it hurts to be something,

Like. I’ve always sorta understood that things grow moldy or stale or sour or such if left out, but I never really internalized it in a meaningful way.

But now I’m just like.

Yeah. The hungering dust. There exists omnivorous dust in the air that will eat my food if I don’t.

Those bagels have been sitting there for a week. Are we going to eat them soon or are we leaving them for the hungering dust?

Pizza’s been sitting out on the counter for an hour. Everyone’s enjoying the pizza, but if we don’t want “everyone” to include the hungering dust then we should probably put it away soon.

That’s just. That’s how food works to me now. There exists an invisible predator in the air that hungers for your yummies, and it will not hesitate to eat your food if you don’t make the effort to protect and preserve it. And eat what can’t be preserved before the dust can.

“go bad”, it just gets eaten

by something else first

<333 TY!!! uhh tbh i’m not sure if i have one? im delusional enough to think that as long as time keeps moving and i keep writing that somehow i’ll get to everything i think of Eventually,,, so i’ve never really written off an idea as ‘oh i won’t get to that’. i also just dont know if anything i think about can be considered a specific ‘headcanon’ as opposed to just a general dynamic/au idea, so idk what would count.

i think something i’ve got in the back of my head that i’m sort of doubtful i’ll get the time to work on (at least any time soon, i refuse to write it off completely bcs i think it would be so cool to figure out) is a much much darker/angsty version of the whole jason&damian league brother dynamic and that translating into them being sort of ‘split up’ in gotham. not my usual gig but i think it would be fun even if i’d probably have to dead dove tag it if i ever did somehow manage to get the time to do it.

i just think there’s the potential to create a wildly damaging dynamic where jason’s mental health completely fucking crumbles after coming out of the pit and having to come to terms with all the physical and mental changes in his life to the point where he’s like. barely hanging on without shoving a gun in his mouth every other day. and yet he still pushes himself to be damian’s protector/big brother despite Clearly Being Unstable and falling apart on an almost constant basis, and i think there’s the opportunity for damian to love jason and sort of assign himself the role as jason’s mental health carer, because all they have is each other and he cant stand seeing his brother hurt himself the way jason constantly is. i think it would be horrendously damaging for damian to develop that kind of attachment and sense of care for jason in that state because i can imagine it making him a supremely paranoid and anxious child—constantly worried to take his eyes off jason or to fuck up and miss a sign before jason has some kind of episode, and i think that would get infinitely Worse in gotham because not only are they separated and forced to pretend they don’t know each other so damian cannot attempt to ‘care’ for jason as much, but also because as the new robin he then has to watch as the person he’s most scared to see get hurt proceeds to publicly spiral down a path of self destruction as the red hood while damian’s own new family attempts to take him down.

i think it would be fucking fascinating to look into a world like that because it’s a horrible bond that is objectively neither jason nor damian’s fault—they were both forced together under fucked up circumstances, jason isn’t mentally well enough to physically keep damian away from him to protect him from his own ill mental health, and damian is too young to truly take up any kind of caring role without it impacting his mental health and growth very negatively, and the only people who are aware of the bond (the league) actively encourage that self-destructive co-dependance because it means they’re easier to control and use both as a duo and apart.

i specifically think i would wanna focus with jason on body dysmorphia and potential disordered eating behaviour rooted in his incapability to accept and be ok with the massive changes to his body post lazarus pit (something i’ve seen in fics a few times but i think is sorely under-explored, because that man in a very short period of time went from a malnourished kid wearing a little robin suit feeling all safe, loved and protected by his guardian, to having that same little kid mind but being a massive tank of a person whose entire way of interacting with the world around him is shifted upwards about two feet, and now he’s all big and he has to protect himself because nobody sees him as a child anymore. that shit SO could have fucked him up), as well as just overall mental instability and suicidal ideation/habits,

and with damian i would want to focus on Deep levels of anxiety, not just towards jason but in general, because i think having such an important sibling/guardian figure in his life with such obvious disordered habits as a child Would fuck damian up, and i can imagine him developing intense paranoia around not just jason’s mental issues but the concept of anybody else he cares about having similar habits/signs, even if those signs aren’t because of the potential issues that damian instinctively correlates with jason’s mental instability.

like, i can imagine him getting weirdly obsessive about tim eating better at breakfast and when tim tells him to shove off because he just wants a coffee and a handful of grapes not an entire meal, he spirals into a panic attack because in his mind he’s remembering the months at the league where jason would refuse to eat at all and damian would be forced to watch him waste away, getting weaker and weaker until eventually his heart stops and damian as a child had to watch his protector ruin himself to the point of collapse and having to be put back in the lazarus pit just to get his heart beating again, and in damian’s traumatised mind he sees tim not wanting to eat a proper meal on a random tuesday bcs he’s in a rush as a sign that damian is eventually going to be forced to watch tim destroy himself the same way jason used to. i can imagine him not sleeping and pushing himself to stay awake to the point of passing out because bruce gets stuck on a case and decides to pull a couple late nights working on it, refusing damian’s request that he go rest up. bruce is just trying to grind and solve the case the same way he always has because he’s kinda nocturnal at this point, but damian remembers when jason would get obsessive and angry about things and manically stay up for days on end, and damian would always try to keep an eye on him until he couldn’t keep himself awake any longer and would fall asleep, leaving jason unsupervised. 9 times out of 10 when damian would wake up it would be to find out jason had hurt himself in some way, and damian would think himself responsible, so he thinks if he leaves bruce alone at night to work then something bad will happen, and he just completely ruins his own energy levels trying to keep up.

i can see a fascinatingly tragic dynamic between the two unraveling as jason sets himself up as the red hood in crime alley, because jason’s on his own with nobody to keep him alive for the first time since he was resurrected, and sure he has a reason to stay alive now, he has his mission; but he’s still fucked up in the head and he is not taking care of himself—and his feud with the bats isn’t helping. i can see him getting worse and worse as he realises nobody is going to make him eat, nobody is going to stitch him up, and nobody is going to shove him back in the pit if he goes too far; and i can see him rapidly decaying to the point where he’s hanging by a THREAD, barely trying to live through patrol, not paying attention to any aspect of self care and just overall completely self destructing because the league wasn’t using him anymore and he believes that damian doesn’t need him around anymore because he has the waynes. meanwhile the bats are scrambling trying to keep damian together because he seems 3 seconds away from a panic attack at any given moment and they can’t figure out why—damian still thinks it’s too important to jason for his identity to remain a secret and he’s absolutely terrified that jason losing that anonymity will be the thing that pushes him over the edge. damian’s so focused on how he’s supposed to ‘take care’ of jason while not being with him all the time that he’s not even recognising himself accidentally slipping down his own dangerous path, and it wouldn’t be until one of them does accidentally step over the line and identities are revealed that the forced enmeshment of jason and damian by the league is revealed and the bats start to figure out how badly jason is doing and how badly it’s affected damian over the years, at which point they have to figure out a way to both try and keep the two safe while attempting to delicately untie the emotional barbed wire connecting and destroying the two at the same time.

*foil cracking, chewing noises*

Jason: -no, because B didn't take me in specifically because he wanted me to be Robin. that came after. pass me the sauce, Day. thanks.

Tim: i thought you met him when he was Batman though?

Jason: yeah i met him when he was Batman, but he didn't take me home because he wanted a new Robin, he took me in because i was homeless, i stole his tires, called him a fucktart to his face, and then kneecapped him with a tire-iron.

Dick, observationally: i'm pretty sure he took you in as some sort of version of self harm.

Tim: *snort*

Jason, muffled: mm- 'okes on him though, cause i turned out to be a complete introvert.

Dick: yeah i don't think he expected the violent street kid to love homework so much.

Damian: so how did the transition to being Robin happen? he allowed Grayson to join him to get closure after his parents' death, correct? what led him to allow you to take up the mantle?

*slurping through a straw*

Jason: well, i think his intentions were good when he first decided to take me in, because i asked if i'd be the next Robin and he told me i wasn't being adopted just so he could have a partner, and Robin was out of the question. i was just happy to live in a mansion, so i let it be.

Dick: you let it be? he told me you basically forced him to let you have the mask.

Jason: *laughs* well he would, wouldn't he? he's too embarrassed about how petty he was being.

Tim: what was petty about it?

Jason: *snort* ok, but Dick you can't be an ass about it- it was like a decade ago.

Dick, with anticipatory annoyance: why-? *pause* oh shut up.

Jason: um, *slight snicker* yeah, so, admittedly he did just give me the mantle to slightly piss you off a bit,

Dick, instantly: I FUCKING KNEW IT- OH MY GOD.

*smacking sound, harsh footsteps*

Damian: oh, now he's pacing.

Dick: ALL THESE FUCKIN' YEARS OF 'IT WASN'T PERSONAL, DICK, IT HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH UPSETTING YOU, DICK, IT WAS JASON THAT WANTED IT, DICK-'

Jason: *wheezing* ok- OK but in his defence, i did also want it a lot-!

Dick: YOU SAID YOU'D LET IT GO!

Jason: w- yeah, i did, and then i met you.

*silence*

Dick, abruptly quiet: i was not that bad.

Jason, indignant: YOU- YOU-

Tim, absently: it's like dinner and a show,

Damian: i know right?

Jason: -YOU MET ME FOR THE FIRST TIME, LOOKED ME UP AND DOWN LIKE I WAS ONE OF THE FUCKING PEDOPHILES ON TO CATCH A PREDATOR,

Dick: I WAS NOT- *breaks into a wheeze*

Jason: -PROCEEDED TO TELL BRUCE WITHOUT EVEN ACKNOWLEDGING ME, 'at least when you took me in the people of Gotham could understand it, i was adorable; what the fuck is this thing?'

Dick: *silent wheezing*

Tim: fuck off, were you actually that mean?

Dick: *gasping* i-

Jason: YES HE WAS. anybody in my position would have met that little prick and instantly decided to steal his old job, i refuse to take criticism on the matter!

Damian: and Father went along with that?

Jason: mm- not at first. but then he and B got into an argument where Dick stole Bruce's work laptop because 'he wasn't using it, so it was up for grabs' and i think B just wanted to get back at him by stealing something of his instead.

Dick: -completely unproportionate response, by the way.

Jason: no, but neither was seeing Bruce's calvin klein underwear modelling campaign and instantly creating the Discowing suit to 'show him what it felt like when your family member acts like an attention seeking whore', so you're both as bad as each other.

Tim: *aghast* IS THAT ACTUALLY WHY YOU DID THAT?!?

Dick: i- *breaks into wheezes again*

Damian: you know, considering everybody claims being Robin is so 'magical', the story of its origins and pathway through life sure is covered in a lot of spiteful bullshit.

Sorry if it’s a little cramped- had to make this all fit in ten photos. Hope you guys like it….. and again…. sorry Andrew

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hello!!!! i just got done reading the Percy jackson books and i loved them!! im so happy the show got me into them. i just wanted to draw something with the book description of annabeth <3

Edit!!! since this is getting more traction omg let me talk about what i was thinking. For the design in the back I was kinda tryna go for Athena to her left looking over her shoulder like. Always standing in her mothers shadow her mothers always watching and then I just took inspo the swirls from some Greek vases

edit 2: someone said this was ai on twitter bc the pattern on the shirt and oh boy 🤩 art so good I get my first ai accusation. no I just suck at drawing that dumbass Greek pattern 😭