she/her woman/flaneur/sorcerer/eunuch

Hello, world! 🖖

It's lovely to meet you! I'm a 22-year-old trans artist from Buffalo, New York and just one of the billions of Homo sapiens sapiens living on this beautiful green planet we call Earth.

I love to learn, draw, read, write, listen to music and watch films, capture photos, tinker with my computer, go on very long walks, dance, cook, astronomize, play chess and be(come) with my lovely friends—when I am not isolating myself from the world.

There is no need to write down an idea the moment that it comes to you for fear that it will fly away.

If an idea is truly good, I believe it will stick around to remind us of itself until we finally choose to act upon it. Names have power, writing anything down can make it much more real but also robs it of its vitality, its quintessence, its haecceity. To be named is to be defined, to be sterilized, petrified, calcified. Ended.

If you want to catch a butterfly, don't buy a net, build a garden!

I just want to be a woman.

I wish I had been born cis, I love being a girl but I hate being trans, I hate that my body produces testosterone, I hate that I lost my voice, I hate how masculine my face is, I hate having a dick.

I find so, so much joy in the moments when I forget where I came from, when all that I can see are the parts of me that have changed, the parts of me which I adore and that reflect who I've been all along, hidden away inside of my turtle shell, and in those moments I feel so light I could fly. And then I remember everything, and my heart sinks back down into the core of the Earth.

I have so much hate in my heart.

I don't want to give myself injections for the rest of my life and I don't want to go through painful surgeries but I want the alternative even less. I can't live with the alternative.

I am so scared of everything I am going to have to do to myself and go through and risk to just be happy. Or just content, or just okay, or just myself.

And I would rather die than be a man.

"Trans joy," how about trans shut the fuck up?!