the element of suprise

je ne peux meme pas rappeler combien de fois que j’ai imaginé ce qui ce va passer si nous pourrions parler encore une fois. j’ai toujours pensé sur cette nuit d’aout que j’aurais du définitivement oublié. encore, je me trouve en écoutant d’august de taylor swift en pensant que j’aurais du faire différemment pour toi de rester. est-ce que cela va finir bientôt ou je dois attendre le noel pour le figurer? as-tu meme aperçu que je n’était pas la? 

i started using tumblr when i was 11 years old, exactly 10 years ago. after highschool i opened myself a twitter account where i met lots of people who were also in my social circle, these people had almost the same life experience as me. but i know, none of them can be or never be me. but lately i was overwhelmed by the negativity and that emotionless environment. honestly i was sick and tired of everything, everything. i was constantly thinking that i should be the one who’s always the smartest, the funniest, the cultivated. but whenever i’m here, i feel like i can allow myself to feel again, to be me again.