CONSTELLATION ☾

you and I, alone’ that’s the dream, that’s my promise so just come back to me. please, I’ve never asked for anything I’ve never prayed before I can’t do this alone. He’s my home. Let him die in my arms the world crumbling down. nothing matters as long he is by my side the world will tremble before my rage, the world will understand the heartbreak of losing your soul. That is what you have cost me after all. I will be buried by his body, our ashes will mingle and our stories will never be separated. He is mine as I am his …

i can’t risk losing you because i know if i lost you i lost my world i will never breath again because you are the only one in life who understand me at my worst. you are the only one who can feel every emotion of my heart and you are the one who can listen to every single thing that my heart wants to say but can’t find words to say. you are the one who can love with me perfectly even with my mood swings whether they are terrible or amazing. i know you will always bere there for me no matter what happens in our life and you are the only on in this whole messeup world who can take care of my heart and my soul. you mean the universe to me and no matter what i write for you, it’s absolutely impossible to explain what i have in my heart for you and how my soul feels connected to you every single moment of my life. you are my best friend, you are my blues buster and you are my one and only soul mate. today even while i am writing this i am falling in love with you all over again and i am falling deeper and deeper in love with you with each passing second. when i say i can’t live without you, i truly mean each word and you have to believe me. you are the air i breathe and i can’t risk losing you at any cost because if i ever lost you there will be not beats in my heart. i love you more than you will ever know... 

i don’t wanna know, who we are without each other, it’s just too hard. i don’t wanna leave, here without you. i don’t wanna lose, part of me. will i recover, that broken piece ? let go and unleash, all the feelings. did we ever see it coming, will we ever let it go ? we are buried in broken dreams. we are knee deep without a plea.  i don’t wanna know what it’s like, to live without you. don’t wanna know the other side, of a world without you. can’t live without you …

i want you. i want to throw you against a wall, wrap your legs around my waist and kiss you. kiss you until we have to stop to catch our breaths. i want you and only you. i want to take you on road trips that lead us to pulling over on the side of the road because we can’t keep our hands off each other. i want you and your flaws. i want your messy makeup from teary eyes as i hold you and talk to you about life. i want the 3am phone calls because you can’t sleep at night. i want to be yours and only yours. i want to taste all your cooking, even if it’s not good, even if it’s experimenting i’d have you cook every meal for the rest of my life. i want you. i want my trembling hands to grab your waist and dance with you in the middle of an empty room. i want to struggle on days when i can’t see you. i want to fight about meaningless stuff that will lead to meaningful sex. i want you. i want your hand to rest on my forearm as we enter a party, so i can reassure you that you are safe with me. i want to sing to you in the shower and have you shut me up with kisses because we both know i’m no singer. i want the ups and downs, the winter and summer days. i want you and only you…

one of the most amazing things that can happen is finding someone who sees everything you are and won’t let you be anything less. they see the potential of you. they see endless possibilities. and through their eyes, you start to see yourself the same way. as someone who matters. as someone who can make a difference in this world.

i know this won’t be easy that the world wants us to break and bruise 
that the stars want us to become a tragedy one that they can claim was always theirs but loving you, darling, that won’t ever change 
because the first moment you said my name my heart no longer belonged to just me and everything is different because you started seeing me so keep your eyes locked on mine and i know i’ll be able to find my way home 
because i don’t remember the when or the way or the how of it 
but you became the key of my soul for show me how i can breath and how i can live. you are the fire in my heart, the fire i need for continue to smile and breath that's exactly you are to me. the best of my heart and if it's continue to beat it's just because i found my half near you and remember that, our story love just come began and has no end.

we fought for this for this story of love and sacrifice to tell a story that is written in the stars but with a fate that doesn’t belong to us because we are crowned with each other’s hand we are build by each other’s heart and we are the broken pieces of our souls knitted together you complete me, darling you are the reason I am standing here, honored beyond my dreams and i love you until the end of time..

(( real family doesn’t come from your blood. it’s the people standing beside you when no one else is. )) » sometimes in life there really are bonds formed that can never be broken. sometimes you really can find that one person who will stand by you no matter what ; maybe you’ll find it in a spouse and celebrate thing, but there is also the chance that the one person you can count on for a lifetime, the one person who knows you, sometimes better than you know yourself, is the same person who’s been standing beside you all along.

when you look me i feel me special as never. you was all my life, you was my ocean, the infinite when no one can say when it's the end. sometimes people say love is over when you lost your love but they're wrong caus until the die you will the one the only man i love and i want. you are my life, my confident, my best friend, but most you are my heartbeat without you i lost my breath. don't forget whatever happens you will always my everything.

He never told me he loved me, but he paid attention. He seemed to hold onto my every word as if my afternoons were Aristotle and my coffee order were Keats. He never told me he loved me, but he was vulnerable. I could read the lines on his skin. Tragedies on his heart, and comedies in his eyes. He never told me he loved me, but his touch created an independent consciousness. A macrocosm consisting only of his arms around my waist, foreheads pressed together. But he never told me he loved me. And I wonder if I was nothing but the last page of the Sunday paper : the ophelia of my own tragedy, a victim of my own fantasies. He never told me he loved me, but I loved him. He was my drug; I didn’t know when to stop. I didn’t know when enough was enough. I craved his attention and the feelings he set off inside of me, and even when I knew he wasn’t just mine, it didn’t stop me. That’s what really broke me. I overdosed on him. My drug.

I need to say this because you deserve this because I can’t lose you. you walked into and found me spiraling and you saved my life with the way you see the best and worst parts of me. you are sharp and strong and the bravest person I’ve ever know and you know how much I hate making choices but somehow choosing you, every single time was easy because you looked at me and I could suddenly breath...

it starts quiet  the burning rage inside us  but darling, don’t hold it in for too long  because don’t you know that we are dangerous that we are conquerors, not the conquered  that we have been barred from the podium before and we never will be again because we’ve had to fight to do things that are as natural as the sunset that are as necessary as water and don’t you know, that makes freedom more precious  don’t you know, all our hearts are barely contained volcanos and it’s restless, this type of desperation, this type of longing it tugs at contentment, like the tide drawing rocks in the sea and it’s ours  these steel spines, these held hands, these broken hearts we can turn them into destruction, we can turn them in constellations we can burn your kingdom down we can rebuild the shattered pieces of the universe and you’ll never be able to take that away because you were the ones who made us impervious to the flame darling, that rage, that hope, those are ours 

dedicass special to tik tok

i don’t want anyone else in the world, because you more than anyone saw the midpoint between who i am and who i could be. you saw my circlet of blood and bone and realized with absolute certainty that you, with your love and faith and power, could help transform it into a crown of starlight. because you raised me up to be more than i thought possible and as beaten as i was, burned and bruised with a dimming brightness the minute i heard your laughter i wanted to bottle that sound and use it as my drink of choice to warm the courage sitting in my soul. because in the dark you shine brighter than the stars and it’s your voice that sends me home, not a compass, not a map. so yes, if i had a choice between you and a god, i’d choose you, always. over, and over. that’s the reason why i can’t tell you this, this thing in my life cause it’s gonna ruin everything. it’s gonna ruin you, us. and i can’t let that happen. because until the constellations are rewritten with our story, we still have more work to do

I always dreamed of finding someone like you but then I woke up and realized that it couldn’t possibly be true but somehow we crashed into each other and I don’t know how I got here your arms wrapped around me, my heart echoing yours but I have never been more thankful or the rightness of the way my hand fits in yours as though my atoms were being drawn to you because in the storm, I found shelter in the fear, I found strength darling, all I needed to be a better me was to find you

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