Aaron Black | Artwork

5 things I wish I knew about you: 1. You overthink, and not just when you’re upset. I can ask you a yes or no question and you will go through some sort of insane mental process that drives me crazy before you provide an answer. 2. You’re lost. You’re so lost. And not like the way I get when I look into your ocean eyes, but you’re lost in a way where only you can find yourself once you know what you want in life. I only say this because I’ve tried for many years now to help you get found, but I was only making you more lost by doing so. And for that, I’m sorry. 3. You’re sensitive. And I am too but I’m better at hiding it which is why I know of you. 4. You’re curious and you question the world, with so much dignity and a hidden personality. You strive in foreign land, speaking words amongst those who have ever doubted you. You’re not afraid to go out there, alone. But that’s the thing, you’re never [alone]. 5. You’re a lover. A lover of everything and everyone there is to see. And that is the biggest thing I wish I knew, because I’ve learned that you’ll never be in love with only me, you need more than just a single being. And so these are the things I wish I knew. To the person who will occupy your life next, I pass this on to you. Just know, she loves you a lot, she just has her own way of showing it.

What you were bullied for in school, Is why you’re cherished now as an adult. Children fear differences. Growing up makes you realize those differences are what makes you, well, you. Not everyone can define themselves from other people. It’s easy to blend in and forget you’re a different individual. Very easy. It’s okay if the only person who cherishes your differences is you because isn’t that the only person you have to live with for as long as you live?

It’s okay to love, To fall in love, And be in love, It’s okay to fight, With each other, For each other, For love, It’s okay to cry, And scream, And hate, It’s okay to mess up, It’s okay to hurt, It’s okay to be upset, Love isn’t easy, It’s okay to keep going back, And keep taking them back, It’s okay to tell yourself you’ll never give up, That you’ll always be there for them, When you can’t anymore, It’s okay to walk away, And if you can’t forgive yourself just yet, That my friend, Is also okay, Trust me, In the end, We’ll all be okay,

To fear and want something at the same time is not unusual, in fact it almost always happens.

New Mexico Gothic