you can call me ash (or cordate/cordy) || he/him || mid 20s
icon is from here || title & desc from this song || if there's a wrestler you want me to do a photo dive on, send me an ask and i'll see what i can find !
please don't share my writing or art with wrestlers/promotions without permission.
i tag warnings with "#[term] cw". this blog runs mostly on a long, untagged, and oft-shuffled queue. all liveblogging is tagged with "#ashlive" and applicable "#[x] lb" tags. you can find my tag directory here. more info and details on my tag system under the cut !
original posts are tagged #ashtext, things i find and upload are tagged #ashuploads, responses to asks are tagged #askash, my edits are tagged #ashedit, my writing is tagged #ashwrites.
my hockey/baseball blog is @lovethygoalie. rpf/shoot name friendly provided you know how to keep it to fandom spaces only, although for the most part things here will be primarily kayfabe based.
content warnings i tag for:
blood, staplers, choking, light tubes, barbed wire, needles (this includes darts), syringes, skewers, open injury (this includes things that are scabbed over but still pretty gnarly)
racism (and specifics therein, e.g. antiblack racism, antisemitism), misogyny, homophobia, transphobia
i don't tag for alcohol in the general sense but i do tag "intox play" if you're sensitive to that
wrestlers are tagged with "w:[ring name]". i do my best to tag with correct spelling, which means diacritics. if you're filtering someone, make sure to use that spelling or it tumblr might not catch it. separate gimmicks have separate tags.
promotions are tagged with "p:[acronym]" or "p:[name]" if there's no good acronym.
stables/cults/tag teams/etc are tagged with "g:[group name]".
all relationships (feuds/alliances/friendships/whatever those two have going on) are tagged with "r:[name & name]". not always Shippy in nature, but i generally dont care if you rb stuff from me that way.
media type is separated out with "m:[media type]", if you're looking just for art/videos/translations.
pretty things i'd like to see various wrestlers in are tagged #wrestler dresses.
i love native plants, environmental study, and cultural meanings for flowers, so i also have a #plants tag which is. not actually completely about plants but it's fine.
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anyway in my beautiful mind mao finds a way to fuck up so bad that kanon actually stays mad at him for a while and has to figure out how to live with that
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i'm omitting some lines here but this is the exchange i pulled that edit's caption from
MYSTE: Forgive me, forgive me… I ask, I beg, I pray, but it never comes…
[...]
FRAY: Do not seek forgiveness, for it will not ease the burden. It weighs as it should.
[...]
RIELLE: No one likes having to say good-bye. But it's...it's a part of life. That's what makes the time we share together so precious...
You can't obsess over the mistakes of the past, or you'll lose sight of the future. Of the people still with us, who need us more than ever.
[...]
FRAY: Listen to my voice. Listen to our heartbeat. Listen…
I forgive you. I forgive you. I forgive you…
MYSTE: Thank you. That is...that is all I ever wanted...
So...this is it. One last parting. One final farewell...after a fashion. In your darkest hour, in the blackest night...think of me...and I will be with you. Always. For where else could I go? Who else could I love but you?
and then from the journal in our closure (emphasis mine)
“Ah, but they were doomed from the first,” a part of you whispers. “Inevitable deaths on the road to a foregone conclusion,” sayeth the hardened heart, in retrospect. You'd be wrong, of course. It never had to be this way. This world is exactly as we choose to make it.
[...]
Your journey, to be sure, but like I wrote before, I'd like to pretend I was an important part of it. Vanity, aye─but how can I not think of legacy, now, when we've been to the First and witnessed firsthand the lengths to which man will go to be remembered? I want to believe─I need to believe that this was not for nothing. That I changed you for the better, as you changed me...
[...]
Time to go. I don't know when we'll do this again─if we'll ever do this again. The little trick you've learned doesn't count, you know. But even if this is our end, it won't change what we had. I love you more than you'll ever know. Be well.
I don't usually post translations of things that aren't freely available online, but with Desperado's big match in the BOSJ finals coming up (one that I believe he's going to win) I keep thinking of this excerpt from his recent photo book Despelibro. It's from the section where they interview Suzuki about Desperado.
-As you got to know each other, was there anything about him that surprised you, or that changed over time?
Suzuki: When I first met him he was a young wrestler who hadn’t debuted yet, and all he heard from his senpais was “dummy” “idiot” “ugly” “short” “fat” and “talentless.” That’s what he heard from everyone around him. Once when I was grappling with the man who would become Desperado, he yelled out in pain, “GYAAAAA.” All the wrestlers nearby looked over and started howling with laughter at his expense.
Everything he was putting up with at that time was exactly the same as how things had been for me before my own debut. He was just like how I was then. So that’s probably why I began to train with him every day. I had this urge to train him. And every day he would yell, “gyaaa” “gyaaaa”
Every day, day after day, he’d be yelling “gyaaaa” in pain, and each time everyone else would roar with laughter at him.
Almost every single day, for around five years……….
If you look back on it now, and you see what’s happened since then, you understand, right?
People who don’t take action, laugh.
People who take action don’t waste their time laughing.
If you have enough faith in the future, you can build a mountain out of individual grains of sand. If you can do that, you can become a strong person. If you can’t, you’ll just be the kind of person who stands around and watches others and laughs at them……
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