So yeah, I have a crush on my dad. More updates to come

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I'll keep my eyes and ears open, 🫀

I recently have a new alienkin consang memory!

Since I was with my brother in my memories, I remembered that we had made a few eggs together. Basically had babies together. We panicked at first because AAAAA- EGGS?! than alien mom found out and she was excited to have grandchildren. It was embarrassing but also makes me happy.

I also have a separated alterbeing kin memory. This time for one of my fictionkins. Idk if I am ready to mention my name during my fictionkin memories because I don’t want to attract the fandom here but in those kin memories, I was with my daughter in it. I miss her so much.. I miss holding her and kissing her. :,(

Because I very frequently fantasize about having a twin. Or just a sibling in general.

My parents told me when I was very young that I was meant to be a twin, but a miscarriage (I that's the right word in English, since it's not my native tongue) made me an only child.

My family has always had issues and I've never had a good relationship with my parents due to how they've abused me overtime. Bullied for being autistic, asocial, so I never had friends until my last year of high school. So ever since I was young, I'd fantasize about what it'd be like to have a sibling due to the knowledge that I wasn't meant to be alone.

And these fantasies can be romantic, sometimes. Or sexual. Anything that feels comforting at the time.

I'm not sure why I mourn the loss of someone that never was, who's objectively better off not having existed because I've been in therapy for a while as adult now and I see no end in sight to the sessions. I'm planning on bringing it up soon.

I know this will resonate with some of our readers

I'm glad you've found a place you're fine with ❤️

That's led to me wishing I was consang, because I already know my family, so I wouldn't have to go through the ordeal of meeting someone and getting to know them before I become attracted to them. In my mind, being attracted to my twin would be easier than falling for some other person. We know each other better than anyone, and I know that if we decided to just live together for the rest of our lives, we'd be plenty happy.

Obviously it wouldn't really be easier, what with society's views of consang couples. Plus, my twin is engaged and even if they weren't they probably would never feel the same way. But my brain still gets caught up in the idea.

roleplay makes it sound like its pretend rather than our actual feelings towards each other and im asexual so people assuming its just a sex thing feels hurtful to me :(

That's fair. I know some ace folk who more fully separate kink/roleplay and sex things, but like that doesn't mean that it would need to be for you, nor that even if it was that out ought feel fine in this particular context ❤️

H o l y

S h i t

I feel so disgusted and perverted.

I never came this much in my whole 20+ years of existence. Not until I imagined myself [Redacted] and touching Springtrap. I imagined sticking my hands and [Redacted] inside the holes in the torso + chest area of his animatronic body. Imagine getting his 30 years of rot and filth all over myself. Touching William’s remains inside of that animatronic suit, rubbing against him, and etc..

Just imagining that gave me the biggest [Redacted] that I ever had in my life. I was drooling, my whole body was twitching, I felt so hot yet kept getting the chills. I wasn’t even touching myself and I [Redacted] like 5-6 times in a row.

- ⚙️ Anon