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This is a confession account made for people who experience consang attraction

The only content not allowed in confessions is expression of a wish to commit non-consensual actions. Talking about intrusive thoughts or fantasies is fine, but if you say you actually want to do something non-consensual or that you have intent to do so, your confession will not be posted. NSFW content is allowed, as well as any fetish you could possibly have. Just nothing about real assault

This blog exists on a side account and I will not be logged in every day. I will try to log in every Friday to post any confessions that have been sent in, but there are no guarantees. I don't have the ideal availability to be running a confession account, but I feel very strongly about this community and want to give people a space to share their feelings anonymously

Feel free to claim an anon name. All anons will have their own tag so anyone can keep track of confessions

🪻 Taken anon names below 🪻

I… struggle a lot with grooming fantasies. Which feels extra fucked up because I’m a trans woman and already constantly accused of this anyway! But I just can’t help but wish my own mother had groomed me. I knew I wanted to look like her, but never said a word of it. I was worried she’d be angry with me, or dismissive, or something. But I wish she’d seen the way I admired her and… asked me if that was what I wanted. Having that offer, that reassurance, I think it would have cracked my egg and I would never have had to live through… this. I wish that she’d seen my eagerness and found it inspiring… and alluring. I wanted her to want me too.

I’m single in my 20s with no kids now, and I still lie awake at night wishing she and I had become “closer.”

I should probably talk to a therapist about this but that idea terrifies me…

Sorry if this is a lot!

This is not especially heavy for this blog, just so you know ❤️

I'm certainly not of the perspective that one ought seek a therapist simply because one fantasizes about a thing, even fantasizes about a desired past that didn't happen. I am absolutely in favor of people seeking a therapist when they have thoughts and feelings that leave them in distress.

In most jurisdictions, therapists have to maintain confidentiality unless there is immanent danger, or they are concerned that harm or neglect may be happening to an elder or child. They're generally quite happy to discuss confidentiality and the limits of it in their jurisdiction. If you want to talk about this with someone, a therapist isn't a bad idea. Even so, I say find a therapist who is openly a leftist; leftists the to be more circumspect in the notes they keep. There's no reason to believe anyone will get access to the notes, but it can be extra peace of mind.

I do want to say that your fantasies are not uncommon ❤️ and I'm going to say that they aren't even fucked up in any particular way, in my opinion. Not because of what they are, not because you're trans.

(Sorry if this doesn't make sense half asleep while writing it just kinda pissed that so alot consangs I find are often anti-para)

-💥🧠

Is it less fulfilling for you if the other person thinks it's kink/roleplay for you? It isn't for me, but everyone is different.

I like spending time with him, even if it's only in a sibling context. I'm learning to be okay with the fact that we'll probably never have anything romantic between us. Still, I'm allowed to giggle and kick my feet in my room while I construct an imaginary scenario where he develops a crush on me after we get all cute and affectionate watching a movie together and his only outlet is to vaguepost in his social media status. I trust myself to fantasize a little, even when I'm trying to be more realistic.

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Gosh, I feel you 🪻🎭

Damn 🔥

I wish people could casually kiss/make out with family members without being seen as weird for it (I mean this both as a consang thing AND as a platonic thing). Like, I’ve cuddled up and kissed my sister (sometimes with tongue) on numerous occasions, and we have no intention of taking things further. Is it even incest if we’re not romantically or sexually involved?

Fuckin. Mood.

Hes also been really protective over me for my whole life, saying he'll kill whoever hurts me in really graphic ways lol. Which i guess runs in the family (im obsessive as hell, always have been) but for me its usually reserved for people i LIKE idfk i feel crazy help

We'll be here as you process through this more!

This is me again for an update, id like to claim the 🫀 emoji pls because Ill be fessing here more than once like I originally thought

So… Ive been talking to him now. For the first time in 2+ years. And so far its been helpful, but confusing. It helps me to see him, the real him and not the fictionalized version of him in my head. But the fantasies and attraction is definitely not gone. Its a fear of mine that Ill somehow say or do something wrong and he’ll be able to see what I feel about him and be disgusted with me.

But in the meantime, I was looking over this post. People change a lot in a few years. Although I doubt his core beliefs/issues have changed very much, he’s been very sweet and supportive of me so far. I dont know where this new relationship with him will go, but I hope it remains healthy as this is like a fresh start for us with my adult life.

As someone who rebuilt a relationship with my own deadbeat dad after he made some serious self-changes, my hopes are with you. It sucks to have family that won't do that, and, yeah. Fingers crossed he's legit ^_^

I consider myself heterosexual, with one exception: my cousin. I used to play games with him, and would pretend to be his wife in them somwtimes. We slept in eachothers beds at any opportunity and talked all night. When we got a bit older (early to mid teens) he started making flirty jokes and kept trying to find *weird* ways to be physical, but its stopped at this point (late teens, early 20s). Mostly cause he's an ass at times now, so I wont hang with him alone anymore, and he has a girlfriend that he's really wrapped up in.

But I'll admit. Occasionally I wonder what could have happened there. If I should have shut it down, if I should have had an open conversation, what would have happened if things went further.

Idk. Maybe I'm thinking about it again cause of what I found out about my family.

-🟡❌️🐓

Have you read Lords and Ladies by Terry Pratchett? I think there's something in there for you ♥️

That sucks about your cousin being an ass now v_v

Setting aside more distant relations. My mom and dad are cousins. I've had plenty of family members on the side of my mom's family that dad *isn't* related to confess they are the products of incest (thank you cult for isolating my family that much [sarcasm]). And theres a implication, but not stated, that my dad's side *also* has this.

Idk. I'm kinda just processing it. Almost all of this was consensual, if mildly pressured by isolation/religious beliefs. There's some medical implications in it for me, but my parents weren't aware they were cousins until they got married, so I don't really fault them for my health, because they *love* eachother and take care of me.

I think theres a lot more to be said about incest/consang than the general public will allow, particularly on things about how being poor/disadvantaged/etc could set you up in situations like my parents and relatives where they didn't know, or where they didnt have much other options; especially options that you would be treated well by your spouse.

But unfortunately, those can't be said much, cause even admitting I'm the product of incest would mean hell for me and my family socially. Heck, I can barely talk about it *to* my family, because its so taboo.

(May return, so, claiming 🟡❌️🐓)

Like. If it was just one-off cousins, the odds would be that any congenital stuff that came up wouldn't be necessarily a result of the cousins thing, but with your family being the Hapsburgs that's a bit different and I'm so sorry.

I'm mostly gonna leave off of my "cousins becoming covered by the incest taboo in the anglosphere over the past 40 years is a perfect case study in how the anti consanguinity social norm is socially constructed, the eugenics of it be damned" drum (as in, that's all I'm gonna say about it) since you are someone impacted I'm a few different directions by functionally enforced consanguinity, but you're absolutely right that the extent of the taboo's hush-hushification means it's impossible to discuss all of the problematic parts of the taboo in "polite company" without. Like. A city's worth of scaffolding. And even then.

I desperately want my twin (adult) daughters to help me re-induce lactation. I masturbate about them anytime I’m alone for more than a few minutes. They’re both very physically affectionate (with me and each other) and I read one too many happy consang posts and now it’s all I can think about. I’m so embarrassed, I feel like the worst mother ever.

Should I confess to them? Or is it safer (for all three of us) if I just bottle it up forever?

I mean. "Safer"? I mean knowing nearly nothing about your situation, the odds are generally against us. That isn't me saying "don't do it" or "do it", that's above my pay grade. r/incestisntwrong is a really good place to talk this through and get better feedback from a broader, dedicated, invested audience, and i imagine that they could give you much better advice on what to do and how to do it ♥️

I'm still so new to feeling any of these things and I've been in a lot of fetish circles here on tumblr to get it out of my system but I had a weird dream about my little brother who means everything to me and I woke up feeling so sick and disgusting so now I just don't even know what to do, at this point sexting with people and browsing through tags and fics on ao3 just feels like rubbing the same bruise just to feel the sensation of it. (I also have no fucking idea how to approach this with my therapist but that's a whole other problem)

I can't tell if I need to ignore my shame or listen to it anymore, but I really just want my mom - ✨🦌✨

That sounds like a hell of a struggle ♥️

a few of years ago i thought it briefly and gushed about his cuteness in a discord server and then got banned but i also complained about hating that server in the server at around the same time so im not totally sure why i was banned hehe :P

(the discord server was about proship darkship so i assumed talking about it would be okay since i wasnt going to actually do anything considered wrong)

(but since then ive learned many proshippers are weird inconsistent about "liking stuff in fiction since it doesnt do any real life harm is okay but 'harmful paraphilias' just having the feelings and not doing anything real life harm is really bad"??)

earlier than that incident, he did something weird to me that im not sure if it was innocent sexual experimentation without realising enough to know the concepts of incest or consent were relevant, or totally not knowing it could have sexual meaning copying the act for another reason, but i dont think about it much.

i mostly hope he doesnt remember that now and feel weird and embarrassed realising he did something thats often considered sexual to his sibling wondering if i remember and judge him.

and i think ive always just felt mild romantic/sexual type feelings for some relatives same as normal amount for friends who i wanna stay friends with not date, not having a big block of "family=always 100% only platonic".

(and i dont know if i believe in this "'friendship'/'dating' two clear separate categories to put relationship in one or the other" thing, or maybe im aplatonic or aromantic)

but back to how he is cute his hair is shiny he has glasses he has some similar interests to me he has acne he idk i cant put into words i guess i just am feeling affection irrational hes kind of a normal person but hes my brother.

i laid on top of him today it was comfy and fun but i noticed i was noticing certain things a weird amount that might mean sexual attraction and i assume hes normal prejudiced against consang and whole family might hate me if i accidentally made it look like i had feelings for him actually idk if its just my ocd lol

a few weeks ago i was getting definitely ocd about worrying about liking my mother. and we did accidental tongue to tongue touch when i was a small child and i wanted to do it again (she said no) and i think now im just still at "horny teenager" phase (when does that normally stop?) and attracted to anyone. and it doesnt really matter its chill, but still i think hating incest matters a lot to other people and i dont know how expressing emotions works what if i accidentally flirt with a relative or something. i cant argue with that irrational fear cause it totally could happen maybe kinda realistic a bit

and at the same time i am dating my fictional character cousin and headmate sister and thats a whole other story in another world but maybe they super clearly influence each other if you look at it from an outside perspective i cant have :3

waoaoa thats pretty long post

Thank you for sharing this confession of yours ♥️

I don't know that there is any "normal" end to the horny teenager phase. I've been in it for a few decades now, and i know others who were on the other side of it by like 17. So, uh, best luck?

I've been thinking and this is what I've come to so far. My dad irl has done things I'm still processing to this day and I crave these sort of abusive relationships (I don't want to say abuse, but what he's it's definitely a degree of abuse) because I feel loved this way paternally. I use K to project these unhealthy feelings without anyone being hurt. Not saying that consang is inherently unhealthy of course. But I have these thoughts about K and I want him to abuse me like my dad used to and still does.

I feel so disgusting and like I deserved what he did. I'm definitely still lesbian as I don't feel attracted to men except K of course. But the attraction to K I feel is so unhealthy and borderline abusive that I don't feel like it deserves to be labeled as real attraction. If myy dad never did those things to me then I wouldn't be so messed up as I am. Again not saying that being consang is bad. But he did and now I feel attracted to K to cope with what he did.

I know what I feel towards K is wrong but I can't stop and I don't know who to speak to without being judged as consang is still widely unaccepted. If I do experience consang I at least want it to be healthy. Sorry if this was long.

So, i try not to advise on a lot, cause like. What do i know?

But like. In most jurisdictions therapists have strict confidentiality requirements, and any client-focused therapist should withhold judgement. I think given your level of self-disgust and self-judgement, it could be worth talking to a therapist about this. Specifically about the self-disgust and self-judgement about it, and how to navigate that. With a good therapist, you should even be able to skirt around uncomfy to discuss details while still addressing the issue.

Anyway, whether you are able to use that feedback or not, i hope you can find ease in this ♥️

I'm a yumeshipper and I familial yumeship. We'll call this one K. I see K as my fictional dad and I do believe that if he was a real person we would be father and daughter. However I find him romantically and even sexually attractive and I feel so...gross for it. I wish he was my father because my dad irl sucks (he's done lots of bad stuff I won't go into) and I use K to cope w it. Idk if this counts as cosang and I'm not even sure if I do experience or support it, but I'm seriously conflicted abt this. I've never found any of my relatives attractive irl and didn't even know cosang was a thing until today.

Idk if this is important or not but I'm also a lesbian woman and I've never been attracted to men fictional or not. K being a exception. I'll confess to you until I'm sure about my feelings. And if I don't experience cosang or support it I'll respect it at the very least.

If 🧀🐁 is free, can I be 🧀🐁 anon?

I thought I was over it but it just crawled right back. I am interested in fictional father/offspring relationships and even have a dadcest kink blog. Of course they dont know that I feel this way though. I dont know wether to consider thos eas being connected or not becauasde there have been times in my life where I was into these types of ships without thinking about my dad at all. It just sucks so much yknow? He's so terrible. I just wish he would smile at me again and call me his daughter. I thought he was getting better but now hes such a pain in the ass. I wish I didnt care again. I used to not care but now my heart and body feel heavy thinking about him. I hate these places my mind takes me. I hate thinking about kissing him and laying with him ect ect. Im just kind of patiently waiting for these thoughts to go away again. But yeah. Thanks for having somewhere to talk about this kind of stuff

That sounds like a really unfortunate struggle ♥️ I'm glad to have this space open for you