Welcome to a higher conchezness

All of my difficulties stemmed, I’d come to realize, from acting on unconscious assumptions that I had internalized about the world, about life, but kept hitting walls that ended up being my soul! My soul resisted to go along with something that entailed disconnecting from it completely in order to take on the demons of others. And all I could see was self-sabotage and failure. I was mad. At myself, at God, at everything. I didn’t understand what was holding me back and why others didn’t seem to have those internal conflicts. It took me years of blind trust on intuition before I would start to get a glimpse into the nature of the battle I was fighting in. And boy was it of cosmic proportions! I had to grow into the words that could describe what was happening. I didn’t have enough space in me to take in that kind of information. I still don’t know fully but I’ve come to trust what I can’t see but feel. I trust my intuition more than my physical vision.

All of my difficulties stemmed, I’d come to realize, from acting on unconscious assumptions that I had internalized about the world, about life, but kept hitting walls that ended up being my soul! My soul resisted to go along with something that entailed disconnecting from it completely in order to take on the demons of others. And all I could see was self-sabotage and failure. I was mad. At myself, at God, at everything. I didn’t understand what was holding me back and why others didn’t seem to have those internal conflicts. It took me years of blind trust on intuition before I would start to get a glimpse into the nature of the battle I was fighting in. And boy was it of cosmic proportions! I had to grow into the words that could describe what was happening. I didn’t have enough space in me to take in that kind of information. I still don’t know fully but I’ve come to trust what I can’t see but feel. I trust my intuition more than my physical vision.

I never knew it was a thing but as soon as people were like this isn’t what New Zealand is about, we’re all in shock I knew that there was something they were hiding and their portrayed obliviousness was a way to dissolve guilt. They were too quick to defend their image to the world. Too damn quick. Wacha hiding there pal?