patient with them and with yourself. Love takes time, communication and a calm mind. If you want to be with them it will certainly be a hot as fuck connection. Good luck pile one.

PILE 2

Astrology: Taurus, Sagittarius, Leo

Song: the angel on 8th ave. by Gang of Youths

Vibes: Lord Zeus, Lady Artemis, kiwi jasper, fishing, salamander, creek, beach, arguments/fighting, hurt feelings, broke hearts, graves, courage, content, strength, 5555, 2222

Cards: King of Shrooms, 5 of Lily Pads, 7 of Wands, Lovers, Against Nature

Pile two, this feels like a familial connection. A father figure who regrets treating you the way he did. He didn't know he could lose you but now you are gone. You have taken off on your own he sees exactly what he lost. He sees that it's all his fault. He doesn't know how to be there for you but he wants so badly to be there. He has misses so many milestones after so many arguments. He wants to apologize but he can't get over himself or his pride. He doesn't think you would forgive him even if he did apologize. You had every right to leave. His aggression was never serious but it looked so serious from the outside. He never wanted to hurt you but he broke your heart over and over and over till there was nothing left of your heart. He made you feel like you weren't good enough when you were just being yourself. When you were just trying your best.

I see a partner of yours defended you and he decided they weren't good for you even though it was him who wasn't good for you. He regrets so much he has said to you. He believes he is unforgivable. The thing is.... If he did apologize I think it would completely change the dynamic. You would forgive him because his apology is 100% sincere. He knows he messed up. He knows your hate for him was justified. He wants so badly to change. He thinks he is broken and unfixable. If he could just get over his self-pity then he would have you close again. Cus you love your dad. How could you not? He's your dad. You can't reach out yet though. He needs time to get the courage. He will say sorry soon. Just give him time. Just know he loves you more than anything. You are his pride and joy. Without you he has no joy. Your smile lights up his life in ways he couldn't even describe. He cares so much. He is just flawed. Like every human, he is flawed. Good Luck pile 2.

PILE 3

Astrology: Cancer, Pisces, Scorpio

Song: Jukebox by Kid Quill

Vibes: Lord Poseidon, Lord Eros, orange calcite, rebellion, 44, 4444, 515, dreams come true, rainbow, balance, hard work, money problems, chains, tattoos, pain, lotus flower

Cards: 4 of Lily Pads, 4 of Bugs, The Hierophant, The Devil, Uranus

Pile three, this person feels like a mentor or a friend? I think this person wants to keep their identity hidden cus they want to tell you things out of anger. Please don't take these comments to heart by the way. This is all opinions they hold out of pain. It says more about them, than it does about you. They are telling me they want you to get your shit together. They think you don't care about the "important stuff" when you are just a whimsical person. You lock in when needed but when it isn't necessary you love to have fun and live life to the fullest. They don't see your whimsy as useful so it seems unnecessary to them.

They like to follow the "rules" and you don't but honestly i think their rules are self inflicted and will make their life miserable. They want to tell you to focus on the things they deem important. This person is extremely two-faced. You know this already. I think you are fully aware of what they want to tell you actually. You're type B and they're type A. They have NOOO idea how successful you will be because you don't do things the way they do them. They do things just like their father did it. And i have a feeling their father is the most boring/unsuccessful person on earth. You are a rebel, pile three. Just understand that their opinions don't mean shit.

This persons ideals have gotten them into so much trouble that they refuse to take accountability for. Money issues, lost relationships, lost friendships, lost identity was all caused by them but they seem to blame you for some reason. (i dont believe they are in your life anymore) The way you live isn't wrong the way they think. Even if this person believes it is, they are acting out as a way to express the pain they are in. They are chained to tradition while you are freed by rebellion. I have a feeling you are probably queer or autistic or something and this person isn't so they can't see your genius until it'll be way too late. You will be basking in the light of the sun while they stay inside. Good luck pile 3, not like you need it. I see wonderful things in your future.

PILE 4

Astrology: Aquarius, Libra, Virgo

Song: your text by sundial

Vibes: Lady Hera, Lady Aphrodite, rose quartz, crane, birds, dragon, poetry, cats meow, soliloquy, creativity, art, drawing, day job, 333

Cards: 9 of Shrooms, 3 of Lily Pads, Knight of Swords, The Emperor, Spark of Light

Pile four, the person this message is from is a very close friend. You inspire them. You put a fire under their ass in the best way. They want to tell you but i think they are embarrassed about it because it is so much more intense admiration than you believe. You push them to do things they want to do. You push them to do things that are out of their comfort zone. You are literally the coolest person they know and you get stuff done so fast. You spark their flame of passion and keep them lively and young.

I think they really want to dance or draw. You always tell them to keep at it and skill comes from persistence not talent. You are their closest friend by the way which i have a feeling is news to you. Because of how inspiring you are and kind you are to them as a beginner. You are such an uplifting soul with a heart of gold. They really want to be just like you in every way. Maybe they put you up on a pedestal a little to high for you but they really look up to you and want what is best for you.

You should engage in some of their hobbies too! It motivates them so much. Maybe learn something from them too. They might know stuff you don't know about stuff you want to learn. Showing them you are just as clueless as them about stuff might help inspire them more. You being just like them will help them see you for who you really are. Good luck pile 4! And good luck to your friend :3

PILE ONE

Astrology: Gemini, Libra, Aquarius

Song: Blue Ridge Mountain by Fleet Foxes

Vibes: Air, gold, green, Lady Gaia, golden hour, seeing the moon during the day, astral traveling, dragons, archeology, research, coffee, travel

Cards: "Be of Service", The Tower, 8 of Cups, 5 of Wands Reversed

Pile one, the mask you wore has been torn away from your face. You are seen for what you truly are. And despite your fear revolving what everyone might think of your truest self, it has seemed to cleared up some major conflicts. Changed the tides for you in the connections you hold in the best way. You are a good person. You do your absolute best to serve the earth and the people around you. You have it in your head that there is something inside you that is unlovable or un-healable. That's wrong. Walk away from idea that you're unworthy or that you must earn your worth. There is a wound that keeps you from authenticity. What someone said or something they did, that made you feel like you as a whole were not to be loved. They were wrong.

Humans are wrong all the time. It's in our nature to make mistakes. This person's mistake was making you feel like you were unlovable. Your mistake of believing them even though you know their opinion isn't worth shit. See outside the scope of this person to reveal the true of yourself to you. Look with your own eyes what actions you take daily. You are not what you think you are. Your vision is blurred by the results of a connection in your past. Take a deep breath. Relinquish your worries of the past coming to haunt you to the winds. Reliquish control of how you are seen by the world. The breeze will surely carry you to better ones now. You have changed so much since back then. Your service to the world is acknowledged and you WILL be rewarded soon. Just be patient with yourself. And kind to the world like you have been doing.

Thank you for reading with me. Lord Apollo supports your journey.

PILE TWO

Astrology: Aries, Leo, Sagittarius

Song: Jumpstart by Noah Floersch

Vibes: Fire, eclipse, light, biology, critical thinking, binary code, DNA, infinity, self care, family, 222, cats, abandonment, evergreen forest, learning, dinosaur

Cards: "Trust in Science", 4 of Pentacles, 2 of Pentacles, 9 of Wands Reversed

Pile two, you are the kind of person to always knows what to do. You are adaptable, determined and bold. If there is a problem, then there has to be a solution. That's your mentality with most things in life. You are currently being faced with a problem you are not used too. An emotional problem. I get the feeling that kind of problem is like your nemesis. You are being given two paths to go on during the process of the solution.

You can choose the path you have always chosen. The logical approach. Logic is an ideal you cling too a lot. Although it is not wrong to use logic frequently. It is usually healthy to have a balanced way of living. And i think you might use logic so much because thats how you were taught to live. I dont know if you realize how many problems have really come from always choosing the logical path. The cards suggest you really look hard at what logic has given you and what it cannot give you.

The second path is the emotional approach. Listen to people and be sensitive. Be curious but gentle. Be cautious about what you say and how you say it. We are all emotional creatures and deserve grace and care during our vulnerable moments, you included. You are allowed to be vulnerable and so is everyone else, it is up to us to leave space for people to be vulnerable. We all need moments of full trust to remain sane. Use your critical thinking to see that there is no "One Tool" for everything. Different tools are needed for different jobs. You can handle this problem pile two, you just need the right tools.

Thank you for reading with me. Lord Apollo supports your journey.

PILE THREE

Astrology: Cancer, Scorpio, Pisces

Song: Spring and a Storm by Tally Hall

Vibes: Water, repeating cycles, wishes, dancing, arachnids, prophetic dreams, sigils, eye of Horus, Nile River, river spirits, unrequited love, creation, artist

Cards: "Weave Your Reality", The Star, 3 of Cups, 2 of Cups Reversed

Pile three, I think you might be in love? But you are waiting for something. Wishing for something to happen with them. For you to get closer naturally in a really romantic way. However I see that wish can't come true without you taking some initiative in this connection. Lets just say the person you are into is as dense as a rock. They are smart though so you keep thinking theyll get it but they just never will unless you make a move. Im encouraging you to make the move. Once they actually know you are into them they'll start taking charge in the ways you have dreamed of. They probably see your little clues you have been leaving as just you being friendly. They definitely think you are WAY out of their league. Maybe they want to be friendly back but might think they are being super creepy if they initiate something more than platonic with you. Be open about how you feel and your wish for romance and affection could come true.

Thank you for reading with me. Lord Apollo supports your journey.

PILE FOUR

Astrology: Taurus, Virgo, Capricorn

Song: Calypso by Sail North

Vibes: Earth, long journey, change, mountains, magic circles, yellow, light green, yellow flowers, dogs, doors, doorhandles, racing, old cars

Cards: "Illusionary Obstacles", 6 of Wands, 8 of Wands, Knight of Pentacles Reversed

Pile four, why do you think a power house like you is stoppable? Like isn't the protocol to just go around if something gets in your way? Didn't you make rule? Anything in your way now just needs patience and adversity. Which you have both in abundance. Don't give up while the finish line is so close! Don't let a bump in the road stop you after you have already come so far. You are a success and you will have so many more success in the future. Any failures you face are learning opportunities that teach you how to handle that situation better next time. I know it is easy to get into a self doubt headspace but you will get by on determination alone. Never forget you can handle anything. You create the world you live in and you are doing a great job. Please don't doubt your capabilities.

Thank you for reading with me. Lord Apollo supports your journey.

PILE ONE

Astrology: Capricorn, Gemini, Cancer

Song: Achilles Come Down by Gang of Youths

Vibes: 22, peacock, blues, greens, arcane, throat chakra, rose quartz, femininity, trust issues, wild flowers, cows, Lady Hera, vampires, courtship, royalty, crown chakra, puss in boots, frieren, fire spirits

Cards: Ace of Wands x2, Apprentice of Cups, Garden

Pile one, it is so crazy I pulled from two different tarot decks but drew the ace of wands twice for your pile. Your guides have always aimed you towards success and passion even if you didn't know it was them effecting little things here and there to make it take place. They love you so deeply. They love you the way a dedicated mother loves her children. They are your guardians in every sense of the word. They have and will continue to protect you with all of their power. Even when things look impossible or the future is unclear just know if you ask they are always willing to bring you opportunities whenever and where ever. Please just ask. I feel that they probably wont do things FOR you but they will clear a pathway for you to travel down.

I am seeing that they do still give you lessons. Lessons that are not always easy but if you fall mid-lesson or make a mistake, be sure they will send you a gift or a sign as a pick-me-up. You just have to look and listen for it. Instead of getting caught up in the roadblocks.

If you are wondering what other things you can look for to recognize your guides. Please look to the greenery around you. You will find their essence when you take a second to smell the roses. You will see them in the weeds growing through sidewalks. You will feel them when the breeze hits your skin and rustle the trees. The symbolism they want to show you in these images is that you will grow no matter what. That the winds of change will carve out a road for you. They will make sure of it. They will shepherd you to where you need to be, no worries. They love you.

thank you again for reading with me :D

PILE TWO

Astrology: Leo, Sagittarius, Libra

Song: This Could Be A Dream by AURORA or Cheshire Kitten by SJ Tucker

Vibes: Horses, dogs, leopard gecko, lizards, water lilies, celestite, carnelian, amethyst, thistle, sleep, audio books, audio processing issues, howls moving castle, love, witchcraft, 33, Gaia, earth spirits

Cards: Elder of Wands, 5 of Wands, Knight of Wands, Moon

Hi, pile two. Your guides have so much fire and passion for you. Im getting conflicting messages for this one so please take what resonates and leave the rest. Your guides are in your ear almost 24/7 but you have MANY different guides due to your natural inclination to be good to everything and everyone. However the mass amount of spirits that follow you get loud and have conflicting ideals and plans for you. It is difficult for them to all speak to you at once. They are almost competing for your affection. Your guides give the vibe of like an adoring fanbase. Pile two, your energy must be genuinely intoxicating. The perfect balance of masculine and feminine. A Rebis by nature. Your guides have one thing in common though. They know you will be truly successful one day. You will shine like the sun with such abundance that you will make the stars jealous. Maybe sooner than you think. When you want conformation from your spirits it would suit you best to look inwards to listen carefully. When you are wondering about your guides you will feel them in the fires of passion or see them in the animals around you. When you feel so certain and determined that something will be yours. When you are having blissful fun or laughing so hard your sides hurt. That in itself is your guides instilling their confidence in your abilities. If you are struggling with self doubt or anger that means your guides are being blocked by outside forces. Cleanse your energy with smoke, crystals or celestial light. Sit out in the sunlight or moonlight. Be still for just a moment and listen. Reality can get very overwhelming and it can distract us from our goals and our dreams. Pile 2 your guides want you to know that your dreams will come true. Never stop chasing them. It is okay to take breaks to refocus or re-cooperate but never ever give up. They are all rooting for you with all their souls.

thank you again for reading with me :D

PILE THREE

Astrology: Virgo, Pisces, Aquarius

Song: Once Upon a December by Liz Callaway or What I Want by Gregor McMurray

Vibes: Gold, diamonds, butterflies, snow, cold weather, ice, bears, angel wings, lullaby, ballet, insomnia, hummingbirds, memory, family, death, desire, delusion, 1212, low vibrations, hail mary, maiden mary, water spirits

Cards: 2 of Swords, 7 of Pentacles, Ace of Cups, Owls

Pile three, your guides feel a bit distance from you but I dont think is because they don't care. They love you. Some of them feel like family members that have passed on. And I think if you really wanted something, you could ask them and they would hand it to you on a silver plater because of the love they feel for you. Yet, you refuse. There is some kind of pride in the way of you taking the offers they keep giving you. You want to succed all on your own? Or you are paralyzed by indecision. Either way your guides are so proud of you. You have made much progress on your own and they got to watch you succeed all on your own. But it hurts them to watch you fall and then refuse a miracle. You would rather choose the white dangerous waters than the still calm waters everyday if it meant you didnt ask for or accept help from the spirits AND people around you. They aren't asking me to tell you to take their offers. If anything they would prefer you accept their gifts on your own just as you have declined them on your own. Your independence is astonishing. (this is the reader telling you this now: TAKE THE DAMN OFFERS PLEASE. the path would be SOOOO much EASSSIERRR. okay im done) If you are interesting in seeking out your guides i recommend keeping an eye out for gardening tools, checkered patterns, doves, humming birds and flower pots. They do wish to contact you but will wait for you to come to them patiently.

thank you again for reading with me :D

PILE FOUR

Astrology: Aries, Scorpio, Taurus

Song: Blood in the Wine by AURORA

Vibes: Crafting, coffin, tigers, feathers, ink, dogs, full moon, Lady Hekate, white flowers, 44, 1234, heart, lungs, eyes, surgery, hedonism, facing a fear, sailor, uncharted waters, air spirits

Cards: 9 of Cups, Judgement, Magician, Letter

Hello, pile four! You have like 3 or 4 very distinct spirits that guide you. Not because of the lack of candidates though. You are very picky with the advice you like to take from the living AND the non-corporeal. The energy you have picked out feels very structured. You don't like your guidance to be wishy-washy. Your discernment guides you more than the spirits do. If you wish to contact the guides you have approved of then I recommend automatic writing. Let the messages come to you from you. You can trust your own judgement to discern what is important and what is not. After writing, reread the messages at a later time, probably after a good rest. When you reread them, look deeper than the initial words. Analyze it like your in english class and find the hidden meaning underneath. You will start to see what your guides have in store for you. You find what gifts they want to give you and you will rally your resources expertly to complete whatever goal they want to assist you with. You are already the master of your reality, your guides just want to see you bloom again and again. You have everything you need and anything more that is required. All you must do is ask. Wish for what you want. I see you have the spiritual backing and the self discipline/passion to get the support you need to achieve anything you desire.

PILE ONE

Astrology: Aries, Libra, Sagittarius

Song: TrusT by half.alive

Vibes: Science, astronomy, butterfly, moth, humming bird, reading novels, reclaiming, clear blue sky, sunny days, summer, warmth, watermelon, addiction, power dynamics, Lord Hermes, Lady Athena, Lord Ares

Cards: Oracle of Swords, Power, The Eternal Child

Hi, pile one. Your shadow is a result of specific trauma you went through at a young age and a reflection of the person who inflicted that trauma on you. You have taken the image of your abuser and formed it into a shield for yourself when you feel vulnerable. I dunno why but i am hearing the word bastardization. (maybe because your image of this person was skewed due to the power imbalance between you and them. or it could be skewed because you did NOT want to be like your abuser at all.) So just so i don't ruffled too many feathers cus i wont lie pile one, yall seem like an intense bunch. You are not your abuser. You do not hurt anyone the way they hurt you... except yourself. Curating this image you display has made your internal world a bit hellish for you. You have simultaneously liberated your inner child and you also have tied them to the identity of someone who hurt them. I can only imagine how painful that must be. Do not be hard on yourself about this. That will only perpetuate the pain your initial abuser caused you. The reason you sought out to resemble this identity was because the young are impressionable. This person scared you and you thought that was what power looked like. You wanted power for yourself to reclaim what was taken from you. You seek power now because you never want to feel powerless again. All very understandable experiences.

Your inner child appreciates you doing all you can to protect them for as long as you did. But now they are asking for a change in strategy. You no longer have to protect yourself the way you once did. You are smart, intuitive and adaptable so i dont see this adjustment to be difficult for you. Let yourself be vulnerable sometimes. Your inner child needs room and space to play. They need space to do what they enjoy. When you have a day to yourself spend it doing what you weren't allowed to do as a child. Give yourself permission to have some fun that isn't curated as a performance. You deserve a moment of respite even if it's just with yourself. Good luck pile one. You are not the victim you used to be.

thank you for reading with me :3

PILE TWO

Astrology: Taurus, Gemini, Cancer

Song: A Different Kind Of Human by AURORA

Vibes: Robot, third eye, cyberpunk, swan, star gazing, heterochromia, lake, ocean, cloudless skies, moons, satellites, gifts, lost, value, codependent relationships, mirrors, broke glass, Lady Aphrodite, Lady Artemis, Lord Hermes

Cards: The Star, Awareness, The Lover

Hello, pile 2. Your shadow is erratic. I feel your energy struggling to maintain momentum or structure because you keep stopping to look for someone. This someone is no one specific, despite what you might believe. What is truly happening internally is that you are lonely. You don't look inward so well. You keep seeking for a grounded identity in the people around you. And i get the feeling that you and your shadow are a mirror. This is because of the lack of solid identity. Your root chakra clings to your lovers, your friends, your family members and sometimes even your coworkers or acquaintances. It leaves you in a constant state of confusion about what is going on and who you are because who you are changes with who you are around at a higher frequency. Breaking this habit is like wishing upon a star. The likelihood that it will happen easily is especially unlikely. The cards are not asking you to change any of that. In fact there are many benefits to your ability to fully mirror people. However, I think your spirit guides are asking you to have discernment about who is worth mirroring. Deliberately decide who you wish to resemble and why. Right now or at least for a long time previously you mirrored anyone or anything that was in your line of sight. Be observant and analytical before you mirror someone. Watch and wait. Develop your opinion as you observe. When you have decided they are worth learning from. That's when you allow yourself to mirror. This will help you develop a value system which is a great way to begin building an identity. Good luck pile two. And be careful. Some assholes aren't worth mirroring.

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PILE THREE

Astrology: Capricorn, Leo, Aquarius

Song: Im Not Alright by Loud Luxury and Bryce Vine OR Pigs In The Sky by Grabbitz

Vibes: Eagle, doves, ice, snow, harvest, autumn, darkness, transformation, strong, isle, easel, horns, feathers, creatures, cryptids, monsters, rainbows, tattoos, art, painting, fashion, imposter syndrome, death, Lord Hades, Lord Apollo, Lord Zues

Cards: Temperance, Doubt, Thread

Pile three, your shadow is brimming with doubt and self confidence issues. You seek out perfectionism to live up to the expectations of the world. The world around you has never seemed to understand how your mind works or how you work. Every where you go there is someone trying to deconstruct who you are and why but then they make assumptions that are obvious self projections of their shadow onto yours. This is because you are a multifaceted person that expands and changes with your experiences. You give me the vibe that you are always ready to learn and you face criticism with grace and thoughtfulness. So take notes when I tell you this, your shadow really wants everyone to like and love you so so so so much. Some people don't like anything or anyone and all they do is bitch and moan all day about everything. Even if you were absolutely perfect in every way, that bitter miserable person would never be able to see it because their perspective is swayed by their shitty mood. You have probably heard it a million times so im sorry but not everyone is going to love you or like you. Your innate ability to learn and grow makes this even more exaggerated. Let go of the need to be loved or liked. Just be. Go about your day and just be. Let your shadow reveal itself to you through your mistakes. Perfectionism leads to stagnancy. Seek exploration instead, pile three. Good luck.

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PILE FOUR

Astrology: Scorpio, Virgo, Pisces

Song: Glow by Chloe Moriondo

Vibes: Mushrooms, enlightenment, meditation, lobster, jellyfish, roses, deer, obsidian, open minded, pink, orange, sappho, achilles, mythology, immortality, liminal, uncanny, sight, Lady Hera, Lord Dionusys

Cards: The Hanged One, Awakening, Defeat, The Nectar

Pile four, your shadow thinks it is invincible sometimes. This lends you a lot of benefits I think. Your blind confidence makes you magnetic and charming. You have a solid networking skill and the audacity to do shit no one else would even consider because they would be way to scared. However, when you reach a roadblock on one of your adventures of risk, it often shepherds you into a spiral of despair or it has you clinging to the identity of victimhood. The thing is you are extremely self aware of your ups and downs but controlling the ups and downs feels boarder-line impossible. Your shadow doesn't need a collar or a leash my friend. It needs someone to aim it. Consider your shadow a dangerous and powerful weapon that needs regular exercise/usage to remain healthy. Your inherent ability for boldness is a great skill and could take you far but you must be discerning about what you aim it at. And when you feel it begin to control you, find something constructive to keep your laser focus on. Re-contextualize how you see the roadblocks that find you. The universe is here to help guide you. If someone tells you no or a door closes in your face. Consider it a blessing from the universe. Doors close for us because it would be un-constructive to have you learn lessons already learned or lessons you arent ready for. Lean into the flow of things. Balance your velocity with acceptance and I guarantee you will find a way to get what you want even faster.