Em's Blog

Well, its been a while. I'll go couple by couple. Okay, Crysah had their baby today!! Her name is Katie and she's adorable! They're going to make great parents, I am sure of it! The little one is quiet, unlike Crystal, but you can tell that she's going to be super smart. Saylor happened! They got married and now they have a kid on the way! I'm getting another niece or nephew! I can't wait! On a more serious note, they are trying to fight Aaron for custody of Nathan and I think as of right now the good side is winning (i.e. Saylor). Thank god for Bash and Mark. Tobia is having another kid!! And Toby told me Micah started walking today! That's incredible. These children are growing up too fast!! I'm also pregnant! That's three babies on the way! Its crazy! Danny and I are excited, and I think the twins are too! This year is going by fast, holy hell. Auverly got married a day before Saylor and the wedding was so gorgeous. I see kids in the future! Um, Bashna has been kinda quiet lately. Oh yeah! Anna quit her job and I know Bash is super supportive and I'm so happy they did eventually get together! And finally, Tay's best friend Eliza showed up and got back together with her high school sweetheart, Mark. The two are now engaged!! It's remarkable! (I'm hilarious.) That's all for now!!

Okay so the past few weeks has been... Weird. Apparently I've been sick because I'm sex deprived. I didn't even fucking know that was a thing. Danny /loves/ this and honestly I'm fine with it. I've had like 3 fights with Danny over the past month so OFC nothing has been happening and I think it's stress and that fact that made me sick. I'm just sick of fighting with him so I am 100% committing to change. I'm going to try to stop being so jealous and stop being so irritable and just be happy that I married my soulmate. I think I can do it. In other news before I know what was wrong with me, Anna and I thought I was pregnant and I'm not gonna lie I freaked out. Danny and I never talked about another kid and before that we were talking about Fleur and how she was always nice to me and I never knew and I just felt horrible and I literally ran away from Anna into the woods and cried. I wasn't pregnant but I just freaked out. I should really talk to Danny about that but... Later. Anna had Daisy and that kid is so fucking cute. She's a little angel and she loves her parents so much. Anna is obsessed with her (who wouldn't be, the kid is adorable) and I love watching her take care of Daisy. She's a brilliant mum. Crystal and Farrah are pregnant and I'm so happy for them! They can't wait and I know they'll be great parents!! Taylor AND Sam showed up here and tbh I started shipping them since then. It took almost two weeks but he finally asked her out and I cannot be happy enough for them. Danny isn't too thrilled but... Oops? Kai and Sierra are growing up so fucking fast. Sierra is almost equally both Danny and I. She has her moments when I see Danny and then there's the moments where she's like me and hits her brother and yells and its... Challenging. But rewarding. Kai on the other hand is adorable and only loud when Sierra is. They both love Daisy though! The nightmares started coming back and they've been depressing me... The meds aren't really helping but Dannys helping to remind me everyday to take them. He's the perfect husband and I love him so much. That's it for now! See you soon!

True Colors, Zedd & Kesha

Anyway, I must go before the insomnia kicks in! I swear to write again soon! 

This is going to be short. I got the weirdest phone call tonight. I have no idea what to make of it. Really, no idea. I just.... This is overwhelming. I need to sleep... Get a clear mind..

{takes a deep breath} Today, April 17th, 2016, Danny and I became parents. After being in labor for 18 hours (poor Crystal), Sierra Hope and Kaiser Sirius Ayton were born. After months, I finally feel ready to do this. I'm ready to do this with Danny. 2016 is already started out pretty well for me. Sierra sleep a lot and Kai's awake, but he kind of looks around. Sierra really only likes Danny holding her (daddy's girl, sigh) but every now and then she'll let me hold her. Kai literally could care less, I think he just likes the attention everyone's giving him. Sound familiar? I called mum and Taylor, they were both pretty happy for us. They said they'll be coming down soon to see the twins, and that they'll bring Nathan! That little one is growing so fast! Danny is the best husband ever. Sometimes he's annoying, but then days like today is what matters the most. He helped me brainstorm new middle names, he hugged me a lot, he was full of compliments, and he's already such a great dad. I'm so lucky to have married someone as amazing as him. In other news, I set Bashs sister Jade up with an old friend named Eli and they got together today! Officially! That makes me so happy, my first job as Cupid was a success! It's almost 5 am, but I can't sleep. I should, considering I've been up for almost 30 hours, more then that, but I just don't want to go to bed when these two gorgeous babies are only a few feet from me and they're sleeping happily! They're so cute, I can't stop thinking of them! Ughhhh I need to sleep. Nighttt

Yes this is Danny's shirt. Don't judge me.

That’s all for today. It’s now 4 am and I’m awake. I didn’t wake Danny this time, thank god but, yeah. Okay! Night!

I keep forgetting. It's a problem. Soooo, I'm just gonna update this once a week or something. Maybe. We'll see Okay so Toby is such a cupcake. He has broken all of our hearts and Danny and I are gonna avenge him. He's our little ray of sunshine. We must protect him. Speaking of Danny, THAT STUPID KITTEN IS EVIL. That's all I'm gonna say. Anna's birthday is today! She really likes the gift I got her! But I know she'll love Bashs even more! I hope she has an amazing day. Mums okay. Tay's a good mum so that's a good thing. Nathan's healthy. Dad.... I haven't really talked to him. He's the one who left sooo.. I keep having nightmares. It's been too much. Waking up Danny because I'm screaming makes me feel terrible. *sigh* He always assures me he's okay but... Ughh. That's all for this week! Sorry!

I forgot the past few days! Sorry!! Okay, so Danny is a stupid kitten. He's cute and all but he's sometimes an idiot, so that makes him a stupid kitten. It hurts my heart. You know what else hurts my heart? His fucking cute face. It should be illegal. The other night I had a nightmare. It was terrible... Danny had left me for Fleur and my kidnapper came back and forced me to watch them... Do things... I woke up screaming and crying. Danny woke up immediately, calming me down and holding me close. I didn't calm down for hours.. I felt horrible that I kept him up that long, but he told me it was okay. He's just amazing. Anna and I talked a lot over the past few days. I told her about when Danny and I kissed when we were 17. She told Toby, who told Bash. Soon Toby yelled at Danny on the timeline so everyone knew. It's not that big of a deal anymore, Danny and I had a small fight but we made up. Him and his stupid kitten face. Um... I don't know what else to say. I'm still in love with Paris. And Danny. And I love my life. That's all today! Hopefully I'll remember tomorrow!

Helloooo. Okay so today I told Anna what my tattoo was and she seemed to like it! Yay!! Danny likes it too and Toby just can't believe I let someone give me one. He's so afraid of needles. I /may/ have killed Danny with my icon. Again. What can I say? It's fun! I found some old photos and home videos of us and OMF I'm cringing. Help. Nighty night!

I think one of the things I love most about marriage is when I annoy Danny to no end and there's so many more ways he can shut me up now. Kissing me is his favorite, so naturally I'm just going to keep annoying him. Makes sense right? Crystal, Toby, Bash, and I have a conversation about marriage! We're talking about what we like most and how much we love our partners and I'm happy! It still feels weird calling Danny my husband, but right all the same! I could never want anyone better, nor could I find anyone better! He's my soulmate, and he always will be. Speaking of Crys, she sent me a screenshot of her conversation with Danny and he just has to stop being cute!!!! I can't. This journal entry is mainly Danny related, but I haven't fangirled or gone on about him in a while, so I mean it was going to come soon enough. But yes! Today was a Danny-Fangirl day. I'm so tired, wow. Hopefully I'll have more tomorrow!